I'm not down

[daniela_renton]

So I have lived, that kind of day
When none of your sorrows will go away
Go down and down and hit the floor
Down and down and down some more
Depression
But I know, there'll be some way
When I can swing everything back my way
Like skyscrapers, rising up
Floor by floor, I'm not giving up...

(The Clash)

I've just sort of recovered from almost 2 hours

Comments

[jai]

As much as that is scary to read, your nightmares are based on a realistic fear and one that people face every day. If you are looking for advice, mine would be that Sebastian seems to be very open about where to move and all, and he wants to go WITH you, not just drag you along with him. I think he is very, very open to discussing this whole thing with you so that you could find a place where you both will be able to fit in and use your skills. If nothing else, his suggestion of Montreal (or really any part of Canada) is a good one, I think, since Canadians speak both English and French.

[daniela_renton]

You're right in everything, he's open to dicussion, and I have to admit my fear is a bit irrational, it's just that I'm going through a period of my life where I'm not really sure what I wanna do, and I don't wanna carry my insecurities with me to another country...I feel that I lack experience to make important decisions, whereas he has experienced a lot more than I and feels somewhat urged to leave...I don't feel this urgency right now, maybe I will someday, but at the same time, I don't wanna be a limitation for him, I don't want him to stay for me and sense his unhappiness, so I force myself into this future plannning which I'm not currently comfortable with:/ I dunno, we still have time to figure this out, it's not like we're leaving this year, so I shouldn't we worrying so early...

[sseafaring]

*hugs*

I'm sorry about the nightmares; that's awful. Have you talked to him about the moving situation?

(Sorry I'm so behind with LJ here). I hope you're feeling better! I hate nightmares.

[daniela_renton]

It is, specially for me, that I rarely have them!
He has raised the subject before, but I guess I never took it so seriously...I did get somehow involved by doing a research on requirements to inmigrate to Canada, but that's as far as I've been...but this time he sounded more determined/anxious, so it's a whole different thing...he IS meaning to leave...
Thank you Steph!

[ten_no_ryu81]

YO creo... mmm.. creo q falta muuuuuuucho como para llorar.

[daniela_renton]

Lo sé, pero es que soy tonti^^'