well, its been many long painful months since i have updated this crappy journal. I'm kind of sick of life in general, sick of people, and sick of "friends." I only have a few friends keeping me going right now,(the bros and my little fairy ;) ) and i just focus on the fact that im legal now and everyone else is not, so whatev. i guess the point im ( Read more... )

well, its been a while since i filled this in. I played in a warhamemr mega battle which kicked ass, got sick, which blew, went to greece, which kicked ass, drank about 40 pints of beer in greece (which also kicked ass) and then went to thermopylae, which is like my mecca, and now i have the soil of the most sacred battlefield ever in my possession ( Read more... )

well after getting ten hours of sleep in two days i feel like shit. Me and schultz sat around all day at his house and chilled. im the only person awake right now which jsut adds to the sense of lonliness i have inside my heart. ive decided now the only long term relationship i want to get involved with is coke and death

everyday of this week has been worse than the last. everything that i built myself around and relied on for strength has turned to dust. now is just me left, i hope ill make the correct decision. either way tho, i will fuckgin kill anyone who berates me for it, regardless which way i go.

im sick of every goody two-shoed whore and lying friend that i have. you can all go to hell. the answers to youre questions? no, im not your friend, youre a bitch that used me, no i never want to see youre stupid face again. i hope you "enjoyed the attention" that i gave you while you had it, cause youre dead to me now.

i got up thjis morning and went to work, only to have my mom lie to my father and say that i skipped out early on work and then he chewed me out. I argued with him and it finally got settled. Came over to greg's and have been recording stuff for a new cd. I think that im going to get the opeth logo and tatoo it into my upper bicep cause it would ( Read more... )

I had work earlier with greg and we didnt do anything as usual, just sorted magazines. I bought the AMEN cd, "death before MUsick" it's really good, anyone who likes old punk for the most part will like the album. i understand where the singer comes from when he says that he doesnt trust anyone even some band members because i have a little bit of ( Read more... )

Rythm and Booms was sweeter than i remember it ever being before, and sitting in the VIP area was cool. I haven't slept at home for like three days straight and i feel like crap. Anyways, I have to stay with my mom for the next two weeks and I don't know if i'm going to live through that. Ahh well, it'll be interesting. We're trying to get into ( Read more... )

went over to louise's house and saw the fireworks, fun stuff. yeah, i really dotn know what is good or bad for me or anyone else anymore. im sure no one is going to understand what i mean, but the fact of the matter is i feel like shit.

notice to everyone who thinks i care: fuck off and die, im sick of trying to make other people happy, and im sick and tired of depressed pieces of shit ruining any chance of having a good time. you can fuck off and die, because anytime i try and put in any effort to communicate, you fucking snub me, so fuck of and die you worthless loser. I dont ( Read more... )