A Life Without Candy
Title: A Life Without Candy
Fandom: Candy
Characters/Pairing: Dan/(Candy), (Casper)
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Entire film....
Summary: He would live the rest of his life without his Candy so that she could have a life away from him and his other candy.
A/N: Finally- some new writing from me! This fic is based on the movie Candy- it's an Australian film and it's really very good. I really reccomend that y'all check it out, it's really a great film. Anyway, this is just basically my own take on Dan's thoughs at the end of Candy. This isn't beta'd and - here's a shocker- I don't own Candy or anything related to it.
A Life Without Candy
He loved Candy with all his heart. He always would- he just knew that they would never get a happily ever after. For a while it had seemed as if they would, but looking back he understood now that that had been the drugs talking. The drugs had made it seem as if everything was perfect when in reality it was almost as far from it as it was possible to be. Since the moment that they had met they’d been in a downward spiral; despite their moments of pure bliss they had always been heading for the bottom.
It had always been about the heroine. The drugs were everything. The drugs were the reason that their relationship- their marriage- had always been so destructive. Everything was about getting the next hit, it came before everything else. The baby should have been a wakeup call, but it wasn’t. They had tried, briefly, to stop, to get clean for the baby’s sake. But they couldn’t. They were just too damn addicted to the stuff despite all that it had cost them.
When you can quit, you don’t want to. When you want to quit, you can’t. Casper’s words rang through his head, as they so often did these days, and he once again sulked in the harsh truth of them.
Damn it, they had tried to stop. They’d tried so many times and so many ways, but somehow they still always ended up back in the same grueling rut. But somehow, despite the constant bleakness of their situation, he could still remember clearly times where he had wanted nothing more than his Candy and the heroin. He couldn’t count the number of perfect moments that they’d had together- him and Candy and the drugs.
Or, at least, they had seemed perfect at the time. They’d been living for the moment, day to day with no real plans for the future. And maybe, he mused, as he sat alone in the restaurant staring at the door through which Candy had walked only a few moments earlier, rolling the glass tumbler between his hands, that was why they had fallen so quickly. They hadn’t thought ahead. Maybe if they’d looked ahead, if only for a moment, they would have seen the doom that they were headed directly for and maybe, just maybe, they would have been able to do something to change it.
But they hadn’t and so they had just continued to destroy themselves and each other a little more each day. Dying a little more with each hit they took. But they’d had each other and for a while it seemed that that was all they would ever really need. But, as it turned out, they needed more. So much more. And the drugs were preventing them from getting that. Every time that they managed to get their hands on a little cash it immediately went to another hit. They never saved up, not really.
But now Candy was better; she was clean and she could move on with her life. She could make a better life for herself away from him and, more importantly, away from the heroine. Not that the two could be separated any more. The drugs were a part of him, it was a package deal. Being with him meant diving back into the drugs. Because he couldn’t quit them any more than Casper had been able to.
He was a lost cause. He could not be saved, but he could, at least, save her from sinking back into the abyss with him. She was everything to him, but he knew that he could not be with her. He was like poison to her and she deserved so much more than that. She deserved a chance at a real life.
He would live the rest of his life without his Candy so that she could have a life away from him and his other candy.
Fandom: Candy
Characters/Pairing: Dan/(Candy), (Casper)
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Entire film....
Summary: He would live the rest of his life without his Candy so that she could have a life away from him and his other candy.
A/N: Finally- some new writing from me! This fic is based on the movie Candy- it's an Australian film and it's really very good. I really reccomend that y'all check it out, it's really a great film. Anyway, this is just basically my own take on Dan's thoughs at the end of Candy. This isn't beta'd and - here's a shocker- I don't own Candy or anything related to it.
A Life Without Candy
He loved Candy with all his heart. He always would- he just knew that they would never get a happily ever after. For a while it had seemed as if they would, but looking back he understood now that that had been the drugs talking. The drugs had made it seem as if everything was perfect when in reality it was almost as far from it as it was possible to be. Since the moment that they had met they’d been in a downward spiral; despite their moments of pure bliss they had always been heading for the bottom.
It had always been about the heroine. The drugs were everything. The drugs were the reason that their relationship- their marriage- had always been so destructive. Everything was about getting the next hit, it came before everything else. The baby should have been a wakeup call, but it wasn’t. They had tried, briefly, to stop, to get clean for the baby’s sake. But they couldn’t. They were just too damn addicted to the stuff despite all that it had cost them.
When you can quit, you don’t want to. When you want to quit, you can’t. Casper’s words rang through his head, as they so often did these days, and he once again sulked in the harsh truth of them.
Damn it, they had tried to stop. They’d tried so many times and so many ways, but somehow they still always ended up back in the same grueling rut. But somehow, despite the constant bleakness of their situation, he could still remember clearly times where he had wanted nothing more than his Candy and the heroin. He couldn’t count the number of perfect moments that they’d had together- him and Candy and the drugs.
Or, at least, they had seemed perfect at the time. They’d been living for the moment, day to day with no real plans for the future. And maybe, he mused, as he sat alone in the restaurant staring at the door through which Candy had walked only a few moments earlier, rolling the glass tumbler between his hands, that was why they had fallen so quickly. They hadn’t thought ahead. Maybe if they’d looked ahead, if only for a moment, they would have seen the doom that they were headed directly for and maybe, just maybe, they would have been able to do something to change it.
But they hadn’t and so they had just continued to destroy themselves and each other a little more each day. Dying a little more with each hit they took. But they’d had each other and for a while it seemed that that was all they would ever really need. But, as it turned out, they needed more. So much more. And the drugs were preventing them from getting that. Every time that they managed to get their hands on a little cash it immediately went to another hit. They never saved up, not really.
But now Candy was better; she was clean and she could move on with her life. She could make a better life for herself away from him and, more importantly, away from the heroine. Not that the two could be separated any more. The drugs were a part of him, it was a package deal. Being with him meant diving back into the drugs. Because he couldn’t quit them any more than Casper had been able to.
He was a lost cause. He could not be saved, but he could, at least, save her from sinking back into the abyss with him. She was everything to him, but he knew that he could not be with her. He was like poison to her and she deserved so much more than that. She deserved a chance at a real life.
He would live the rest of his life without his Candy so that she could have a life away from him and his other candy.