The silence is, truthfully, respecting you and the fact that you detest Krycek so much. From the sound of this, that won't change any time soon.
If I'm in your life, so's Alex, pure and simple. This has just cemented my decision to keep my distance, because I'm not giving him up and I don't want to deliberately upset you even more.
I do wish you well with your relationship, though.
I don't detest Krycek. I detest how he made you feel. I remember how upset and how stressed you were. It hurts me to see you hurt. But it hurts me more to not have you in my life. You're like a brother, my best friend, my partner. I just don't understand why he's worth every sacrifice and all this work and anguish, and you can't even try to work on your friendship with me.
*Looking down and sad.* I care so much about you. If you love him and he makes you happy, then I can respect that. But the last time I saw you, you were NOT happy. That's why I was so worried. And I am with someone, and it tears me apart that you aren't here to give me shit. *smile* I thought that was our job...I know I'm rough on you about him. But any game anyone plays with him has very high stakes, Mulder. I care too much about you...I do.
I'm a big boy, Scully. And maybe I need to work on what I have with him because I know you'll be there for me if I need you. I don't need to work on that.
*coughs* What did you say? You...were wrong? *teasing smile*
*shrugs* No, Mulder. I was wrong. I shouldn't have come down on you so hard. I should have respected your intelligence and your ability to take care of yourself. As you say, you are a big boy. And there is never a time or a place that I won't be here for you. No matter what ever happens. I'm sorry, Mulder. I really am.
And I know that no matter what happens for me, with...all of this...you will be there, too.
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*her voice is gentle, but firm*
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The silence is, truthfully, respecting you and the fact that you detest Krycek so much. From the sound of this, that won't change any time soon.
If I'm in your life, so's Alex, pure and simple. This has just cemented my decision to keep my distance, because I'm not giving him up and I don't want to deliberately upset you even more.
I do wish you well with your relationship, though.
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*Looking down and sad.* I care so much about you. If you love him and he makes you happy, then I can respect that. But the last time I saw you, you were NOT happy. That's why I was so worried. And I am with someone, and it tears me apart that you aren't here to give me shit. *smile* I thought that was our job...I know I'm rough on you about him. But any game anyone plays with him has very high stakes, Mulder. I care too much about you...I do.
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I guess I was wrong. Wouldn't be the first time.
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*shrugs* No, Mulder. I was wrong. I shouldn't have come down on you so hard. I should have respected your intelligence and your ability to take care of yourself. As you say, you are a big boy. And there is never a time or a place that I won't be here for you. No matter what ever happens. I'm sorry, Mulder. I really am.
And I know that no matter what happens for me, with...all of this...you will be there, too.
Okay, Mulder. Enough sap. *grin* How are you?
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