"Suspected Bank Robber's Pants Explode"

[cleolinda]

Lamictal, Day 7: It's weird--I don't feel like I'm "on drugs" at all, which is a sign that it's a good fit, but at the same time, I could definitely feel an effect earlier in the week that's fading now. So I have another week on 25 mg before we go up to 50 mg, at which point I'll probably feel it again. In the meantime, though, I keep forgetting

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[reynardine]

When we gaze upon
foliage in autumn hills,
we can pick the leaves,
red and yellow, to admire.
As for the green ones-
lamenting, we let them stay.
Green leaves must be regretted,
but I choose the autumn hills!

Princess Nukada (7th century) from Man'yoshu, an ancient Japanese poetry anthology. Part of a longer poem where she compares spring to autumn.

[underalilacmoon]

Oh that hypoactive thing is interesting... I have been following this whole depression/medication thing with interest, because I've been depressed (and am a writer) but never on medication, it scared me snotless to think of those uncontrollable ups and downs. And I don't think mine was chemical permanent really, more life issues.

I am fairly daydreamy and do digress into brackets like mad! But could usually pay attention in class unless I already knew I knew the stuff. Then I'd be plotting the screenplay in the background. And I was always reading. And not wanting to be involved in rest of life stuff, don't know if that fits or I'm just an avoider. :)

All that said, and not one bit of bracket proof, I do admire you tremendously for going through all this. I thought I was going to break alone (once) over ... (well who can compare?) certainly nothing like this medication mess. :)

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[sqrrlsrant]

It turns out, however, that a lot of girls manifest attention disorders as being very dreamy--not being hyper, per se. I rarely paid attention in class;

That may explain..a lot. Thank you for posting this. I could always focus to read or watch television, but trying to focus in class (and now at work), has been difficult. My brother was diagnosed with ADD, but I never associated my inability to concentrate in class with it because I was always able to sit still and read.

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[cosmorific]

The flipside to ADD, I've read, is that people who have it can "hyper-focus" on tasks they find particularly interesting (e.g. reading) to the point that they tune out everything else.

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[guinevere33]

Oooh, ooh, me! :: wave hand in the air :: On one extremely memorable occasion, I was so absorbed in the book I was reading that I didn't notice my teacher *beating on my arm* with a wooden ruler. I remember becoming vaguely aware of a dull thudding. Then I came back to earth and it really hurt (it was red for about a day afterwards). Amazingly, she didn't get fired - she just got moved to the high school.

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[sqrrlsrant]

Now that you mention that, once, on the hour-long bus commute from my middle school, my best friend and seat-mate spent the entire time putting stickers on my bare legs and peeling them off and I never noticed.

Hm. Guess I should go and talk to my doctor. If it is ADD that makes it so hard to concentrate on tasks at work, perhaps they can put me on a low dose of something. It would be lovely to not worry anymore about the problem anymore.

[phoebesmum]

I was hypoactive. I spent my entire childhood in a book. It turns out, however, that a lot of girls manifest attention disorders as being very dreamy--not being hyper, per se. I rarely paid attention in class; I was usually writing, in a notebook half-hidden in my lap, or under the cover of taking "notes," but there were a lot of classes where I was listening to the lecture with one ear and composing bad poetry with the other.

God, if that's really how ADD works, I wish they'd invented it when I was a kid. They could've given me a shitload of drugs and fixed me, and maybe I'd've grown up able to function.

[cosmorific]

I was hypoactive too, which is probably why I didn't get diagnosed with ADD until several years ago. I didn't act out; I just spaced off. And like you, I've heard that's highly prevalent with girls.