Unknown Dreams of the Heart Chapter 2
Title: Unknown Dreamns of the Heart
Author: cindyls1969
Chapter: 2
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jake gets Van thinking about the future.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3lkWNnnlhM
When they got back to the apartment Jake couldn’t get out of the car fast enough. He went around to the other side of the car and practically pulled Van out, before pushing him against the side of it. He loved being chest to chest with Van, feeling his heart beat, both arms wrapped around Van’s waist.
He loved how Van’s first instinct when Jake pulled him close was to slide his arms up and snake them around Jake’s neck, pulling him down for a spine melting kiss. He kept waiting for it to wear off, for the feelings to change, like people who have been married for a while always talk about. It hadn’t happened yet. Every time they touched it was like electricity flowing between them and Jake was willing to bet it would never change.
He framed Van’s face with his hands and licked his way into that perfectly wicked mouth, reveling in his favorite taste. Anyone else might have thought that it was the ice cream he had eaten that made his mouth sweet, but Jake knew better. Van’s mouth was always delicious, and after all this time, it still felt like a miracle that he got to kiss him whenever he wanted.
He pulled Van even closer, feeling his own breath hitch, before plundering his mouth again. One hand slid under Van’s shirt, the feeling of soft skin over hard muscle was something that never failed to amaze him.
He was starting to get carried away, but he was having a hard time remembering why he shouldn’t be doing this here.
He could feel Van chuckle underneath his mouth and pulled back for a second, blue eyes finding brown and he was sure there was a pout on his face but he couldn’t help it.
“Jake, baby? Let’s take this upstairs, shall we? Where we can get naked and horizontal without getting arrested, okay?”
Jake ducked his head and blushed, but Van lifted his chin and kissed him again, gently this time. “I love that I can make you feel this way babe, especially cause I feel the same way.”
Jake’s voice was low and rough. “Love you Van, still, always.” The pout was gone and his smile was blinding.
Van’s hands slid down to Jake’s chest and he could feel the heart beating there. He loved how Jake made him feel like it was beating just for him. “Love you too babe, forever.”
He took Jake’s hand and pulled him along behind him, in the front door and up the stairs to their apartment. As he stood there, trying to get his key into the door with shaking, anxious hands, he was suddenly enveloped from behind, Jake’s body pressed against his from neck to thighs.. The feeling of Jake’s hard cock pressing against his ass and the voice blowing hot words into his ear had him hard in seconds.
“You’re gonna fucking kill me Silbermann, I swear.”
He got the door open finally and was pushed into the apartment from behind. The door was slammed shut and he quickly found himself spun around and pushed against it, Jake’s mouth sucking a hickey into his skin where his shoulder met his neck.
“Oh god!”
Jake pulled back for a second, needing to see those eyes he knew where blown with lust.
“Like that Van, me leaving my mark on you? You are so fucking hot and I am so fucking lucky. Need everyone to know you’re mine.” He growled those words, and Van felt his cock twitch at the sound of them.
“Your’s Jake, always yours. I love having the marks from your mouth on me.” Van lifted his chin and angled himself so that Jake could have better access to his neck. “I love looking in the mirror and seeing them, knowing I’m yours and your mine.”
Jake ran his hands down Van’s arms, grabbing his hands and pushing them up over his head, against the door, holding them there.
They both knew that Van could move them if he wanted, that Jake would let him go if he wanted him to, but Van liked the feeling of letting Jake take control sometimes. Made him feel safe and loved at the same time.
Jake pushed him against the door with his hips and using one hand to keep both Van’s over his head, he used the other to unbutton his shirt so he could have access to all that gorgeous skin. He ran his hand through the soft, golden hair in the centre of his husbands chest before sliding to one side to tease a nipple to hardness, the sounds coming from Van’s mouth encouraging him.
He slid his mouth down from Van‘s mouth, trailing over his jaw, down his neck, leaving little love bites the whole way. He found a nipple with his tongue, licking over it, causing Van to whimper, before sucking it in, pulling on it gently with his teeth. God, every part him tasted good.
“Hmm, you told me I’d be on my knees, guess I’d better prove you right.” He let go of Van’s hands, running his hands down his arms, over his sides and down to curl around denim clad hips to hold him still, as he licked and bit his way down to the button on his jeans.
Jake let go of one hip to undo the button fly in front of him and then used both hands to pull them down, gently pulling them off one foot and then the other, looking up and seeing those eyes looking at him with trust and love.
He wrapped his hands around Van’s ankles, sliding them up the back of his legs to that gorgeous ass, grabbing two handfuls and squeezing before going back to the grasp he had on his hips.
Jake leaned forward, rubbing he face against the front of Van’s boxers, teasing him and just taking in the scent of his arousal.
“God Jake, please.” Van wasn’t sure what he was begging for but he would take whatever it would get him.”
“You smell so good Van. I could just about come from how good you smell.” Jake could see the growing damp spot on the front of Van’s boxer’s and knew he needed to get him into his mouth as soon as possible.
He kissed all along the waistband of Van’s underwear, earning himself some helpless whimpers and then he gently pulled them down, licking his lips when Van’s cock finally bobbed into view.
God he loved to suck Van’s cock. He had since the first time he ever did it. The way it tasted, how it felt sliding across his tongue, the pride he felt at being able to take it all the way in, sliding down his throat and having Van make those wonderfully fucking hot sounds.
“Please baby, now, I need you now.” Jake looked up and smiled at his lover, kissed his hip and stuck out his tongue to softly lick around the head before sucking it in, slowly, using his hands to hold Van’s hips against the door when they tried to buck away from it, towards him.
“Ngghh, god, Jake, so perfect, love this, love you.” Van was grunting the words out between gritted teeth, his hands in Jake’s hair, every tug going straight to Jake’s cock.
Van was never sure how Jake managed to lick and suck at the same time but it was the most erotic thing he has ever felt. And when one hand came off his hip to rub the sensitive skin behind his balls, it took ever ounce of his self control to not come.
With his last bit of coherency, he pushed Jake off and pulled him to his feet. He grabbed his hand and led the way to their bedroom, grabbing Jake by the belt loops of the jeans he was still wearing and turning him to push him on to the bed so hard he bounced.
Jake had a dazed grin on his face as Van quickly undid his jeans, pulling them and Jake’s boxers off in one pull. He climbed up on the bed beside him, leaning to pull his t-shirt over his head. He leaned down and kissed Jake, framing his face with his hands, fingers sliding back to curve around his jaw, pull him in closer.
Jake’s hands grabbed Van, pulling him down on top of him, covering him in hot, sexy, wiggling husband which was Jakes favorite thing in the world. And finally, they were there, together, skin to skin, cock to cock and everything was hot and sticky and slippery.
Van pulled back to look into the blue eyes that fueled all his fantasies and Jake saw what he wanted and was eager to comply. He rolled them over so he was on top and reached for the lube in the nightstand. He slicked up his fingers and slid them into Van, one at a time until there were three, and when Van was thrusting down onto his hand, Jake slicked up his cock and slid it home, carefully.
He pulled out almost all the way before pushing back in again, and so it went, over and over, both of them hanging on to the other, bodies moving instinctively, until they came almost together, whispering I love you to each other over and over again. They stroked each other’s skin, coming down from their high and then Jake slid off to the side before pulling Van into his arms. He had never decided if the best part was the sex or the snuggling that came afterwards.
“What are you smiling for?” Van’s voice was teasing and it earned him a kiss.
“What’s not to smile about after that? And besides, I had a good day.” He ran his fingers up and down Van’s arm, loving how soft the skin was.
“Yeah, me too. This movie is going to be fantastic Jake. I’m so proud of you.” He laid his head down on Jake’s chest. Listening to his heartbeat was one of his favorite things.
“You seemed to be having fun today. Those kids sure seem to adore you.” There was something in Jake’s voice that Van couldn’t place, but he was too tired and fucked out to think about it too much.
“Yeah, that’s because I’m a big kid and they recognize a kindred spirit. You know I’ll use any excuse to steal your ice cream, baby.”
“I don’t know, you’re pretty good with them. I think you’ll make a good dad someday.”
He could feel Van tense up in his arms before speaking.
“No, I won’t. Kids need someone to look up to and that’s not me, that’s you.”
Jake didn’t like the self-depreciation he heard in Van’s voice and reached down to tip his face up so he could look at him.
“Hey, what are you talking about? You’re one of the best people I know!”
“No, I’m not. I’m selfish and spoiled and too wrapped up in myself. Not sure how you put up with me most of the time.” Jake would have thought that Van was playing him, fishing for compliments, if not for the pain and self doubt in his voice.
Jake sat up, leaning against the headboard and pulled Van up with him. He held Van’s face in his hands and forced him to look into his eyes.
“I don’t put up with you, because there is nothing to put up with. You are the most loving, generous, kind hearted person I know.” He gently ran his thumb down Van’s cheek and across his lips. “I never knew life could be this good. And it’s all because of you.”
Van didn’t look convinced, but he stopped arguing. “Well, still, I’m not sure that I need to be passing my attitude along to a kid.” He looked at Jake again, curious, remembering the tone he had dismissed. “This something you’ve been thinking about Jake?” His voice was wary, but he really needed to know.
Jake blushed and looked everywhere but at Van, but Van caught his chin and looked him in the eye. “Come on babe, you need to be honest with me. This isn’t something we can ignore if it’s on your mind.”
“Yeah, I’ve been thinking about it.” He looked nervous, but forged ahead. “Watching you lately, and you know I’m always watching you, I’ve noticed a lot. Those kids working on the movie think you hung the moon, and my sister’s kids like Uncle Van more than they like me most of the time.”
He chuckled because now it was Van’s turn to blush and he looked so gorgeous that Jake had to hug him closer and kiss the top of his head. “I don’t know Jake, those kids all go home after a while. What about our careers? We’re both finally at a good place in them, and excuse me for being selfish, but I’m not sure I’m ready to let that go.”
“No one said anything about letting our careers go, Van. There are lots of awesome parents out there who have careers and kids. Besides, I didn’t say it had to be now, I just, wanted to think about it and maybe talk about it, you know? And I maintain my position that you would be a great dad.”
He wasn’t sure what the look was that Van was giving him, but at least he had stopped putting himself down. “And I mean, it goes without saying, I would be the worlds greatest dad. Who could resist me.” He said it with a teasing tone and a big grin, but Van had a very serious look on his face before reaching up and cupping his face, pulling him in for a very intense kiss.
“Not me. Resisting you is impossible, and I’m not sure I’d want to.” He snuggled back in to his husband, wrapping his arms around his waist and inhaling the smell of him and sex. To him it smelled like love.
“I’ll think about it, I promise. And we will talk about it again, but right now? I’m sleepy and you feel good. Can we talk later?”
Jake slid back down the bed, scooting Van along with him. Van waited until Jake was settled before going back to his previous position, his head on Jake’s chest, pressed along his side.
“Yeah, we can talk later. Go to sleep, we have to get up early to do some editing.”
“M’kay. Love you Jake.”
“Love you too Van.” He pulled him a little tighter and held him close until Vans breathing evened out and he was sound asleep.
Jake lay there, holding his everything in his arms, glad that Van hadn’t said no out right and wondering what he could do to get him to see how much a child could add to their lives. Jake knew it wouldn’t be easy, kids are hard and he knew it. But he also knew it could be worth it.
He fell asleep and dreamed of babies, with coffee colored eyes and dirty blond hair, all of them with Van’s smile.
Author: cindyls1969
Chapter: 2
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jake gets Van thinking about the future.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3lkWNnnlhM
When they got back to the apartment Jake couldn’t get out of the car fast enough. He went around to the other side of the car and practically pulled Van out, before pushing him against the side of it. He loved being chest to chest with Van, feeling his heart beat, both arms wrapped around Van’s waist.
He loved how Van’s first instinct when Jake pulled him close was to slide his arms up and snake them around Jake’s neck, pulling him down for a spine melting kiss. He kept waiting for it to wear off, for the feelings to change, like people who have been married for a while always talk about. It hadn’t happened yet. Every time they touched it was like electricity flowing between them and Jake was willing to bet it would never change.
He framed Van’s face with his hands and licked his way into that perfectly wicked mouth, reveling in his favorite taste. Anyone else might have thought that it was the ice cream he had eaten that made his mouth sweet, but Jake knew better. Van’s mouth was always delicious, and after all this time, it still felt like a miracle that he got to kiss him whenever he wanted.
He pulled Van even closer, feeling his own breath hitch, before plundering his mouth again. One hand slid under Van’s shirt, the feeling of soft skin over hard muscle was something that never failed to amaze him.
He was starting to get carried away, but he was having a hard time remembering why he shouldn’t be doing this here.
He could feel Van chuckle underneath his mouth and pulled back for a second, blue eyes finding brown and he was sure there was a pout on his face but he couldn’t help it.
“Jake, baby? Let’s take this upstairs, shall we? Where we can get naked and horizontal without getting arrested, okay?”
Jake ducked his head and blushed, but Van lifted his chin and kissed him again, gently this time. “I love that I can make you feel this way babe, especially cause I feel the same way.”
Jake’s voice was low and rough. “Love you Van, still, always.” The pout was gone and his smile was blinding.
Van’s hands slid down to Jake’s chest and he could feel the heart beating there. He loved how Jake made him feel like it was beating just for him. “Love you too babe, forever.”
He took Jake’s hand and pulled him along behind him, in the front door and up the stairs to their apartment. As he stood there, trying to get his key into the door with shaking, anxious hands, he was suddenly enveloped from behind, Jake’s body pressed against his from neck to thighs.. The feeling of Jake’s hard cock pressing against his ass and the voice blowing hot words into his ear had him hard in seconds.
“You’re gonna fucking kill me Silbermann, I swear.”
He got the door open finally and was pushed into the apartment from behind. The door was slammed shut and he quickly found himself spun around and pushed against it, Jake’s mouth sucking a hickey into his skin where his shoulder met his neck.
“Oh god!”
Jake pulled back for a second, needing to see those eyes he knew where blown with lust.
“Like that Van, me leaving my mark on you? You are so fucking hot and I am so fucking lucky. Need everyone to know you’re mine.” He growled those words, and Van felt his cock twitch at the sound of them.
“Your’s Jake, always yours. I love having the marks from your mouth on me.” Van lifted his chin and angled himself so that Jake could have better access to his neck. “I love looking in the mirror and seeing them, knowing I’m yours and your mine.”
Jake ran his hands down Van’s arms, grabbing his hands and pushing them up over his head, against the door, holding them there.
They both knew that Van could move them if he wanted, that Jake would let him go if he wanted him to, but Van liked the feeling of letting Jake take control sometimes. Made him feel safe and loved at the same time.
Jake pushed him against the door with his hips and using one hand to keep both Van’s over his head, he used the other to unbutton his shirt so he could have access to all that gorgeous skin. He ran his hand through the soft, golden hair in the centre of his husbands chest before sliding to one side to tease a nipple to hardness, the sounds coming from Van’s mouth encouraging him.
He slid his mouth down from Van‘s mouth, trailing over his jaw, down his neck, leaving little love bites the whole way. He found a nipple with his tongue, licking over it, causing Van to whimper, before sucking it in, pulling on it gently with his teeth. God, every part him tasted good.
“Hmm, you told me I’d be on my knees, guess I’d better prove you right.” He let go of Van’s hands, running his hands down his arms, over his sides and down to curl around denim clad hips to hold him still, as he licked and bit his way down to the button on his jeans.
Jake let go of one hip to undo the button fly in front of him and then used both hands to pull them down, gently pulling them off one foot and then the other, looking up and seeing those eyes looking at him with trust and love.
He wrapped his hands around Van’s ankles, sliding them up the back of his legs to that gorgeous ass, grabbing two handfuls and squeezing before going back to the grasp he had on his hips.
Jake leaned forward, rubbing he face against the front of Van’s boxers, teasing him and just taking in the scent of his arousal.
“God Jake, please.” Van wasn’t sure what he was begging for but he would take whatever it would get him.”
“You smell so good Van. I could just about come from how good you smell.” Jake could see the growing damp spot on the front of Van’s boxer’s and knew he needed to get him into his mouth as soon as possible.
He kissed all along the waistband of Van’s underwear, earning himself some helpless whimpers and then he gently pulled them down, licking his lips when Van’s cock finally bobbed into view.
God he loved to suck Van’s cock. He had since the first time he ever did it. The way it tasted, how it felt sliding across his tongue, the pride he felt at being able to take it all the way in, sliding down his throat and having Van make those wonderfully fucking hot sounds.
“Please baby, now, I need you now.” Jake looked up and smiled at his lover, kissed his hip and stuck out his tongue to softly lick around the head before sucking it in, slowly, using his hands to hold Van’s hips against the door when they tried to buck away from it, towards him.
“Ngghh, god, Jake, so perfect, love this, love you.” Van was grunting the words out between gritted teeth, his hands in Jake’s hair, every tug going straight to Jake’s cock.
Van was never sure how Jake managed to lick and suck at the same time but it was the most erotic thing he has ever felt. And when one hand came off his hip to rub the sensitive skin behind his balls, it took ever ounce of his self control to not come.
With his last bit of coherency, he pushed Jake off and pulled him to his feet. He grabbed his hand and led the way to their bedroom, grabbing Jake by the belt loops of the jeans he was still wearing and turning him to push him on to the bed so hard he bounced.
Jake had a dazed grin on his face as Van quickly undid his jeans, pulling them and Jake’s boxers off in one pull. He climbed up on the bed beside him, leaning to pull his t-shirt over his head. He leaned down and kissed Jake, framing his face with his hands, fingers sliding back to curve around his jaw, pull him in closer.
Jake’s hands grabbed Van, pulling him down on top of him, covering him in hot, sexy, wiggling husband which was Jakes favorite thing in the world. And finally, they were there, together, skin to skin, cock to cock and everything was hot and sticky and slippery.
Van pulled back to look into the blue eyes that fueled all his fantasies and Jake saw what he wanted and was eager to comply. He rolled them over so he was on top and reached for the lube in the nightstand. He slicked up his fingers and slid them into Van, one at a time until there were three, and when Van was thrusting down onto his hand, Jake slicked up his cock and slid it home, carefully.
He pulled out almost all the way before pushing back in again, and so it went, over and over, both of them hanging on to the other, bodies moving instinctively, until they came almost together, whispering I love you to each other over and over again. They stroked each other’s skin, coming down from their high and then Jake slid off to the side before pulling Van into his arms. He had never decided if the best part was the sex or the snuggling that came afterwards.
“What are you smiling for?” Van’s voice was teasing and it earned him a kiss.
“What’s not to smile about after that? And besides, I had a good day.” He ran his fingers up and down Van’s arm, loving how soft the skin was.
“Yeah, me too. This movie is going to be fantastic Jake. I’m so proud of you.” He laid his head down on Jake’s chest. Listening to his heartbeat was one of his favorite things.
“You seemed to be having fun today. Those kids sure seem to adore you.” There was something in Jake’s voice that Van couldn’t place, but he was too tired and fucked out to think about it too much.
“Yeah, that’s because I’m a big kid and they recognize a kindred spirit. You know I’ll use any excuse to steal your ice cream, baby.”
“I don’t know, you’re pretty good with them. I think you’ll make a good dad someday.”
He could feel Van tense up in his arms before speaking.
“No, I won’t. Kids need someone to look up to and that’s not me, that’s you.”
Jake didn’t like the self-depreciation he heard in Van’s voice and reached down to tip his face up so he could look at him.
“Hey, what are you talking about? You’re one of the best people I know!”
“No, I’m not. I’m selfish and spoiled and too wrapped up in myself. Not sure how you put up with me most of the time.” Jake would have thought that Van was playing him, fishing for compliments, if not for the pain and self doubt in his voice.
Jake sat up, leaning against the headboard and pulled Van up with him. He held Van’s face in his hands and forced him to look into his eyes.
“I don’t put up with you, because there is nothing to put up with. You are the most loving, generous, kind hearted person I know.” He gently ran his thumb down Van’s cheek and across his lips. “I never knew life could be this good. And it’s all because of you.”
Van didn’t look convinced, but he stopped arguing. “Well, still, I’m not sure that I need to be passing my attitude along to a kid.” He looked at Jake again, curious, remembering the tone he had dismissed. “This something you’ve been thinking about Jake?” His voice was wary, but he really needed to know.
Jake blushed and looked everywhere but at Van, but Van caught his chin and looked him in the eye. “Come on babe, you need to be honest with me. This isn’t something we can ignore if it’s on your mind.”
“Yeah, I’ve been thinking about it.” He looked nervous, but forged ahead. “Watching you lately, and you know I’m always watching you, I’ve noticed a lot. Those kids working on the movie think you hung the moon, and my sister’s kids like Uncle Van more than they like me most of the time.”
He chuckled because now it was Van’s turn to blush and he looked so gorgeous that Jake had to hug him closer and kiss the top of his head. “I don’t know Jake, those kids all go home after a while. What about our careers? We’re both finally at a good place in them, and excuse me for being selfish, but I’m not sure I’m ready to let that go.”
“No one said anything about letting our careers go, Van. There are lots of awesome parents out there who have careers and kids. Besides, I didn’t say it had to be now, I just, wanted to think about it and maybe talk about it, you know? And I maintain my position that you would be a great dad.”
He wasn’t sure what the look was that Van was giving him, but at least he had stopped putting himself down. “And I mean, it goes without saying, I would be the worlds greatest dad. Who could resist me.” He said it with a teasing tone and a big grin, but Van had a very serious look on his face before reaching up and cupping his face, pulling him in for a very intense kiss.
“Not me. Resisting you is impossible, and I’m not sure I’d want to.” He snuggled back in to his husband, wrapping his arms around his waist and inhaling the smell of him and sex. To him it smelled like love.
“I’ll think about it, I promise. And we will talk about it again, but right now? I’m sleepy and you feel good. Can we talk later?”
Jake slid back down the bed, scooting Van along with him. Van waited until Jake was settled before going back to his previous position, his head on Jake’s chest, pressed along his side.
“Yeah, we can talk later. Go to sleep, we have to get up early to do some editing.”
“M’kay. Love you Jake.”
“Love you too Van.” He pulled him a little tighter and held him close until Vans breathing evened out and he was sound asleep.
Jake lay there, holding his everything in his arms, glad that Van hadn’t said no out right and wondering what he could do to get him to see how much a child could add to their lives. Jake knew it wouldn’t be easy, kids are hard and he knew it. But he also knew it could be worth it.
He fell asleep and dreamed of babies, with coffee colored eyes and dirty blond hair, all of them with Van’s smile.