Multi-personalities
After an onslaught of tutorials in the last two weeks, I feel strangely enlightened. Giddy yes, but it was more of an epiphany.
When I was younger, I was always questioning my meaning in life: Who am I and who do I want to be? I needed an aim in life to move forward. I needed to know what I wanna do with my life to move on. I needed to know why I'm alive.
I grew up constantly searching for this answer, which I now know, doesn't matter at all.
Because not knowing who you are, I think that's the whole point in living.
I used to think that everyone should have a character of their own, to define themselves, but such character would then have to be one dimensional, or you'd risk being hypocritical.
However, is that character you portray yourself to be, who you really are?
Just the other day, I was having my first SC3220 tutorial, whereby we were told to sketch a picture of ourself and our living space to bring to class. We were then asked to exchange our group's pictures with the other groups in the class, and to identify the person in the picture with their living space.
It was funny how we were trying to guess the identity and personality of the person whom we've probably just met for the first time, simply with a hand-drawn picture of themselves and their living space. It was almost like a psychoanalysis session, only we weren't in a psychology class.
Everyone was able to guess everyone else's identity correctly, yet when it came to our group, the other group who was holding on to our pictures wasn't able to tell us apart from the pictures at all. Why? Because neither of us drew one that looked remotely like ourselves. There was one with only the face that looked like a mask, and another, a faceless silhouette.
"Perhaps these girls weren't quite ready to expose their characters to others just yet," our lecturer joked.
I was surprised at how I ended in a group (no, we didn't know each other previously) that shared a similar sentiment. Many in the class were curious to know which set of pictures belonged to which of us, but when they approached us, we all kept decidedly mum about our identity, since we thought that was the fun part.
While we were in our group discussion, we were asked to talk about ourselves and our daily life. I was animatedly trying to get everyone in my group to introduce themselves and when it came to my turn, I commented that I'm not exactly the sociable kind of person, when someone asked, "Really? Because it sure doesn't seem like it."
I was taken aback, because I realized who I thought (I knew) I was, wasn't the way others portrayed me to be, or rather, I didn't behave the way for them to think so.
Thinking back, I've probably chosen a side of myself to present to others under various circumstances, such as in different tutorial groups, and/or with different groups of friends.
Siew Mun, my violent yet lovable Marketing Head from HOOKED thinks I'm super duper sotong (read: blur) and forgives me for whatever little mistakes I make or forget, because she thinks it comes with the personality. But am I even like that? Am I not known to be the serious no nonsense kinda person? No?
Then there was one of my tutorial group mates who actually said that I laugh easily. Huh? Are you sure you should be saying this to a person who doesn't even know how to smile properly, never ever laughs at j-ae's jokes, and has absolutely no sense of humour?
Well, I don't know if you'd consider these as masks I put on to disguise my true self (which is what, I have yet to figure out, and probably never will), but you know, I've actually grown to love all the multiple personalities I have. :)
HOOKED's latest issue - The Supernatural Issue - is out! Check it out!
The increasing number of organizations coming to us for publicity and providing freebies for us to give out makes me happy, even though it means more work for us all. :D
All NUS students listen up: Please loiter around outside Central Library on Wednesday (120907) at about 2pm if you have secrets to share! Don't worry, your identity will be strictly confidential! C'mon, I'm sure you've always secretly wanted people to know some of your Dirty Little Secrets! Let HOOKED help you with that! ;)
When I was younger, I was always questioning my meaning in life: Who am I and who do I want to be? I needed an aim in life to move forward. I needed to know what I wanna do with my life to move on. I needed to know why I'm alive.
I grew up constantly searching for this answer, which I now know, doesn't matter at all.
Because not knowing who you are, I think that's the whole point in living.
I used to think that everyone should have a character of their own, to define themselves, but such character would then have to be one dimensional, or you'd risk being hypocritical.
However, is that character you portray yourself to be, who you really are?
Just the other day, I was having my first SC3220 tutorial, whereby we were told to sketch a picture of ourself and our living space to bring to class. We were then asked to exchange our group's pictures with the other groups in the class, and to identify the person in the picture with their living space.
It was funny how we were trying to guess the identity and personality of the person whom we've probably just met for the first time, simply with a hand-drawn picture of themselves and their living space. It was almost like a psychoanalysis session, only we weren't in a psychology class.
Everyone was able to guess everyone else's identity correctly, yet when it came to our group, the other group who was holding on to our pictures wasn't able to tell us apart from the pictures at all. Why? Because neither of us drew one that looked remotely like ourselves. There was one with only the face that looked like a mask, and another, a faceless silhouette.
"Perhaps these girls weren't quite ready to expose their characters to others just yet," our lecturer joked.
I was surprised at how I ended in a group (no, we didn't know each other previously) that shared a similar sentiment. Many in the class were curious to know which set of pictures belonged to which of us, but when they approached us, we all kept decidedly mum about our identity, since we thought that was the fun part.
While we were in our group discussion, we were asked to talk about ourselves and our daily life. I was animatedly trying to get everyone in my group to introduce themselves and when it came to my turn, I commented that I'm not exactly the sociable kind of person, when someone asked, "Really? Because it sure doesn't seem like it."
I was taken aback, because I realized who I thought (I knew) I was, wasn't the way others portrayed me to be, or rather, I didn't behave the way for them to think so.
Thinking back, I've probably chosen a side of myself to present to others under various circumstances, such as in different tutorial groups, and/or with different groups of friends.
Siew Mun, my violent yet lovable Marketing Head from HOOKED thinks I'm super duper sotong (read: blur) and forgives me for whatever little mistakes I make or forget, because she thinks it comes with the personality. But am I even like that? Am I not known to be the serious no nonsense kinda person? No?
Then there was one of my tutorial group mates who actually said that I laugh easily. Huh? Are you sure you should be saying this to a person who doesn't even know how to smile properly, never ever laughs at j-ae's jokes, and has absolutely no sense of humour?
Well, I don't know if you'd consider these as masks I put on to disguise my true self (which is what, I have yet to figure out, and probably never will), but you know, I've actually grown to love all the multiple personalities I have. :)
HOOKED's latest issue - The Supernatural Issue - is out! Check it out!
The increasing number of organizations coming to us for publicity and providing freebies for us to give out makes me happy, even though it means more work for us all. :D
All NUS students listen up: Please loiter around outside Central Library on Wednesday (120907) at about 2pm if you have secrets to share! Don't worry, your identity will be strictly confidential! C'mon, I'm sure you've always secretly wanted people to know some of your Dirty Little Secrets! Let HOOKED help you with that! ;)