today was one one the most different but fuckin awesome days.........hope they keep coming.....i feel that people really care about me....im sloley gettin family members back and all my friends i saw today made me feel comfortable is some way.

I think im lost........no i know im lost....what is today? something hurts but i dont know what it is...D's got ahold of me.

so.....today was weird...it was the first day in a while that i didnt kick it with mary gail and it was lame.....dont ask me why...me and her have the best carma around eachother its crazy..im never sad around here..shes amazin ( Read more... )

so.....for the past few mounths i have been going throught the most horrible time in my life....mentaly. And ive ended up on the other side of this struggel laughing back at it. for the first time in life i can say im happy....im helping my family right now. Starting this business....and i know its gonna take time and im not sweating it. im not ( Read more... )

As i take this drag all i can think about is the thoughts to come. heh....thinkin of thoughts starts the panic. Panic of knowing that when you wonder your mind wont flow clear, but balck and clowdy. just that fear of knowing that this drag will feed the fire, gives me the kick. my MIND has a MIND of its own.........

MATILDA....ciggs......sleep...all i need to get by....ya feel me.

today i had a pretty good time. My friend josh stoped by to see me and i went with him to exchange some shits his mom got him that were too small..then he droped me back off....Mary saved me from bordem....we went to GA's house n chilled....nothin special but beats the fuck out of my house ( Read more... )

im bored and i need a smoke....ill sit here at home all day......noone will call to say hello. i wont do anything but wait for the next day that falls under the "okay day" catagorie. they come and go. i dont sweat it. i think alot. what if's. it fucks with me.

i had a dream of you lastnight.
i was worried that that might happen.
i fear my heart.
im trying to forget it.
but im sure it will haunt me.
your eyes are strong...and i fear to meet mine with yours.
but it will all blow over.

i had a dream of you lastnight.
i was worried that that might happen.
i fear my heart.
im trying to forget it.
but im sure it will haunt me.
your eyes are strong...and i fear to meet mine with yours.
but it will all blow over.