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[clearbluevinyl]

This is how it happens.  Rachel and I were talking about this in one capacity awhile back.  She and I can be kind of hard on people.  The problem is that we have very high expectations of ourselves and because we have high expectations of ourselves, those expectations translate to other people and we hold them in those very high standards as well

Comments

[kinkyprude]

I think you and I should do this together. You check me, and I'll check you.
That whole, "judge not lest ye be judged thing" is really hard.

[clearbluevinyl]

Agreed.

BTW, let me know how the mover situation is, once you get the chance. I was thinking about you at 7am this morning. I was waiting for the flames to start moving into the valley from hollywood. :)

[kinkyprude]

I think I have everything figured out, which for me is the majority of the frustration. I really, really don't like being plan-less, and now I have two working in my mind that I hope to have settled tomorrow.
I mean, it's still a massive clusterfuck of unresponiveness and ineffeciency, but at least I know that now, you know?
Anyway, I'm thinking of celebrating...something this weekend. My first week of work? I don't. I'll call you.
Also, is it totally arrogant that I didn't once think you were talking about me?

[clearbluevinyl]

Well, I for one need to go shopping. So... I know you don't get paid for a long time, but if you're up for it...?

Also, not arrogant. FYI.

[chaiviolet]

i was just wondering if this applies to me cause i know after not really conversing much over the years and then spending an entire weekend in a teeny room together can make people realize/see things they never did before... or maybe this is just me being paranoid..

[clearbluevinyl]

Not you, stop being paranoid. You're one of the many people whose imperfections I have grown to love and accept. I would hope that you have done the same with mine. I think the moment I realized it was when you described me as, among many things, a bitch in your self-portrait. That was when I realized people have many different facets to their personalities and just because one facet is negative, or less perfect than the others, it doesn't mean your friends will stop loving you.

MWA

[chaiviolet]

yay i'm loved. but really, i wouldnt have been paranoid over this at all if we hadnt just had a long weekend around each other.

[clearbluevinyl]

Totally. I understand.

[cinemaphile17]

This post is enough to make us all paranoid, incidentally.

I however am guilty of this exact shit as well..

[clearbluevinyl]

I had a feeling it would cause paranoia, but it's actually a new friend that I'm kind of angry at right now. I hoped that the line "And especially because I have so few good friends here, it seems a pity to lose one more" might protect those who are not currently in LA from that paranoia. I will echo what I told Marianna above, that your imperfections I have grown to love and accept (and I definitely think that TAB has helped draw those out and show them full-faced to both of us), and I definitely think our friendship is stronger because of it. If we hadn't seen each other's nastiest sides, how could we truly be friends? It only draws us closer. And by the way, my dad, mom, and I all sent our most lovingest thoughts to you at 2:15 Chicago time yesterday.