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[cphiecekslee]

holy crap. i completely forgot that livejournal existed for about a year... i remembered it and came here and read all the shit we used to write and i was cracking up so hard at how much we all suck and my mom thought i was schizo because she couldnt figure out who i was laughing at

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[cphiecekslee]

its fine. but i met a boy in my freshman year and i told everyone i had a crush on him to explain why i was basically stalking him. but its because he reminds me of my brother. and now he still goes to my school but he is a senior now. and i am still stalking him kinda because he has the same name as my bro and the same eyes-almost...it is sad it is doing something to my head though and its making me insane.....

[cphiecekslee]

its bringing back old shame and fear and this intense longing to see him again...i honestly think its making me go kind of funny in the head because every time i see him i see my brother. every time i talk to him and he answers back, my brain tricks me into imagining that its someone else. but its his eyes that drive me really crazy...they are way too close to my bro's...and he isn't the type that looks down or the other way. he is always looking into my eyes whenever we are nearby one another. and he pierces me with them. im telling you gwenna, its nerve wracking. it honestly hurts me...it brings back guilt and the worst memory i have ever had. things i thought i could hide within myself forever. AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I AM LOSING MY MIND

i hope no one else sees this even though they dont know who or what i am talking about...but

[_chesirecat_]

The secret was basically that they are going to kill their mentally retarded cousin.