I am selfish.

I am jealous.

I am upset.

I am emotional.

I am tired.

I am ...I don't even know!.

I am one lucky girl.
Cody is a wonderful
boyfriend. I would
never ask for any-
thing different! I
am in love. And I
love the feeling of
it so much. I am so
very much lucky. It
is pretty much crazy!

My grandfather is over right now. Which is awesome. He is a really cool guy. He came over for dinner. We are having Pasta with sauce. Spagettii. <-- ( Read more... )

I am very much in love with my boyfriend, Cody.

everything now is, just.

I wish it all would get better.

I want my nightmares to go away.

I want to dream of normal things.

I don't want to wake up screaming anymore.

I don't want to cry.

I don't want to hurt.

there's no getting away from it...

I spent today with Hannah. It was fun. Hope, Hannah, and I went to the mall and bought a big bag so we could "sneak" Mcdonlds in to the dollar movies. Then we went to youth group so Hannah could go surprise Charles. She did. He was very excited to see her. During the lesson, Charles had us go find a place inside the youth house or outside, for 10 ( Read more... )

I am so sick of people.

I really wish they

would all leave me

alone and fuck up

someone elses life.

I am not happy with where my life is right now. I wish I had the courage and strength to do more things for myself. I am sick and tired of everyone and their little comments and opinions. I want to move where no one knows me. I wish I ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning.. went to school. My boyfriend wasn't there so.. there was really no point in going. but i just dragged on through the day. After school.. I had to take a math test.. I don't think I did very well. I got like a 22-26 out of 70 or 80 something. which.. is not good at all. So, I hope I get atleast a C on this. I believe the ( Read more... )

Cody left for Alabama yesterday.. I am upset. I have to wait one week for him. I miss him so much ( Read more... )

I want some reassurance. You say somethings that make me feel unneeded, and just unpleasant. I feel like crap. and then there are other times were you treat me wonderfully you make me feel loved. But, damn it. it's probably me. maybe i get depressed to easily. Maybe i blame things on myself too much and doubt. w/e i am sick of everything.

Today was fun.. until i got home. This morning I was at my fathers house and then drove to my mothers house. From there mary picked me up at 10am, for me to go meet her cousins. well, the one that she wants me to stand up with at your birthday thing. So, we have a good time. and then i get home and my world just kind of falls apart. I hate life ( Read more... )