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[cosmicpiety]

i'm feeling like it is quite possible that i will never have a someone special in my life.
i've never really had a boyfriend and it's not like a even really want one.
i've only met ONE person that i can actually see myself with and i haven't talked to him in almost 2 years
whatever we had just sort of dwindled away after a a few four hour phonecalls

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[ifonlyiknew]

If you are, then I've been well on my way for a few years more! I've wondered that same thing myself though. I'm pretty content most of the time, but there are certain times when it would be nice to have someone else there. I honestly can't see myself with someone, I did that before, and I was stuck with those same standards that no one can live up to, not even the person that helped me create those standards. I was crushed when I finally realized he wasn't who I thought he was, but I'm glad I saw it. I spent years holding out for him, comparing others to him, and about a year ago it finally occurred to me that I wasted those years. I can't picture myself with anyone anymore, but that also makes me wonder if the one/s we can picture ourselves with are actually who or what we need? Most people I know that are happy and have that someone were surprised by it... it just happened, it wasn't something that they saw coming. It's hard not to go looking sometimes,but maybe once we give up that fantasy, then maybe it'll be ushered in. Shoot, I