Wow, dude, I'm done. It's so anticlimactic. Maybe it's because school was the escape for me and it did me well for two years. Yeah, I've racked up wicked debt by not working full time for two years, but it was worth it to just take a brain break. I've had people come and go - friends, one boyfriend, acquaintances - and it's been an interesting ( Read more... )

I decided to try an experiment to see why I was so emotionally goofy over Mark: I quit my birth control. I was on the lowest amount possible, but the amount of estrogen hitting my system was jacking me in the head. When I started it last July I could tell I was more irritable than usual (like permanent PMS); I've been back to my old self this last ( Read more... )

My friends want me to let go and move on and they are right when they tell me why. Kate posted a comment about the relationship needing to be mutual effort and she's right and that's a huge point as to why I broke up with him. Crystal pointed out (and reminded me) that he didn't go out of way at all to make me more comfortable in the relationship ( Read more... )

And no, I'm not necessarily talking about the Mark situation (though my restless sleep is definitely attributed to it ( Read more... )

So he knows I want a second chance, but he doesn't know where he stands right now. I completely understand. I mean, here it is, I overreacted and made a mistake in breaking up with him. Is he willing to risk a second chance with me? He's been hurt before, so who's to say he'll try again with me? My friends think I'm in the right (and I appreciate ( Read more... )

I have never second guessed myself like this. I have never been at such war with myself. The only other time I've been physically ill from stress was after Hannah died. I made a mistake and I don't know if he will be willing to reconcile ( Read more... )

Yet two more friends from back in the day are expecting a child. I remember when he was with this idiot of a girl and dumped her by just not talking to her for a few weeks (which amuses me as that seems to be the way I'm going now ( Read more... )

Dude, I don't know what I did to my iTunes, but I think I need to rebuild my library completely on my computer. I went through and purged some files I no longer needed (song files, mind you), but I think I may have accidentally deleted some library file. All I know is now iTunes can no longer locate any songs, even the ones that I uploaded from a ( Read more... )

If you don't admit the crush to yourself, then you won't walk away from a conversation feeling like the biggest tool out there. Go back to floating in the great crushless abyss you were happy in.

I've been shivering all day today, touching and rubbing my neck all because of that stupid dream last night ( Read more... )