Nearly 10 years

[codeinconnu]

I have been on livejournal for nearly 10 years. Not that I update much now, nor indeed for the last few years. In fact it has been over a year since the last entry and it is another year to the one previous to that so I have not been much of an active user. I do still check in on the friends page but that too seems to have gone very quiet - has

Comments

[strangeglitter]

hello :) was just logging in thinking that everyone has drifted off. Even I find it hard to type these days, no time and no real motivation. Hope there's a resurgence soon, good to see you xxx

[codeinconnu]

I suppose the worry is that one day the site itself will fade away and just disappear and all the journal entries and comments will be lost.

[griza]

I don't have that much to say really. Perhaps LJ is best for EMO teens and those in the 20s that still cling to their EMO days? ;) I still read my flist and stuff but rarely post.

[codeinconnu]

Or indeed those in their 30s :D

[_cherryvanilla_]

Hello. I like it when you check in with LJ, even once a year. I rarely post but always check my friends' page, even though only about 5 people ever post with anything like regularity (I never had many LJ friends mind you ;)).

I'm strangely reassured by your post, because I have similar feelings myself - an unhealthy obsession with time passing and chances ungrasped, time running out. It's kind of comforting to know someone else feels the same, though I wish for your sake that you didn't.

[codeinconnu]

The awareness i find quite difficult to deal with because it is not like you wake up one day and think "f*ck what have i done with my life?!" with no chance of a second chance nor of changing the path taken - It is instead playing out in real time and it is not too late yet (or at least i hope not!) so i know it should be possible to take steps to grasp the bull by the horns. I guess i'm struggling to find a matadors outfit that doesnt look too ridiculous though :)

Anyway i understand that reassurance...i guess the abyss looks less dark when you know others have had a peak too :)

[_cherryvanilla_]

Yes, and the awareness gets worse as you get older, because I swear to god...time speeds up!! The chances start hurtling by at alarming speed, while I sit here dithering over which ones to catch, or convince myself I'm just too tired to catch any of them. You're a few years behind me, so go on - put that matador's outfit on!! At least it'll give you a laugh ;)

[codeinconnu]

There has been some studies done on that. Dont think there is a definitive answer but seems to be a mixture of changes in neural activity associated with learning / developing / having new experiences (like a child will more likely have than an adult) and also perception too comparing something to the rest of your life. Like for example a day in the life of someone at 60 is something like 1 day out of 22000 or so, whereas at age 10 it would 1 in 3652 and thus a bigger proportion of their life so feels longer as a result. So yeah it definitely speeds up!

Anyway i wonder how a veggie matador would get on. :D