So ignore my last entry, I dont't really feel like that, I don't believe any of it. But we all lose faith sometimes. Anyway, going to Hell-A soon, and thank god, I need a break from AZ in the worst way. Going to visit a pal and help him with his new zombie movie, maybe get al little work done and learn some of the behind-the-scenes stuff of moie ( Read more... )

Fuck love, fuck caring or giving a shit, fuck joy and "happily ever after", fuck crying over people who don't give a shit, fuck giving your heart to people who don't care or notice. Fuck them and Fuck love.

that is all. have a nice night.

I only wanted something I can never have
All the friends I know go away in the end
I wish I was to dead to cry
that's what I get
weak and powerless
I burn

(the writer humbly appologizes for the disgusting use of bad gothy plagerism, she is very sick and unhappy)

Tonight I did my first play piercing. For those of you who son't know what that means a play piercing is a piercing for the sake of piercing..no jewelry is put in, its just of the feeling that comes with it. I had six 18g needles put in my back on the inside of my shoulder blades (pictures to come). Not much to an experienced masochist, but ( Read more... )

Anyone who's watched NBK closely will get the joke.. Otherwise WATCH THE FUCKIN' MOVIE ( Read more... )

Take them down ( Read more... )

Strange things are happening. My sexual energy has reached a new high. I've always been naturall Tantric, but I seem to be going super-saen. Its crazy! I'm effecting people and bringing them intense pleasures like never before, and I'm loving it. So strong...I wonder where it is all leading...I love my paths.

I have been feeling this power growing inside me, rippling and moving like a child in the womb. No..I'm not pregnant, I'm menstruating for fuck's sake. But I am feeling more close to the Goddess before, never felt so strong.... and its getting bigger. Feel myself growing into someone big...no more tiny scared feelings. My wings are growing.... ( Read more... )

I am a very happy little kitty right now! I was supposed to have a shoot today, just a regular boy/girl sex scene..but after the producer saw me and talked to me he decided to completely shange the scene. He decided to change to a FemDom BDsm/sex scene and he's basically letting me write my own script! Whoohoo! He also said that I was too hot, ( Read more... )

I see him in the dark ( Read more... )