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[countessdeweird]

First up, I need to apologise to you all. I'm falling behind in reading and commenting on everybody's journals. I will catch up, I promise, but I've been severely lacking in motivation for anything much lately.

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[countessdeweird]

Thanks :) I usually find that dancing lifts my mood, and if a cup of tea can't improve my outlook at least a little then I must have a Serious Problem. The best solution for me has been in proving the little gremlins in my head wrong by doing whatever it is that they're saying I can't. It might take me a long time, and maybe it takes me a few goes, but if I can take steps towards achieving something then I can derail the depressive cycle and get on with things.

[katzendame]

When were you in Fiji? Enjoyed the bit you did share, including those videos.

[countessdeweird]

This was in January last year. I'm so glad I took some videos as well as just photos. The quality might not be great but there's details that I would forget if all I had was still images.

[gooseberrywine]

your mental health patterns sound a lot like mine. One of the problems for me is when i'm feeling good I don't do the self maintenance stuff because I'm like "yeah I'm fine!" which makes it harder to come out of a slump when I do finally crash

[countessdeweird]

That makes a lot of sense to me. I think mine is tied to my ADD. I'll be gaining momentum and getting excited about all the things I could do, and I'll try to take on too many different projects all at once because I can't focus on just one thing, and then suddenly there's quite a lot of things I'm supposed to be doing and I can't keep up with it all and I start feeling like crap. I really need to work harder on limiting the new projects I start and finishing things off properly! When I'm in a low energy depressive kinda phase, my ADD seems to be automatically easier to deal with because I can't find the energy to skip between a million different things. I suppose there's a silver lining in here: the depression gives me a model of what I can try to do in terms of self-care when I'm feeling good to try and avoid overcommitting and becoming more depressed.

[countessdeweird]

Thanks so much :) It always helps to have somebody remind me that it's okay to look after myself; sometimes I really do forget and feel like I don't deserve it. It's silly- everybody deserves to be treated well, especially by themselves!