004 ✚ voice, plus filters

[coldbrokenlight]

[the feed starts with a slight clearing of his throat.]

To those who were-- worried --about me last week. Yukio replaced my stitches and I'm fine now.

[uhhh.

there was a thanks here, but it got cut--]

Thanks.

[--off. or not.]

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[killedyuu]

[Stitches... Since when do either of them need stitches... What kind of wound won't close even with their healing..?]

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[killedyuu]

[So "soon" was now? ... Alma feels a bit nervous--but he wants to know... what would have happened... if Alma hadn't killed his best friend?]

I'll listen.

... Thank you. [For being willing to tell them.]

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[coldbrokenlight]

..Alma.

[give him a moment while he swallows down the thing in his throat. if he has to guess, he'd say Alma, like the other Kanda, doesn't know what he is to him. her, if that. he's not sure he wants to be the one to explain that bit.

he's not sure where to even start right now.]

..You wanted to know about the bandages? [and now probably the stitches, too.]

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[killedyuu]

[Alma doesn't know, he doesn't know the connection or who he is to Kanda. He doesn't actually know much about his past life, just that he probably had one... although he still deals with the effects, even if he doesn't understand them.]

Yes... how did you get them? [What did they do to you?]

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[coldbrokenlight]

[likewise, 'llujah still knows nothing about who he was before. the times when he thinks he is that person, though, he can't remember. although he is the same person.]

They've been doing research. Innocence, surgery, and-- [..he's not sure where he was going with this.]

Mugen is..

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[killedyuu]

[Alma just deals with dreams--nightmares more like it--as well as his issues about body image and his own gender.]

They were doing research on you? [Bristling, memory flashing scattered moments of pain associated with thoughts of the Order and their 'research'... He feels ill.]

Who is Mugen..? Did he do this to you?

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[coldbrokenlight]

Experiments. They finished the research already. [experiments are probably no better than research. either way, they were still collecting more data, so it's all one and the same.]

No. Mugen is my Innocence.

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[killedyuu]

... That's not any better. [Swallows hard.]

Oh. [That makes a little more sense.] ... What did they do?

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[coldbrokenlight]

..Yeah.

[hrrgggk. explaining this to Alma of all people is the worst. possibly, next to Lenalee.]

Surgical implants. That's what the stitches are for.

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[killedyuu]

[Slowly putting the ideas together]

They put Mugen inside you?

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[coldbrokenlight]

[stitching them together, even? /brick'd]

In my arms.

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[killedyuu]

[/punts lol]

But... [Expression hardening] How could they do that to you?! Didn't anyone stop them?! They said they wouldn't do-- [any more experiments. Not like that.]

[voice || same filter] PRETEND HIS HAS ALL BEEN VOICE... sobbu

[coldbrokenlight]

[/latches onto.. ;u;]

No one else knew I was still alive. You know how Central works. They'll do anything to win.

[Back and Renee and Komui and them aren't the ones who should be blamed. there's only so much you can protest before the powers that be crack down and demand it gets done..]

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[killedyuu]

[/squirms! :T ]

How dare they-- [Rage burning all it touches, burning up from red hot embers buried deep inside, an old rage...]

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[killedyuu]

[A familiar rage...

Alma stops short. Red blood everywhere, everyone's dead. everyone's dead--

He swallows, his throat tight, this time not from nerves but from that fear of himself... of what he's capable of...]

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[killedyuu]

[Then that expression is tucked away.

He places his hand against his chest and wears a muted, but unhappy mask.]