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citrakayah

shuffles in

Mar 21, 2015 15:24

I haven't been doing that well lately. For the most part my issues are academic in origin, but I'm a college student, so that affects everything else. So when my grades suffer, or I feel like I'm not doing well or understanding the material well enough, I get depressed, I start to seclude myself... These days, it feels so hard to care about ( Read more... )

fuck my life, college, things written at night while exhausted, slice of life

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arocoun2 March 23 2015, 01:47:42 UTC

Hey, Citra!

I'm saddened to see that school's been causing you distress. I know you're capable of doing better, and I hate to see you lose hope and confidence over it.

Have you tried using a spaced-repetition program to help you study? I use Anki, for example. Spaced repetition is very efficient and effective for remembering vocabulary, equations, and simple rules. I got a 4.0 GPA in my four-year school, and it was mostly because I worked hard, and used effective study methods like spaced-repetition.

Don't let your first couple years in college hurt your life. I actually got C's, D's, and even outright failed several classes in my freshman and sophomore classes. It was because at the time (I was 18-19 years old), I was too rebellious and angry about the world to properly focus on college.

It took me 6 years and a lot of personal growth before I was ready to go back to college and take it seriously. You're still young. Some parts of the brain aren't even fully developed until we're 25, you know? You like learning, you ( ... )

citrakayah March 25 2015, 01:51:01 UTC

Never heard of spaced-repetition, so I doubt it. Let's hope that the various things I'm trying actually work, and that I manage to make my brain the way I want it.

And yeah, it is. I'm sure some people don't like how literal the snake imagery is, but I don't mind at all--I'm very much a literal thinker, so if someone told me to make something evoke something else I'd make it pretty blatant... given how much architecture seems to be these days, that might have been a disadvantage. Oh well, I'm going into zoology, where being literally is more acceptable.

By the way, do you have a Skype or something?

arocoun2 March 25 2015, 09:48:51 UTC

I prefer literal communications, myself; which is probably why I've always loved the sciences, but could never develop a strong talent for art or poetic writing (despite short-lived attempts).

I don't Skype, and I lost the info for the one IM account I had. But I do have both a tumblr account and a Facebook account that I visit almost daily. I also have an e-mail address--arocoun at hotmail.

Feel free to contact me on any of those media as often as you like!

elinox March 23 2015, 15:11:53 UTC

I'm sorry college has been causing you stress.

As a college grad myself, I understand that when things get difficult it feels like the end of the world. But stick with it and you'll make it.

Additionally, have you thought about seeking counseling for the anxiety or advice from a faculty adviser?

citrakayah March 25 2015, 01:53:17 UTC

Part of the problem with that is that I'm generally stubbornly independent, even when I shouldn't be (and I know it). I have sought advice from an adviser, and was advised to choose zoology--which I'm doing. Counseling... I haven't, in part because there's a lot of paperwork (which I don't mind) and a waiting list (which I kind of do) for counseling around here.