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[cubanbee]

Im sick everything hurts. finnaly i feel my body is matching my soul i dont know whether to feel relieved or disgusted at myself for kinda of enjoying the degradation of body. geez i should slap myself im starting to sound like a fucking goth. things have been fucking confusing out here in the va met a girl i think she likes me at least from all

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[xkinkybunnyx]

you are right, you never know a persons true intentions but you know what you can never rule out the good. Although this may sound cliche the experience is worth it, never realized that till recently. Everything will be just the way its supposed to and no matter how much the big man fucks around with your head its just a test and you like most people will pass. I miss you a lot and hopefully will see you soon. 44 days sober and counting..

good work

[cubanbee]

im proud of you. keep it up if it makes you feel better and your right about everything you said im feeling better today about the whole situation and know that whatever is ment to be will be. so ill take comfort in that for now. miss you call when you can write when you can well stay in contact.

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[xkinkybunnyx]

I called you the other night but yet again nobody was home. I still love to listen to ur answering machine.. you guys sound so funny. Im still waiting for november I really want to see you. You know even the way you write sounds different. You sound lighter and maybe happier.. I feel like while you are growing better im growing more bitter with everyday. At night I think about how shits fucked up and it looks like even if I dont get into CUNY Honors im gonna have to stay in the city cuz my mother and I cant afford college.. who ever would have thought I would be caged int his hell hole. Dont want to bring you down so let me stop call me when you can 646-209-1279