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[chocolatepot]

I am so depressed tonight

My patterning at Sturbridge went well - two spencers, one early and one mid, an evening dress that I really liked but may be some sort of Victorian reproduction (a really well-done and attractive one, but it is Not Quite Right), and another bib-front. It's not quite the same as the other one I did (which was exactly the

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[wereleopard]

Hugs. Just... Hugs. Prestigious internships/jobs are no guarantee of employment either :/ Ours is a crappy field to be in. You should be able to diversify without another degree. Just start volunteering at a historical society or house museum and make it clear you're doing it to learn about every aspect of the organization. If you're not working that much you have plenty of time. I know the idea of doing what you don't love is stressful but it's less stressful than what you're doing now, yes?

HUGS. It's gonna be okay Hon.

[chocolatepot]

Intellectually I probably know that internships don't get you jobs, but ... I guess it's because I feel the need to have something to put my finger on, hopefully to fix but even if it can't be? Because as far as I can tell, everyone else from my year is employed, so there has to be something I did wrong, otherwise is it just that there's something fundamentally wrong with me?

IDK if it'd be less stressful, because I would still have to combine it with this djskahdkjsahk job. But then there's also that whole stupid opportunity cost thing, where I have to weigh the experience I'm getting (which, when I think about it, I'm not sure what non-collections and non-front-desk stuff they tend to have volunteers do around here) vs. the possibility of doing something I'm really good at that might make more of an impression.

I just wish there were a place in town I could work at. Then I could do it more than twice a week and on shorter notice.

[zaftig46]

I wish I had something encouraging to tell you, but there is nothing. It's a shitty field which exploits people who can afford to work for nothing, it always has been, and your situation is just a symptom of that. I don't think going into more debt for school or internships is the way to go, because it's not the kind of debt that you can guarantee you can repay. So I say you should just keep plugging along, and things will come up. It won't be the kind of security you wish for, but hardly anyone has that these days. I have a PhD and work at 3 different universities, live in a different city than my husband, and children are hardly feasible. We are all in this boat together.

[chocolatepot]

You're probably right, I shouldn't go back to school. It came up the other day in conversation with someone and they were kind of encouraging (which was annoying, I wanted them to say it was unnecessary) which made me start considering it more seriously, but it's just too much debt.