boys boys boys.

[coppering]

I have a crush on a boy.

He doesn't like me back.

WHY is life so unfair? ugh. I need to start liking boys that like me back, my heart is hurting to much for this bunk.

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[lavishsqualor]

Is this the same boy I met a little while ago, or a new one? hmmm?

And while unrequited loves suck major, and I feel for you, really. I am also jealous. Cause you have boys to have crushes on. I? Have no one. :(

[coppering]

it's the same one! It's progressed to me completely in LOVE with him. kind of. sort of. I don't know. I decided I need to not love him anymore because it was making me sad. last night I got a little high after work and then hung out with him and a bunch of people, and I think I love him more than ever, but I'm not going to say it to anyone else but you.

shit.

alisssssssss... I can't handle this, I just want someone to spend time with that will like me, think I'm funny and get a boner because of me! Is that too much to ask?

[lavishsqualor]

Honey, that is not too much to ask at all! And if he's the one you kinda sorta love (I won't tell anyone, swear) then I wish so badly for you it could be him. Damn, why can't that boy see what an amazing girl he has after him?!

[coppering]

I think I'm just getting tired of being the girl that guys don't like. I mean, I have guy friends, but there aren't ever guys that liek me enough to date me.

I am also a little mad at myself because in all honestly I'm completely closed off to any sort of intimacy and probably have never made it clear that I am even interested in him.

FEELINGS ARE COMPLICATED!

[coppering]

Thanks love! It's just kind of the worst at times because it's partially me being unwilling to put myself even out there, so really I think I'm almost more angry at myself than the situation. UGH. I need to grow up a little bit and stop being completely afraid of rejection.