Denial: Not a river in Egypt, but just as nice to visit

[cleolinda]

You know how you can say something over and over until it doesn't even sound like a word anymore?

Comments

[fishsanwitt]

"She's a nice person and a decent writer and all, but The Grief Show with Your Host Cleolinda is not what I signed up for."

I *so* get where you're coming from :) and you made me laugh with that line.

I'm in the midst of a *huge* depression, so reading about your depression is actually quite therapeutic - even if you didn't mean it to be - what you're saying rings very true for me. I'm also going on meds and I'll get better, but thank you (again) for sharing your grief, your thoughts, your crying - everything. When our dog died, I cried *everywhere* - so everything you said resonanted with me.

::big hugs:: (unless you don't do hugs - I have no idea)

[cleolinda]

Hugs are fine. : )

[kira002]

::hugs::

I'm an infrequent poster, but an always reader. I have yet to be bored or offended or OMGDRAMA'd at anything you've posted. Just FYI.

[lylassandra]

Ditto, and also hugs from me.

[dreamingreader]

Ditto the hugs. Losing someone precious--even a pet--is always hard.

Re: spinach--I'm pretty sure that cooking it (like in lasagna) kills the e. coli and is safe.

[sucrelefey]

Cooking would kill the bacteria but it won't remove their residue/byproducts which is what happens whith stalph based food poisoning.

[count_01]

True, but the scare here is aggressive E. coli, which would almost certainly be killed by baking at 375 for over an hour.

[sucrelefey]

Petty much kills the spinach and it's nutritional value too. Blech.
Many folks are just going to small local home grown for their spinach needs.

[chaosdancer]

Much like a lot of other LJ writers, I initially friended you because I liked your work, and as time went on I came to like you too. That's why I stick around, and I hope you continue posting about your journey because it's interesting to me! And I was so sorry about Lucky. He really did look just like my mom's childhood dog, so I haven't mentioned this to her. She'd be sad too. :(

[skyblade]

It's one of the reasons many comediens end up feeling insecure and having self destructive paths. The need to be "on" all the time tends to hollow one out, and feel absolutely useless and worthless when not doing their job.

However, I think the value people attribute to you goes well beyond whether you make people laugh. I think your insight and friendliness draws people to this journal. When you're upset, people are going to be upset for you. You're obviously not a commodity to people, but someone countless folks consider their friend.

[claddagh812]

You're human. You're going to grieve. I know most of us don't really know you, and you don't know us, but I'd like to think that at least some of us read this journal because we like hearing about you -- not the writer you, not the funny you, but you, a real person who goes through many of the same events the rest of us do. Grieve away.