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[cross_the_sky]

Still not dead, just been crazy busy! And not with anything exciting, unless you consider medical crap, therapy crap and home remodeling to be exciting. And in my downtime I've been enjoying playing the original Fallout, because I found it for the Mac and I really miss the first two. I totally failed on character creation though, so I've ended

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[attilatehbun]

HI YOU ♥ ♥ ♥

[cross_the_sky]

HI YOU TOO! *hugs* I've been thinking of you a lot lately. Especially right now, because the Tabatha's Salon Takeover on right now is the one where she went to Avanti on Newbury St.

[attilatehbun]

Hah I was actually just watching that one the day before yesterday and thinking of you!

I HAVE MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSED YOU

[cross_the_sky]

Bwahahahaha! Did you ever go there? I went once when this stylist friend of mine from the pet place worked there briefly. IT WAS NOT LIKE THAT TEN YEARS AGO!

I MISS YOU TOOOOOOOOO! We need to figure out a good time for phone talkies, dude. It has been too long.

[firebird_88]

I am getting really overwhelmed by technology nowadays, too. I only just moved to a Blackberry, but all my friends are always babbling about the newest iPhone app. @___@; Overstimulation to the max!

That being said, don't push yourself to write. I haven't written in years, but sometimes I do write drabbles when I'm in the mood. I'm usually very proud of them, because they have a lot of thought/emotion/thinking behind them.

[cross_the_sky]

I'm very glad I'm not alone. I have a very old phone that makes calls, texts, and can take maybe 10 crappy pictures. I don't comprehend these new phones. I can't even tell what's a phone and what's just...a little thingy that can do all kinds of stuff. But I see commercials and find myself going '...this is the stuff they had in sci-fi shows when I was growing up, wtf?!?!'. I guess it's partly just the fact that these things exist in my lifetime, and not near the end of it like I would have expected.

I'm trying not to, and not stress about it. It's just a bit frustrating to go into my mind and have this weird emptiness in parts of it. And there's the persistent nervousness that all the awesome creativity in there is linked directly to my psychosis and the anti-psychotics have taken it away. But I try and chalk that up to just a fear of so many things I've heard - if I'm writing lyrics and poetry, obviously the writing bits of my brain are fine and I just need more time for my brain to adjust to it's new chemical makeup.

[firebird_88]

Hahaha they're actually not very hard to learn (they make them sort of idiot-proof) but they do cost a lot and eat up a lot of time because people get addicted to games, surfing the web, etc. I still prefer an old-fashioned book and stuff.

I figured out early on that I'm most creative when I'm stressed, and to be honest, I'd rather not be stressed so I don't push it lol. Best of luck though! Hopefully it will come back; creativity is not really predictable lol.

[cross_the_sky]

Yeah, I barely have time for regular internet on the computer, let alone...everything that these little devices can do! That's another thing that scares and sort of bothers me: dependency on technology. So many people nowadays just don't have to do things for themselves. There are machines to do everything. For twenty bucks I can get a robot that will essentially cook food for me, or vacuum, or clean the cat box. I know people who freak the hell out if they're away from an internet access device for a single day. Hell, you don't even have to bother with books if you don't want to!

See, that's what sticks with me! Creativity is so intricately linked to brain chemistry and moods and whatnot that the little fear persists. Thank you! It'd be nice to be able to answer inquiries with 'yes, I can submit a piece to you!' rather than 'circumstances are currently preventing me from producing new material, very sorry'. Also...I could seriously use the cash!

[chaneystarr]

I've clearly been off LJ too long. Saw this post and went Who the heck is this? before I realized you changed your LJ name! *tackles you* Hope you're doing well! <3

[cross_the_sky]

I was wondering where you were! I'm cool now, had a really bad patch, found out I'm legally psychotic...or was, now I'm on Thorazine. :D

[chaneystarr]

I fell off the earth for a year or two. >.> Woe, Fey *glomps you* I'm glad you're having a better time of it now. I've missed you! I came back and everyone'd left LJ, lol. It was very strange.

[cross_the_sky]

Is okay, I fell off it for about half a year. It happens. *hugs* It's all cool now, for the most part, so yay. :D I KNOW! It's so weird.

!!!!!! The kitty in your icon looks like my kitten! But with much brighter eyes!

[ext_432565]

It's a Fey, and she's alive. It's Cryssy btw, in case you're wondering.

Glad to see you're still trucking! I was worried when you kinda dropped off the face of the planet.

[cross_the_sky]

YOU! *glomps* I was just thinking about you yesterday!

Yeah, I'm back from whacky paranoid psychosis land. :D And doing much, much better. I'm really glad to hear from you.

[ext_432565]

Huzzah! I was trying to go back through your journal to see what I missed, but there are so many holes and you need to fill me in! I am glad you are doing better though. I was praying in my own little ways that you would get through it.

So yeah, I will be in AZ March 2-12. Any chance you might be able to either get down to Phx? I am trying to work out transportation while I am there, but I am not sure if I will be able to get my happy ass up there. Ashley's daughter is only going to be 3 weeks old by then, so I would hate to get her sick or anything by going all over the place.

[cross_the_sky]

Yeah, I didn't post too much in my LJ, but really all it comes down to is I had a psychotic break due to paranoid psychosis and needed the kind of treatment you don't get as an out-patient. Now I can has thorazine.

I might! Depending on my house sitting schedule, Danni's work schedule and gas money. But I don't think I'm house sitting until closer to March 20th. I'll talk to Danni and do my damn best to get my ass down there!