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[coming_clean]

I think things would be easier if I didn't have to see her at work. I have such a mixture of emotions every time I see her face. It’s like love/anger/sorrow all rolled into one. And it makes my chest feel empty and burn. How can I continue this? I still don’t understand how she could so casually break my heart as if it were as easy as writing a

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Oh I didn't know :(

[bradsmith1979]

Is there some kind of break-up dust in the air what's the deal? It's the same story with a lot of people lately, including me. I really understand what you mean when you talk about 5+ years having to come to an end and having memories popping up all the time. For me it was only 3 or 4 months, but still, that's one month less than the time I had spent in Paris when she broke up with me. Even when I would try to think of something else, there was something around every corner that would make me think of her. After 5 years, the world must be a labyrinth of that right now for you... It's hard, and it definitely won't be snap like that, but as soon as you stop living that period and you start to see it more as a period in your past, you can at least start to look forward. I know, not easy. I feel for you man, hang in there.

[longthinker]

sorry noah :( i know it feels like your personal plague eating inside out. learn from me and dont focus on the past or its endless(ugh, i could have done this or that-avoid those ideas) x.x

miss ya bro

[anonymous]

hey noah--

sorry to hear this. i had no idea. take care of yourself... i hope everything turns out ok.

miss you,
kati

[enjoyyourday]

I read this entry at work today really early in the morning, and I was just driving home and listening to the Dismemberment Plan, and there's this line that says the following, and it reminded me of your entry:

There was a time when you could make me laugh at will
And you can do it still
But never is it for the right reason

Come home, we have a bass position to be filled.