"Kare no Shiawase" | Oneshot
"Baka!"
He whispered to himself as he looked away. He diverted his sight to the wall on his side but it didn't help. His eyesight went back to where it was within a minute.
She chuckled lightly at what her friend said to her.
His heart clenched in pain. He wanted to make her laugh like that too, but he couldn't. Sometimes, he wished he could go back through time and re-do things. If that would happen, he won't join the show business industry and maybe, he could enjoy life more. He could have been one of the persons with her.
Suddenly, a man sat on the table in front of him, blocking his view of her.
"Oh come on!" He growled in annoyance.
He wanted to stand up and pull away the man blocking his view. He was tired with all the things that he needed to endure for the whole week and now a man was ruining his only way of relaxation. Why is the world unfair on critically important times?
He face-palmed and then brought his eyesight down to the book on his lap. He let his bangs cover his face. He felt the sudden pain of loneliness, of being empty deep within.
Again, he heard her voice talking in a louder volume. She's really enjoying the conversation she was having with her two friends. They were laughing at something nonsense again, he thought.
He stole glance of her again. Good thing the man in front of him walked away already. Maybe he had read the atmosphere. Maybe he knew his story all along. Nevertheless, he was thankful.
"Ahaha! Then he looked like something hard hit him on the face! Haha!!!" She said loudly.
Her friends laughed all along.
He smiled. Their laughs were contagious. He felt his cheeks heating so he cupped his face with his hands. He felt his heart fluttering in happiness every time he hears her voice.
And he continued looking at her. She really looked so care-free. No problems at all. Just enjoying her life to the fullest.
'I wanna be like you...' He thought. 'I wonder how you live your life.'
She laughed heartily again, tears were already on the corners of her eyes. He saw it even though she was wearing her usual red eyeglasses. Her face was red due to too much laughing.
He wanted to laugh at how funny she looked like but he couldn't so he hid his chuckle by sipping the coffee he got from the table.
"He said, no I was talking to your friend. I was really embarrassed about that but I just laughed!!!" She relayed with embarrassment on her tone.
"HAHAHA!!!" Her friends laughed at her.
He chuckled out of the blue. He didn't able to hold it anymore. He thought they might have heard him.
"Oh crap...~" He mouthed as he immediately looked down at his book, pretending that he was reading all along and that he was laughing at something on the book.
Few minutes passed and when he decided that the coast was already clear, he glance at her direction again. He sighed in relief when he saw them still continuing their conversation.
'That was close.'
And then, one of her friend said they should go home now. He got alarmed.
'She's going now...'
The three of them stood up already. He felt lonely again. The happiness he had vanished the moment she disappeared from his sight. He heaved a sigh.
"That's fine. I know I'll see her next weekend again." He cheered himself up. "As for now, I should be contented."
He had been doing this for a while already. He tend to go to the coffee shop near the train station, don his usual anti-fan girl clothing, sit on his usual seat on the secluded part of the shop with a book on his lap and stare at her secretly. It started one Saturday when he saw her alone, reading something intently.
Since that, he had reserved his Saturday afternoons for reading on the coffee shop, or in truth, for seeing her. He never thought he would gonna admire a simple person like her. She laughs so loudly, she doesn't put make up on her face, her hair doesn't always look tidy, she doesn't act in a prim and proper way but she really attracts his attention. At first, it started as a random curiosity. He just wanna know things about her but it gradually morphed into something he didn't expect.
He drank all the content of his cup then prepared to go out of the shop already when he heard the shop's door being pushed in haste. He immediately looked on it in reaction of the chime being hit by the door and almost jumped out of his seat in sudden happiness.
"She came back!" He said.
Yes, she did. She looked really in a hurry. She ran towards the table they occupied just a while ago. Sweats were on her forehead. He bet she ran all the way.
"Yatta!!!" She exclaimed. She crouched and took something on the floor. A sky-blue handkerchief. "Wahh! I thought I lost you!!!"
'Haha!!!' He laughed inwardly. 'I know another thing about her again! Now I know she's clumsy.' He smiled at the realization but he continued looking at her.
Out of a sudden, she turned to him with a surprised look.
'Crap! She is looking at me.' He panicked. He didn't know what to do.
She then smiled at him and proceeded outside.
"Ehh?? S-she... she just smiled... at me." He looked dumfounded. He wasn't expecting that.
His heart was beating very fast. His nerves were shaking. After a minute or two, things sunk on to him and he felt butterflies rummaging his stomach.
'Kyaaa! She smiled at me!!!' His thoughts screamed as he hurriedly went outside, hoping he could still have a glimpse of her.
He didn't fail. He saw her walking with her friends.
And after they disappeared out of his sight, he decided to finally head home too.
His week was complete.
It was actually more than complete because... 'She smiled at me!'
Who would have thought that one of the handsome guys in Johnny's Jimusho has that kind of shallow happiness? As what they say, you can never have it all. She might never be aware of his feelings but she is sure lucky enough to be the source of inspiration of Nakajima Yuto.
So let's continue living the way we want our lives to be. We never know who we inspire by our presence. We never know that by tomorrow, our dreams may come true... in one way or another.
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LOL!
Comments are loved.
This is my first time writing something centering Yuto's unrequited feeling.
It's always the reverse one..
Maa! I know it sucks..
hahaha!
Thank you for reading.