While I had never had a serious sickness (thought hospital stays are kinda common for me, gastrics, little surgeries, URGH)I know how you feel about the parents divorce cos mine did too when I was a kid. I didn't blame myself it happen but Up to the time I met my husband, I truly believed that i was kinda unworthy to be loved at all. yeah something about being abandoned at a young age, i guess.
I think the thing about divorces are they you really don't realize they are affecting you until much later. During my first relationship we had a fight and I really don't remember what it was but he said something and it just set me off and my mom looked me in the eye and said, "He isn't your father, Liz." I didn't even know I was thinking it, but hearing that made everything relax, you know?
Aw, babe. It's horrid when you can put the pieces of your life together and come up with the wrong picture like that. I can't imagine anyone who loves you would blame you, even for a second, over genetic/medical factors you just couldn't control. But you know all that - thanks to degrees and the like - so all I'll say is I loves ya, kid.
I love you, too, SF. I've got to admit to the fact that reading of your tales of LJ gives me hope and happiness. That it can be done right and healthily. It's hard to explain to a little kid what is going on, but the fact that you go and actually explain it to her means more to me than i can explain. ♥
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While I had never had a serious sickness (thought hospital stays are kinda common for me, gastrics, little surgeries, URGH)I know how you feel about the parents divorce cos mine did too when I was a kid. I didn't blame myself it happen but Up to the time I met my husband, I truly believed that i was kinda unworthy to be loved at all. yeah something about being abandoned at a young age, i guess.
I was so messed up.
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We're all a bit messed up. ♥
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