About time....

[cyberbitch]

I have decided to update my journal at last. My attention has been swayed by the evil game Neverwinter Nights, which I believe has addictive qualities

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[angelite]

It was a betrayal that fucked me up. Well, just a whole relationship really. His friends hated me, really hated me and wouldn't even talk to me when I went to parties. So I'd be sat in the corner not talking to anyone. For some reason, he couldn't see that they hated me, and just thought I was being an anti-social cowbag, which lead to so many arguments (he basically thought I wasn't trying)

And then his "friends" pushed him into cheating on me. I actually read an email to him saying "I don't know what you see in that Melissa. Don't you think Sian is better suited for you. Go for it."

That destroyed me. And since then, I've been carrying emotional baggage around with me. Everytime I meet someone new, I think they are going to hate me, and try and pursuade Jeff to dump me. I try not to think that, but its hard. This was nearly five years ago, but I can't let it go.

So reading from you " I want to leave it behind and be a better person, but the most frustrating thing in the entire world is this........I don't know how!!!!"

[cyberbitch]

Yeah I have this really annoying "everybody hates me" thing going on too.....Even tho I know it's totally stupid!

I have a headache.......

Thanks for reading Mel, it's nice to know I'm not alone in my madness (altho it's not that nice for you either :()

Need to get rid of headache......

We mentalists shall prevail.....honest

*goes to lie down*

[xsomnambulistx]

*HUG*

I sorry I didnt get to read that before I left.

[cyberbitch]

YAAAAAYYY she's still here!.....I didn't post it before you left, I'm feeling better today.....I just feel like that on my bad days. I decided to not be angry at work yesterday which seemed to work...:)