[fic] It's Always You
Title: It's Always You
Pairings: main!Kyumin, broken!KyuYoung (later friendship!KyuYoung), broken!SeoKyu, broken!KyuToria, broken!KyuBoa, broken!MinSun, broken!MinYoung (later friendship!MinYoung), hint!YongSeo, hint!Khuntoria, friendship!KyuSica, friendship!KyuYoong, friendship!KyuBer, friendship!ChangKyu, friendship!ChangToria
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the casts
Warning: boy x boy love, unbetaed
Summary: Kyuhyun is afraid with the fact that he's gay, but he just can't stop his feeling towards...
A/N: I challenged myself to write fics with pairings I don't like, so if you think it's not good, I can understand. Hehe.
He is the one whom Kyuhyun always dreams of. He is the reason why Kyuhyun wanted to be a singer. He is the reason why Kyuhyun almost died of happiness when SM announced that Kyuhyun would be the 13th member or Super Junior. He is the one who made Kyuhyun grin like crazy when they moved to the new dorm because he finally could be his roommate. And he is the one whom Kyuhyun always kisses goodnight when he is already asleep.
And Kyuhyun can only do those all secretly, because Kyuhyun knows well that he can't love him like that. Kyuhyun himself can't understand why he loves that man so much. For God's sake, he's a guy as well. He just can't love guy, although he can't stop loving that man.
The one whom Kyuhyun loves, is Lee Sungmin.
That's why Kyuhyun dates someone else who is girl. Well, girls. He just doesn't want medias or especially his label, SM Entertainment know that he's gay, or he will be separated from Super Junior and maybe SM and obviously... him.
But the weird thing of Kyuhyun is only one:
He loves Sungmin, but he's afraid with the fact that he's gay.
---
First girlfriend: Kwon Boa.
Kyuhyun was still sleeping when his cellphone rang. And wanted it or not, he must get up to answer the call. When he looked at the caller's ID, he just sighed. BoA noona.
"Hello," Kyuhyun said shortly.
"Kyubong," Boa called out. "Still in trance?"
Kyuhyun just answered it with a 'hmm' as he rubbed his eyes. "What happened?"
"I miss you, Kyubong. I hate it when I have to be apart from you. But I know you can understand my business and career... Don't worry, USA and Japan are good to me."
Kyuhyun felt like he was gonna vomit, but he held it back.
"You don't miss me?"
Never. "Well... I miss..." Kyuhyun inhaled, "you too."
---
Second girlfriend: Choi Sooyoung
"Oppa," Sooyoung calls out. "Should we go watch movie or something? I almost die of boredom," she says, puffing her cheeks.
And her aegyo doesn't work at all.
"Nope, Sooyoung. Go prank your unnies or dongsaengs, I'm sure you won't be bored," Kyuhyun says without looking at Sooyoung because he's still playing game on his PSP. "Maybe you can tag Sunkyu along with you."
"Sunkyu unnie is having a date with Sungmin oppa," Sooyoung replies.
Sungmin. Sunkyu. Kyuhyun feels like his heartbeat stopped for awhile after hearing that Sunkyu the aegyo queen is having a date with Sungmin the aegyo king. What a perfect... ugh, relationship. But after all, the one who is in front of him right now is also Sungmin's ex-girlfriend. Sooyoung at first hated Sunkyu because she took Sungmin from her, even though at that time Sungmin hadn't officially dated Sunkyu, so she asked Kyuhyun to be her boyfriend. Kyuhyun agreed because he himself wanted to make Sungmin jealous but failed. But at least, Sooyoung finally could accept the fact that her unnie in SNSD is now Sungmin's girlfriend. And they became an officially couple when Sooyoung confessed to him. The day Kyuhyun wanted to vomit so much, but he didn't reject her.
"Oh," Kyuhyun is still focused with his game.
"Aaah oppa. Let's gooo. We must have a date like them too since we are couple!" Sooyoung tugs Kyuhyun's shirt.
"WHO SAID THAT WE'RE--" and Kyuhyun realizes one thing; Sooyoung is now his girlfriend. "--not going to have a date."
"So you're saying we're going to have a date?!" Sooyoung's smile is widened. "Oh how I love you my lovely oppa!" and she kisses Kyuhyun's cheek.
Kyuhyun wishes, that the one has just kissed him Sungmin, not Sooyoung.
---
Third girlfriend: Seo Joohyun
"Have you eaten your lunch, oppa?" Joohyun asks.
Kyuhyun really wants to say no but Joohyun will cook something-he-doesn't-like if he says so, so he just says, "I have. What about you?"
"I haven't," and somehow Kyuhyun feels pity for her. "It's okay if I make sandwich?"
"I'm full, Joohyun-ah," Kyuhyun says.
"I mean, for Yonghwa oppa..."
Kyuhyun almost forgot that Joohyun was CNBlue's Jung Yonghwa's virtual wife at that time. Of course she had to do many things as a wife even though it's only a virtual marriage. And actually, Kyuhyun didn't mind.
"Of course. He must be happy for it," Kyuhyun answers, the truthfully answer.
Joohyun looks at Kyuhyun deeply, and Kyuhyun just looks away. Joohyun gets closer to her boyfriend and Kyuhyun notices it. He takes a step away from his seat.
"I really think of it..."
Kyuhyun finally stares at Joohyun. "What?"
"Why..." Joohyun gulps, "why don't you get jealous of me and Yonghwa oppa?"
Damn. "What do you mean?"
"I never see your jealousy when I ask you about Yonghwa oppa. Do you... Really love me, oppa?"
Oh damn... She knew it. "I... I love you, but..."
"But?"
Kyuhyun encourages himself to say this. "But I don't need to show it with oral. Moreover, we have a duet in SMTown Concert right? Yonghwa... Can see our holding hands right?"
Slowly, Joohyun leans her head on Kyuhyun's shoulder and it makes him curse the girl in his mind.
"I love you oppa. I'm sorry."
---
Fourth girlfriend: Song Qian
She is practicing for her comeback with the song Pinocchio when Kyuhyun passed the practicing room. Automatically, Qian approaches her boyfriend and stops him. Kyuhyun, actually, was trying to hide himself so Qian won't notice him but the Chinese girl's eyes are so good to catch him.
"Xian oppa... 我 已经等了 一个小时 (I have been waiting for about 1 hour)," she calls.
Want it or not, Kyuhyun turns his head to see Qian with a fake smile. "你好, 钱 (hi, Qian)."
"Accompany me to have a drink? Yeah with Changminnie is okay too," Qian says cutely, and it really drives Kyuhyun mad.
"我很忙 (I'm very busy)," he answers shortly.
Qian makes a face. Kyuhyun then thought whether she could act normally instead of being cute and using her aegyo like that. For God's sake, that girl is one year older than he is. Even Sungmin can control his aegyo. Oops. Sungmin again.
"明天 (tomorrow)?" Qian asks again.
"I will be in Taiwan," Kyuhyun murmurs.
"Taiwan again? 最近工作忙吗 (you're busy with your work lately)?"
"I haven't finished yet to promote Perfection, moreover, don't you have shooting for WGM schedule with Nickhun-ssi?" Kyuhyun explains, and he turns away to continue walking, to the exit door. He wants to see his roommate to relieve his nausea.
---
Well, Kyuhyun is now single. No more BoA, his first-idol-girlfriend when he had just entered to Super Junior. No more Sooyoung, his second-idol-girlfriend when he had just got out from hospital after the accident. No more Joohyun, his third-idol-girlfriend when Seoul Song had just been released. No more Qian, his fourth-idol-girlfriend when he watched Sung Sikyung's concert together with Changmin too.
No more those girls. Only the guy he loves that still remains.
He wants to confess to Sungmin but he's still afraid. He's afraid the other members will keep a distance with him or something. Sometimes he hates himself for being a coward because he can't confess to him when Kyuhyun has broken up with his last girlfriend and Sungmin has broken up with Sunkyu months ago, but there's nothing he can do for now.
Then, the door is opened. Sungmin entered, making Kyuhyun got up from his trance.
"Oh, it's you, Minimi," Kyuhyun says.
"Does breaking up with Qian make you be able to sleep a whole day?" Sungmin teases. "Get up. I've got something for you."
Kyuhyun gets up as what Sungmin said. "Hyung, I'm happy being single again, and don't mention that disgusting name again," Kyuhyun says in serious tone.
Sungmin laughs. "Why? Did she hurt you?" he asks, putting down his plastic bag and Kyuhyun immediately knows what is Sungmin bringing for him.
"I didn't love her either during the relationship," and with hinting his feeling like this, he really hopes that Sungmin will be interested to ask more but Sungmin just keep laughing.
"Fine. You always say the same thing when you have just broken up. With BoA, Sooyoung, Joohyun, and Qian too," Sungmin accuses at Kyuhyun and the latter just rolls his eyes. "I've got wine for both of us. Small wine party, shall we?"
Kyuhyun smiles widely. "With pleasure, Your Majesty."
Locking the door, covering the window with its curtain, they held a small wine party, just two of them, in a gloomy room. Their gloomy room. So many wine bottles adorn their window, it's sign that they often hold this kind of party. It's natural because both of them love wine.
For Kyuhyun, Sungmin is his best friend in Super Junior, but Sungmin doesn't think so. He prefers to tell his whole story to Shindong, and he is close with his 86-line too. Actually, if only Hyukjae didn't make a fool-but-good promise with Junsu, the promise saying that they wouldn't drink alcohol for just even once (and smoke), maybe Sungmin will choose Hyukjae to be his wine party friend. That's why Kyuhyun really thanks to God and also Junsu for making that promise.
And they're drunk as always. The wine Sungmin brought tasted so good that they couldn't stop add more wine into their glass, again and again. And when they're finally drunk, they feel quite regret. The expensive wine is gone in just one night.
Sungmin heads to his bed while Kyuhyun suddenly grips his wrist. Sungmin tries hard to find Kyuhyun's face with half-closed eyes.
"Minimi... Stay here... With me..." Kyuhyun murmurs.
Sungmin holds his own head as if it is gonna loose from his neck. "I always... Am... Here, Kyuhyun-ah."
"I love you... Minimi. I love you," Kyuhyun says it with high tone, and his eyes suddenly become round.
Sungmin frowns. "What? If you're kidding me right now... You'll get my punch."
"I'm not kidding."
"Then you're lying."
"I'm not lying either," Kyuhyun tries to complete his consciousness to say, "I love you, not as a hyung. You know lovey-dovey couple. I love you like they love their couple. I dated BoA, Sooyoung, Joohyun, and Qian... To make you jealous. But you... You didn't get the point."
Sungmin frowns more. "It's even not April Fool's Day, Kyuhyun-ah."
Kyuhyun groans in frustration. "How many times should I say to that I'm not kidding, not lying either? I'm serious; I love you, and that's all I know. That's all you have to know," and Kyuhyun pulls Sungmin harshly to him so he can plant a deep kiss in the older guy's lips.
"Kyuhyun-ah!" Sungmin tries so hard to get Kyuhyun away from him. "Stop it, stop."
And Kyuhyun obeys him. He lets go of the older one. Seeing Sungmin's eyes draw a shock stare, Kyuhyun just can blame himself for doing an amoral thing to him. He's still under alcohol-control, anyway.
"I'm sorry..." and that's all Kyuhyun can say.
Sungmin stares at him deeply, and it makes Kyuhyun uneasy. The manly stare that Kyuhyun always wanted before, now he can't look at it. Too risky; what if he does something amoral again?
And Sungmin lifts Kyuhyun's chin so the younger man can face him. Sungmin can see the maknae's red eyes clearly even though he himself knows well his eyes are going red too. He smiles, and Kyuhyun frowns a bit because he didn't expect Sungmin will smile after he kissed him.
"Kyuhyun-ah," Sungmin calls in low tone, "you don't have to kiss me like that to prove that you love me. I always love you too, believe it or not, but after our mini drama... The time when you kissed my forehead, I began liking you."
Kyuhyun is now speechless. Sungmin, the one whom he loves, is confessing to him!
"But you're just a bastard, I tell you," Sungmin continues with mocking smile. "You don't know how it felt when I heard you were dating BoA at that time. So I tried to date Sooyoung. But when you got an accident, I broke up with Sooyoung just to take care more of you. You don't know how worried I was, right?"
"But it's not funny if you're joking, Minimi," Kyuhyun cuts off, but Sungmin gestures him to not disturbing what he is saying with putting his point finger on Kyuhyun's lips.
"I'm not finished yet, little man," Sungmin says. "But you suddenly made me shock; after you got out from hospital, not even a week after that, I heard a breaking news saying that you dated Sooyoung. I couldn't think why my effort ends up in vain..."
Kyuhyun pauses. So... He dated Sunkyu for...
"Then to make you jealous, I dated Sunkyu. She loved me so much and I knew it, that's why I chose her to be my girlfriend. Moreover, she has 'Kyu' in her name," Sungmin chuckles. "But you kept on dating Sooyoung, even after you guys broke up, you didn't give me a chance to get closer to you, suddenly you dated Joohyun after Seoul Song MV shooting was done. And on other hand, I couldn't stand dating Sunkyu. Drove me crazy because she always used her aegyo, tch."
Kyuhyun gradually smiles. He himself can't stand enjoying Sungmin's aegyo, but the difference is that Kyuhyun doesn't want Sungmin to stop aegyo-ing.
"But after I broke up with Sunkyu and you broke up with Joohyun, you went to Sung Sikyung's concert together with Qian and Changmin. I was a bit disappointed and disappointed more when I found out that you dated Qian. Really, I hate it. So when I entered Super Junior M, I really hoped I can get closer to you as someone is trying to get closer to his crush. I don't think I will be given more in return," Sungmin says with smile.
"What do you mean?"
"You finally broke up with Qian and you have just confessed to me, remember?" Sungmin winks.
Kyuhyun smiles widely. He can't hide his happiness now.
"By the way... From the four girls I have dated, whom are you jealous with the most?" Kyuhyun asks, not expecting that he would ask it before.
Sungmin thought for awhile. "Maybe the last one."
"Qian? Why?"
"Because... Her birthday is just one day before yours," Sungmin laughs. "She's indeed pretty, anyway, that's why I can understand that you loved her."
"I never ever loved her, Minimi," Kyuhyun says.
Sungmin smiles weakly. "I know. I have just known that you dated all of them just to make me jealous. Sorry."
"But at least you know it, right?" Kyuhyun smiles to Sungmin, pulling him closer so he can welcome the older guy in his embrace. "I love you from the very beginning. Oh, or I should say, I love you even when it hadn't been started."
Sungmin frowns. "So, when did you start loving me?"
"When photo teaser of Super Junior 05 had just been released," Kyuhyun smiles. "That's why I was so happy when company said that I would enter Super Junior. It means I can everyday see you, love you."
Sungmin then kisses Kyuhyun on the lips and the maknae is startled.
"No more girlfriends. It will be just you and me."
Kyuhyun kisses him in return. "Yes, Minimi."
---
Sungmin is happy now, because his friend from Oppa Band, Jungmo, will comeback together with Jay with the third mini album. He has been waiting for long to see his friend being on stage again, not as Super Show's guest. So he comes to Jungmo when the hot guitarist is in SM.
"Jungmo hyung!" Sungmin calls, and the latter turns.
"Oh, Sungmin-ah, hi!" Jungmo then gestures him to come closer. "Come here, I bought pizza."
"Pizza? Wow I can't refuse it," Sungmin then comes closer to Jungmo. There, Jay, Qian, and Joohyun already took a seat. Qian is quite close with TRAX members because she once was model for Let U Go with Heechul and now she will be the model for the single hit. Sungmin has watched the teaser. Joohyun is close with them too since she once was model for Oh! My Goddess. Kyuhyun really is clever in choosing girl.
In the middle of eating, Sungmin then gives compliment for Qian who stars TRAX's MV again. The girl is so happy.
"谢谢 (thank you)," she says with wide smile.
Sungmin can see Joohyun's face turns sad, and he has no idea why. He suddenly feels that she becomes like that because of him. But what was his mistake?
And when both Qian and Joohyun went away, Jay went to the WC, Sungmin asks Jungmo to show him the MV of Blind, their single from the third mini album.
"You sure won't betray me with leaking it to others?" Jungmo asks teasingly.
Sungmin just laughs. "This MV will be released tomorrow anyway."
Then Jungmo opens his laptop to show Sungmin their new MV. When Jungmo was still opening the folders, he explains that 'if only Heechul hyung was still here, Jay hyung and I would like him to join our MV' and Sungmin was just clueless about that. He didn't understand and he didn't give a damn either. Sungmin waits patiently with smile in his face...
Before he sees Kyuhyun in the MV.
Kyuhyun and Qian. Super Junior's Kyuhyun and f(x)'s Victoria.
"How is it? So dramatic, yes it is, but here, they acted so naturally. Don't you think so?" Jungmo asks.
Jungmo keeps explaining how the MV shooting was great, how Kyuhyun was willing to star the MV even though he's busy with his schedule, how Qian was happy during shooting so she tried so hard to act crying...
Sungmin heard it. But he can't make a move.
Without a word was said, Sungmin leaves Jungmo and Jay who has already come back from WC, leaves them frowning, with a blank stare. Sungmin doesn't know how to breathe normally now, or how to react after he watched it. He finally understands why Joohyun's face turned sad.
The only thing he can feel right now is 'burning'.
---
Kyuhyun arrives at dorm after visiting his parents' house. His mom asked him too give some food for the members and extra food for Sungmin because his mom knows well they're roommate for several years lately. So as thanking Sungmin for his kindness of looking after Kyuhyun, she gives extra food in return.
Kyuhyun can't think of Sungmin's happiness face when he said these are from his mom. He must be happy, he thought with grin. But when he enters his room, he can't find Sungmin there. He frowns. Does he have schedule today? He asks in his own mind. But then the door is opened by someone he is thinking of.
"Minimi! I'm bringing--"
Sungmin is gone before Kyuhyun can finish his sentence. Kyuhyun captured Sungmin face; cynical stare. Kyuhyun feels something wrong has happened to him.
"Min! Min!" Kyuhyun calls, but Sungmin doesn't bother it. So Kyuhyun grips Sungmin wrist when they're at living room. Good thing is that nobody's at dorm, so Kyuhyun can grip it with no hesitate. "Min, wait."
Sungmin turns to Kyuhyun with cynical stare like before. Kyuhyun feels so uneasy.
"What happened?" Kyuhyun asks.
Sungmin laughs mockingly. "What happened? With those all that you've done, you can ask me 'what happened' easily?"
"Min, I don't understand."
"Nevermind. I feel so stupid for loving a rascal like you," Sungmin says coldly, then he lets go of himself and gets away from Kyuhyun.
---
"So this is why," Kyuhyun mumbles after Sooyoung told him that Sungmin is mad after watching TRAX's new MV. "He thinks I'm still dating Qian?"
"Exactly," Sooyoung says, deputizing Yoona, Amber, Sooyeon-Jessica, and Changmin who are there as well.
Kyuhyun asked them to meet up and share his problem to them. And Sooyoung, who is now Sungmin's best friend in company, who is Kyuhyun's friend too now, explained that Sungmin is angry after watching the MV. It's Kyuhyun's fault too because he didn't tell Sungmin that he would be in TRAX's new MV with Qian. And of course he knows well that the Chinese girl is head-over-heels when she firstly watched the MV, as Amber said to him.
"Qian jiejie still loves you, Kyuhyun oppa," Amber adds.
"Wait, does she know that Kyuhyun oppa is now Sungmin oppa's lover?" Yoona asks Amber.
Amber shakes her head. "Nope. I also never told her before. I wonder that she will ask Kyuhyun oppa to talk about serious thing after this... Well, everything can happen."
"Yeah..." Sooyeon murmurs. "But I have to acknowledge that she's perfect even though she can't sing well. Moreover, Soojung really loves her leader. But oppa, can you just tell her that you and Sungmin oppa are together now? So she won't do anything to get you back."
Kyuhyun holds his chin with his hand, thinking so hard about it. Changmin, who is quiet during the meeting, finally speaks up. "I think Sooyeon is right. You tell Qian first, then Amber and I will make her understand. Sooyoung-ah, you can talk to Sungmin hyung," he instructs both Kyuhyun and Sooyoung.
"With pleasure! Oh well, by the way, where is Sungmin oppa now?"
"Why don't you call him?" Yoona and Sooyeon say in unison and they laugh, making Kyuhyun and Changmin go 'they're really the simultaneous 2PM Taecyeon's lovers'.
"So Kyuhyun oppa, good luck in explaining to Qian jiejie," Amber says, tapping Kyuhyun's shoulder to encourage him. The latter just smiles.
---
Qian walks to the practicing room because Kyuhyun asks her too. Kyuhyun has just finished practicing choreography for end of year events. Qian enters the room heavily, hoping she will receive a surprise. But after opening the door, she just finds Kyuhyun, sitting on a chair with an empty chair in front of him, that she's sure it is for her. Kyuhyun folds his arms in front of his chest and he lifts one leg on the other one.
"圭贤，对不起，我 迟到 了 (KuiXian, sorry, I'm late)," Qian says as she closes the door.
Kyuhyun turns to her. "没关系 (it's okay). Have a seat, please," he says, pointing the chair in front of him.
Qian then heads to the chair and sits there. With smile, she opens the conversation. "I know you don't like pay-lip service. I'll just get to the main point. 为什么, 圭贤 (Why, KuiXian)?"
Kyuhyun still closes his mouth while his eyes are starring at Qian's innocent face. Being stared like that, Qian is half-happy half-uneasy.
"你 没事 吗 (you're okay)?" Qian asks again.
And Kyuhyun finally reacts. "Qiannie, do you still love me?"
Qian smiles. "Of course. I still consider you as my boyfriend. For me, you're my best boyfriend."
Kyuhyun sighs. "Do you think I'm like that?"
"Yes. 你是 我的 男朋友 (you're my boyfriend)," Qian says. "Why so sudden anyway?"
Kyuhyun still doesn't smile.
"Don't tell me you're going to ask me to come back to you?" Qian guesses.
The young man laughs a bit; laughs mockingly. "Let bygone be bygone. You're my past, Qian. I never love you from the start. But the condition insisted me to ask you to be my girlfriend. Condition."
Qian's happiness stare suddenly gone away, changed into a blank one. And speechless.
"What we did in TRAX's MV is only acting, but it drives my lover mad. And I want you to explain to him that we're nothing," Kyuhyun says to the point.
"Wait, you have a lover? Your lover is a he?" Qian frowns hard. "You're...?"
"Gay, yes," Kyuhyun completes Qian's sentence. "Why? Surprised?"
Qian is shock, really shock. She never expected it before. "Then what about BoA unnie, Sooyoung, and Joohyun?"
"They're same like you. I dated you all to hide my true sex-orientation. And the only one who knows it from you four is Sooyoung. She knows I have a lover who is a boy, and she is now talking to him to clarify this situation. But I need you more to clarify this. Tell him that it's just acting."
"But who? You're dating who?" Qian asks impatiently.
Kyuhyun smiles. "My roommate."
Qian gasps. "Sungmin oppa? You're dating him?"
Kyuhyun nods; Qian is back to shock.
"You're so rascal. Bastard," Qian curses, not caring what she said.
"I know. I also want to ask you apologize. 都是 我的错，对不起 (it's all my fault, I'm sorry). But it's for your own good too. Moreover, I heard you're gonna shoot a new drama with Zhou Mi gege? I tell you, Zhou Mi loves you too," Kyuhyun says, winking.
Qian wipes her tears. "That's not helping."
"You have to move on. Please leave this bastard. Forget this rascal. I'm not good for you, and you deserve better than this fail," Kyuhyun says in low tone.
And they're gone silent for about 10 minutes. Kyuhyun watches the girl in front of him crying so hard and the only thing Kyuhyun regrets is that she's crying because of him. He may doesn't love Qian, but watching a girl cries is somehow pitiful. She loves him, but he loves someone else. That simple, but hurts for the girl. But what can he do?
"Fine," Qian finally says, trying to catch her breath. "I will go to Sungmin oppa and tell him that we were just acting and nothing else."
Kyuhyun widens his eyes. "真的吗 (really)?!" he asks, not believing what she had just said.
"是啊 (yes/right)," Qian smiles weakly. "In 10 minutes crying, I realize that love doesn't mean I have to own someone I love. And I try not to be greedy. I'm happy as well if you're happy, Kyuhyun. I'm sorry if I was not good for you, I'm sorry if I seemed so greedy. I'm blind for love, that's it."
Kyuhyun smiles. "太感谢了，钱 (thanks a lot, Qian)."
"不客气，圭贤 (you're welcome, KuiXian)," Qian says, getting up from her seat.
"都好吗 (is all okay (for you))?" Kyuhyun asks, making sure Qian is really okay.
Qian winks. "都好，谢谢. 圭贤，再见 (all is okay, thanks. KuiXian, see you later/goodbye)."
Kyuhyun stands up. "再见，钱 (see you later/goodbye, Qian)."
And when Qian arrives at the door, she says the last sentence to Kyuhyun: "我爱你，圭贤 哥哥 (I love you, KuiXian gege)!" and laughs before she shuts the door, leaving Kyuhyun whoo is laughing a bit too.
---
Kyuhyun tries to sleep because it's already late. Actually he doesn't want to since he wants to see Sungmin first, but tomorrow's schedule insists him to sleep earlier. He wants to know whether Qian really talked to Sungmin or not, but both Qian and Sooyoung had reported to him, even Changmin and Amber have reported that they had talked to Qian as well.
Suddenly, the door is opened. And Sungmin enters. Stupid, Kyuhyun pretends to sleep instead of welcoming him.
Sungmin approaches Kyuhyun's bed and takes a seat soundlessly so Kyuhyun won't wake up. Kyuhyun frowns a bit, guessing what will he do to him.
"I'm sorry for being childish, Kyuhyun-ah. I'm really sorry," Sungmin starts. "I was too jealous. Qian came to me and explained all. I should know that it was just acting. But jealousy was on eveything, wasn't it?"
Kyuhyun smiles and he pulls Sungmin closer to him. He hugs the smaller man tightly.
"Kyuhyun! You're awake!" Sungmin yells.
"Ssshh, it's time to sleep," Kyuhyun says, continuing sleep with Sungmin in his embrace.
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A/N: I'm really interested in chinese so I put some of chinese here.
this fic is dedicated to Avi unnie, Ang unnie, auntie Riyu, Rielle umma, auntie Rai, Ku, Eli, and those who was celebrating birthday when I was really busy.
For you too, Kyuhyun. Happy birthday. may God bless you.
Pairings: main!Kyumin, broken!KyuYoung (later friendship!KyuYoung), broken!SeoKyu, broken!KyuToria, broken!KyuBoa, broken!MinSun, broken!MinYoung (later friendship!MinYoung), hint!YongSeo, hint!Khuntoria, friendship!KyuSica, friendship!KyuYoong, friendship!KyuBer, friendship!ChangKyu, friendship!ChangToria
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the casts
Warning: boy x boy love, unbetaed
Summary: Kyuhyun is afraid with the fact that he's gay, but he just can't stop his feeling towards...
A/N: I challenged myself to write fics with pairings I don't like, so if you think it's not good, I can understand. Hehe.
He is the one whom Kyuhyun always dreams of. He is the reason why Kyuhyun wanted to be a singer. He is the reason why Kyuhyun almost died of happiness when SM announced that Kyuhyun would be the 13th member or Super Junior. He is the one who made Kyuhyun grin like crazy when they moved to the new dorm because he finally could be his roommate. And he is the one whom Kyuhyun always kisses goodnight when he is already asleep.
And Kyuhyun can only do those all secretly, because Kyuhyun knows well that he can't love him like that. Kyuhyun himself can't understand why he loves that man so much. For God's sake, he's a guy as well. He just can't love guy, although he can't stop loving that man.
The one whom Kyuhyun loves, is Lee Sungmin.
That's why Kyuhyun dates someone else who is girl. Well, girls. He just doesn't want medias or especially his label, SM Entertainment know that he's gay, or he will be separated from Super Junior and maybe SM and obviously... him.
But the weird thing of Kyuhyun is only one:
He loves Sungmin, but he's afraid with the fact that he's gay.
---
First girlfriend: Kwon Boa.
Kyuhyun was still sleeping when his cellphone rang. And wanted it or not, he must get up to answer the call. When he looked at the caller's ID, he just sighed. BoA noona.
"Hello," Kyuhyun said shortly.
"Kyubong," Boa called out. "Still in trance?"
Kyuhyun just answered it with a 'hmm' as he rubbed his eyes. "What happened?"
"I miss you, Kyubong. I hate it when I have to be apart from you. But I know you can understand my business and career... Don't worry, USA and Japan are good to me."
Kyuhyun felt like he was gonna vomit, but he held it back.
"You don't miss me?"
Never. "Well... I miss..." Kyuhyun inhaled, "you too."
---
Second girlfriend: Choi Sooyoung
"Oppa," Sooyoung calls out. "Should we go watch movie or something? I almost die of boredom," she says, puffing her cheeks.
And her aegyo doesn't work at all.
"Nope, Sooyoung. Go prank your unnies or dongsaengs, I'm sure you won't be bored," Kyuhyun says without looking at Sooyoung because he's still playing game on his PSP. "Maybe you can tag Sunkyu along with you."
"Sunkyu unnie is having a date with Sungmin oppa," Sooyoung replies.
Sungmin. Sunkyu. Kyuhyun feels like his heartbeat stopped for awhile after hearing that Sunkyu the aegyo queen is having a date with Sungmin the aegyo king. What a perfect... ugh, relationship. But after all, the one who is in front of him right now is also Sungmin's ex-girlfriend. Sooyoung at first hated Sunkyu because she took Sungmin from her, even though at that time Sungmin hadn't officially dated Sunkyu, so she asked Kyuhyun to be her boyfriend. Kyuhyun agreed because he himself wanted to make Sungmin jealous but failed. But at least, Sooyoung finally could accept the fact that her unnie in SNSD is now Sungmin's girlfriend. And they became an officially couple when Sooyoung confessed to him. The day Kyuhyun wanted to vomit so much, but he didn't reject her.
"Oh," Kyuhyun is still focused with his game.
"Aaah oppa. Let's gooo. We must have a date like them too since we are couple!" Sooyoung tugs Kyuhyun's shirt.
"WHO SAID THAT WE'RE--" and Kyuhyun realizes one thing; Sooyoung is now his girlfriend. "--not going to have a date."
"So you're saying we're going to have a date?!" Sooyoung's smile is widened. "Oh how I love you my lovely oppa!" and she kisses Kyuhyun's cheek.
Kyuhyun wishes, that the one has just kissed him Sungmin, not Sooyoung.
---
Third girlfriend: Seo Joohyun
"Have you eaten your lunch, oppa?" Joohyun asks.
Kyuhyun really wants to say no but Joohyun will cook something-he-doesn't-like if he says so, so he just says, "I have. What about you?"
"I haven't," and somehow Kyuhyun feels pity for her. "It's okay if I make sandwich?"
"I'm full, Joohyun-ah," Kyuhyun says.
"I mean, for Yonghwa oppa..."
Kyuhyun almost forgot that Joohyun was CNBlue's Jung Yonghwa's virtual wife at that time. Of course she had to do many things as a wife even though it's only a virtual marriage. And actually, Kyuhyun didn't mind.
"Of course. He must be happy for it," Kyuhyun answers, the truthfully answer.
Joohyun looks at Kyuhyun deeply, and Kyuhyun just looks away. Joohyun gets closer to her boyfriend and Kyuhyun notices it. He takes a step away from his seat.
"I really think of it..."
Kyuhyun finally stares at Joohyun. "What?"
"Why..." Joohyun gulps, "why don't you get jealous of me and Yonghwa oppa?"
Damn. "What do you mean?"
"I never see your jealousy when I ask you about Yonghwa oppa. Do you... Really love me, oppa?"
Oh damn... She knew it. "I... I love you, but..."
"But?"
Kyuhyun encourages himself to say this. "But I don't need to show it with oral. Moreover, we have a duet in SMTown Concert right? Yonghwa... Can see our holding hands right?"
Slowly, Joohyun leans her head on Kyuhyun's shoulder and it makes him curse the girl in his mind.
"I love you oppa. I'm sorry."
---
Fourth girlfriend: Song Qian
She is practicing for her comeback with the song Pinocchio when Kyuhyun passed the practicing room. Automatically, Qian approaches her boyfriend and stops him. Kyuhyun, actually, was trying to hide himself so Qian won't notice him but the Chinese girl's eyes are so good to catch him.
"Xian oppa... 我 已经等了 一个小时 (I have been waiting for about 1 hour)," she calls.
Want it or not, Kyuhyun turns his head to see Qian with a fake smile. "你好, 钱 (hi, Qian)."
"Accompany me to have a drink? Yeah with Changminnie is okay too," Qian says cutely, and it really drives Kyuhyun mad.
"我很忙 (I'm very busy)," he answers shortly.
Qian makes a face. Kyuhyun then thought whether she could act normally instead of being cute and using her aegyo like that. For God's sake, that girl is one year older than he is. Even Sungmin can control his aegyo. Oops. Sungmin again.
"明天 (tomorrow)?" Qian asks again.
"I will be in Taiwan," Kyuhyun murmurs.
"Taiwan again? 最近工作忙吗 (you're busy with your work lately)?"
"I haven't finished yet to promote Perfection, moreover, don't you have shooting for WGM schedule with Nickhun-ssi?" Kyuhyun explains, and he turns away to continue walking, to the exit door. He wants to see his roommate to relieve his nausea.
---
Well, Kyuhyun is now single. No more BoA, his first-idol-girlfriend when he had just entered to Super Junior. No more Sooyoung, his second-idol-girlfriend when he had just got out from hospital after the accident. No more Joohyun, his third-idol-girlfriend when Seoul Song had just been released. No more Qian, his fourth-idol-girlfriend when he watched Sung Sikyung's concert together with Changmin too.
No more those girls. Only the guy he loves that still remains.
He wants to confess to Sungmin but he's still afraid. He's afraid the other members will keep a distance with him or something. Sometimes he hates himself for being a coward because he can't confess to him when Kyuhyun has broken up with his last girlfriend and Sungmin has broken up with Sunkyu months ago, but there's nothing he can do for now.
Then, the door is opened. Sungmin entered, making Kyuhyun got up from his trance.
"Oh, it's you, Minimi," Kyuhyun says.
"Does breaking up with Qian make you be able to sleep a whole day?" Sungmin teases. "Get up. I've got something for you."
Kyuhyun gets up as what Sungmin said. "Hyung, I'm happy being single again, and don't mention that disgusting name again," Kyuhyun says in serious tone.
Sungmin laughs. "Why? Did she hurt you?" he asks, putting down his plastic bag and Kyuhyun immediately knows what is Sungmin bringing for him.
"I didn't love her either during the relationship," and with hinting his feeling like this, he really hopes that Sungmin will be interested to ask more but Sungmin just keep laughing.
"Fine. You always say the same thing when you have just broken up. With BoA, Sooyoung, Joohyun, and Qian too," Sungmin accuses at Kyuhyun and the latter just rolls his eyes. "I've got wine for both of us. Small wine party, shall we?"
Kyuhyun smiles widely. "With pleasure, Your Majesty."
Locking the door, covering the window with its curtain, they held a small wine party, just two of them, in a gloomy room. Their gloomy room. So many wine bottles adorn their window, it's sign that they often hold this kind of party. It's natural because both of them love wine.
For Kyuhyun, Sungmin is his best friend in Super Junior, but Sungmin doesn't think so. He prefers to tell his whole story to Shindong, and he is close with his 86-line too. Actually, if only Hyukjae didn't make a fool-but-good promise with Junsu, the promise saying that they wouldn't drink alcohol for just even once (and smoke), maybe Sungmin will choose Hyukjae to be his wine party friend. That's why Kyuhyun really thanks to God and also Junsu for making that promise.
And they're drunk as always. The wine Sungmin brought tasted so good that they couldn't stop add more wine into their glass, again and again. And when they're finally drunk, they feel quite regret. The expensive wine is gone in just one night.
Sungmin heads to his bed while Kyuhyun suddenly grips his wrist. Sungmin tries hard to find Kyuhyun's face with half-closed eyes.
"Minimi... Stay here... With me..." Kyuhyun murmurs.
Sungmin holds his own head as if it is gonna loose from his neck. "I always... Am... Here, Kyuhyun-ah."
"I love you... Minimi. I love you," Kyuhyun says it with high tone, and his eyes suddenly become round.
Sungmin frowns. "What? If you're kidding me right now... You'll get my punch."
"I'm not kidding."
"Then you're lying."
"I'm not lying either," Kyuhyun tries to complete his consciousness to say, "I love you, not as a hyung. You know lovey-dovey couple. I love you like they love their couple. I dated BoA, Sooyoung, Joohyun, and Qian... To make you jealous. But you... You didn't get the point."
Sungmin frowns more. "It's even not April Fool's Day, Kyuhyun-ah."
Kyuhyun groans in frustration. "How many times should I say to that I'm not kidding, not lying either? I'm serious; I love you, and that's all I know. That's all you have to know," and Kyuhyun pulls Sungmin harshly to him so he can plant a deep kiss in the older guy's lips.
"Kyuhyun-ah!" Sungmin tries so hard to get Kyuhyun away from him. "Stop it, stop."
And Kyuhyun obeys him. He lets go of the older one. Seeing Sungmin's eyes draw a shock stare, Kyuhyun just can blame himself for doing an amoral thing to him. He's still under alcohol-control, anyway.
"I'm sorry..." and that's all Kyuhyun can say.
Sungmin stares at him deeply, and it makes Kyuhyun uneasy. The manly stare that Kyuhyun always wanted before, now he can't look at it. Too risky; what if he does something amoral again?
And Sungmin lifts Kyuhyun's chin so the younger man can face him. Sungmin can see the maknae's red eyes clearly even though he himself knows well his eyes are going red too. He smiles, and Kyuhyun frowns a bit because he didn't expect Sungmin will smile after he kissed him.
"Kyuhyun-ah," Sungmin calls in low tone, "you don't have to kiss me like that to prove that you love me. I always love you too, believe it or not, but after our mini drama... The time when you kissed my forehead, I began liking you."
Kyuhyun is now speechless. Sungmin, the one whom he loves, is confessing to him!
"But you're just a bastard, I tell you," Sungmin continues with mocking smile. "You don't know how it felt when I heard you were dating BoA at that time. So I tried to date Sooyoung. But when you got an accident, I broke up with Sooyoung just to take care more of you. You don't know how worried I was, right?"
"But it's not funny if you're joking, Minimi," Kyuhyun cuts off, but Sungmin gestures him to not disturbing what he is saying with putting his point finger on Kyuhyun's lips.
"I'm not finished yet, little man," Sungmin says. "But you suddenly made me shock; after you got out from hospital, not even a week after that, I heard a breaking news saying that you dated Sooyoung. I couldn't think why my effort ends up in vain..."
Kyuhyun pauses. So... He dated Sunkyu for...
"Then to make you jealous, I dated Sunkyu. She loved me so much and I knew it, that's why I chose her to be my girlfriend. Moreover, she has 'Kyu' in her name," Sungmin chuckles. "But you kept on dating Sooyoung, even after you guys broke up, you didn't give me a chance to get closer to you, suddenly you dated Joohyun after Seoul Song MV shooting was done. And on other hand, I couldn't stand dating Sunkyu. Drove me crazy because she always used her aegyo, tch."
Kyuhyun gradually smiles. He himself can't stand enjoying Sungmin's aegyo, but the difference is that Kyuhyun doesn't want Sungmin to stop aegyo-ing.
"But after I broke up with Sunkyu and you broke up with Joohyun, you went to Sung Sikyung's concert together with Qian and Changmin. I was a bit disappointed and disappointed more when I found out that you dated Qian. Really, I hate it. So when I entered Super Junior M, I really hoped I can get closer to you as someone is trying to get closer to his crush. I don't think I will be given more in return," Sungmin says with smile.
"What do you mean?"
"You finally broke up with Qian and you have just confessed to me, remember?" Sungmin winks.
Kyuhyun smiles widely. He can't hide his happiness now.
"By the way... From the four girls I have dated, whom are you jealous with the most?" Kyuhyun asks, not expecting that he would ask it before.
Sungmin thought for awhile. "Maybe the last one."
"Qian? Why?"
"Because... Her birthday is just one day before yours," Sungmin laughs. "She's indeed pretty, anyway, that's why I can understand that you loved her."
"I never ever loved her, Minimi," Kyuhyun says.
Sungmin smiles weakly. "I know. I have just known that you dated all of them just to make me jealous. Sorry."
"But at least you know it, right?" Kyuhyun smiles to Sungmin, pulling him closer so he can welcome the older guy in his embrace. "I love you from the very beginning. Oh, or I should say, I love you even when it hadn't been started."
Sungmin frowns. "So, when did you start loving me?"
"When photo teaser of Super Junior 05 had just been released," Kyuhyun smiles. "That's why I was so happy when company said that I would enter Super Junior. It means I can everyday see you, love you."
Sungmin then kisses Kyuhyun on the lips and the maknae is startled.
"No more girlfriends. It will be just you and me."
Kyuhyun kisses him in return. "Yes, Minimi."
---
Sungmin is happy now, because his friend from Oppa Band, Jungmo, will comeback together with Jay with the third mini album. He has been waiting for long to see his friend being on stage again, not as Super Show's guest. So he comes to Jungmo when the hot guitarist is in SM.
"Jungmo hyung!" Sungmin calls, and the latter turns.
"Oh, Sungmin-ah, hi!" Jungmo then gestures him to come closer. "Come here, I bought pizza."
"Pizza? Wow I can't refuse it," Sungmin then comes closer to Jungmo. There, Jay, Qian, and Joohyun already took a seat. Qian is quite close with TRAX members because she once was model for Let U Go with Heechul and now she will be the model for the single hit. Sungmin has watched the teaser. Joohyun is close with them too since she once was model for Oh! My Goddess. Kyuhyun really is clever in choosing girl.
In the middle of eating, Sungmin then gives compliment for Qian who stars TRAX's MV again. The girl is so happy.
"谢谢 (thank you)," she says with wide smile.
Sungmin can see Joohyun's face turns sad, and he has no idea why. He suddenly feels that she becomes like that because of him. But what was his mistake?
And when both Qian and Joohyun went away, Jay went to the WC, Sungmin asks Jungmo to show him the MV of Blind, their single from the third mini album.
"You sure won't betray me with leaking it to others?" Jungmo asks teasingly.
Sungmin just laughs. "This MV will be released tomorrow anyway."
Then Jungmo opens his laptop to show Sungmin their new MV. When Jungmo was still opening the folders, he explains that 'if only Heechul hyung was still here, Jay hyung and I would like him to join our MV' and Sungmin was just clueless about that. He didn't understand and he didn't give a damn either. Sungmin waits patiently with smile in his face...
Before he sees Kyuhyun in the MV.
Kyuhyun and Qian. Super Junior's Kyuhyun and f(x)'s Victoria.
"How is it? So dramatic, yes it is, but here, they acted so naturally. Don't you think so?" Jungmo asks.
Jungmo keeps explaining how the MV shooting was great, how Kyuhyun was willing to star the MV even though he's busy with his schedule, how Qian was happy during shooting so she tried so hard to act crying...
Sungmin heard it. But he can't make a move.
Without a word was said, Sungmin leaves Jungmo and Jay who has already come back from WC, leaves them frowning, with a blank stare. Sungmin doesn't know how to breathe normally now, or how to react after he watched it. He finally understands why Joohyun's face turned sad.
The only thing he can feel right now is 'burning'.
---
Kyuhyun arrives at dorm after visiting his parents' house. His mom asked him too give some food for the members and extra food for Sungmin because his mom knows well they're roommate for several years lately. So as thanking Sungmin for his kindness of looking after Kyuhyun, she gives extra food in return.
Kyuhyun can't think of Sungmin's happiness face when he said these are from his mom. He must be happy, he thought with grin. But when he enters his room, he can't find Sungmin there. He frowns. Does he have schedule today? He asks in his own mind. But then the door is opened by someone he is thinking of.
"Minimi! I'm bringing--"
Sungmin is gone before Kyuhyun can finish his sentence. Kyuhyun captured Sungmin face; cynical stare. Kyuhyun feels something wrong has happened to him.
"Min! Min!" Kyuhyun calls, but Sungmin doesn't bother it. So Kyuhyun grips Sungmin wrist when they're at living room. Good thing is that nobody's at dorm, so Kyuhyun can grip it with no hesitate. "Min, wait."
Sungmin turns to Kyuhyun with cynical stare like before. Kyuhyun feels so uneasy.
"What happened?" Kyuhyun asks.
Sungmin laughs mockingly. "What happened? With those all that you've done, you can ask me 'what happened' easily?"
"Min, I don't understand."
"Nevermind. I feel so stupid for loving a rascal like you," Sungmin says coldly, then he lets go of himself and gets away from Kyuhyun.
---
"So this is why," Kyuhyun mumbles after Sooyoung told him that Sungmin is mad after watching TRAX's new MV. "He thinks I'm still dating Qian?"
"Exactly," Sooyoung says, deputizing Yoona, Amber, Sooyeon-Jessica, and Changmin who are there as well.
Kyuhyun asked them to meet up and share his problem to them. And Sooyoung, who is now Sungmin's best friend in company, who is Kyuhyun's friend too now, explained that Sungmin is angry after watching the MV. It's Kyuhyun's fault too because he didn't tell Sungmin that he would be in TRAX's new MV with Qian. And of course he knows well that the Chinese girl is head-over-heels when she firstly watched the MV, as Amber said to him.
"Qian jiejie still loves you, Kyuhyun oppa," Amber adds.
"Wait, does she know that Kyuhyun oppa is now Sungmin oppa's lover?" Yoona asks Amber.
Amber shakes her head. "Nope. I also never told her before. I wonder that she will ask Kyuhyun oppa to talk about serious thing after this... Well, everything can happen."
"Yeah..." Sooyeon murmurs. "But I have to acknowledge that she's perfect even though she can't sing well. Moreover, Soojung really loves her leader. But oppa, can you just tell her that you and Sungmin oppa are together now? So she won't do anything to get you back."
Kyuhyun holds his chin with his hand, thinking so hard about it. Changmin, who is quiet during the meeting, finally speaks up. "I think Sooyeon is right. You tell Qian first, then Amber and I will make her understand. Sooyoung-ah, you can talk to Sungmin hyung," he instructs both Kyuhyun and Sooyoung.
"With pleasure! Oh well, by the way, where is Sungmin oppa now?"
"Why don't you call him?" Yoona and Sooyeon say in unison and they laugh, making Kyuhyun and Changmin go 'they're really the simultaneous 2PM Taecyeon's lovers'.
"So Kyuhyun oppa, good luck in explaining to Qian jiejie," Amber says, tapping Kyuhyun's shoulder to encourage him. The latter just smiles.
---
Qian walks to the practicing room because Kyuhyun asks her too. Kyuhyun has just finished practicing choreography for end of year events. Qian enters the room heavily, hoping she will receive a surprise. But after opening the door, she just finds Kyuhyun, sitting on a chair with an empty chair in front of him, that she's sure it is for her. Kyuhyun folds his arms in front of his chest and he lifts one leg on the other one.
"圭贤，对不起，我 迟到 了 (KuiXian, sorry, I'm late)," Qian says as she closes the door.
Kyuhyun turns to her. "没关系 (it's okay). Have a seat, please," he says, pointing the chair in front of him.
Qian then heads to the chair and sits there. With smile, she opens the conversation. "I know you don't like pay-lip service. I'll just get to the main point. 为什么, 圭贤 (Why, KuiXian)?"
Kyuhyun still closes his mouth while his eyes are starring at Qian's innocent face. Being stared like that, Qian is half-happy half-uneasy.
"你 没事 吗 (you're okay)?" Qian asks again.
And Kyuhyun finally reacts. "Qiannie, do you still love me?"
Qian smiles. "Of course. I still consider you as my boyfriend. For me, you're my best boyfriend."
Kyuhyun sighs. "Do you think I'm like that?"
"Yes. 你是 我的 男朋友 (you're my boyfriend)," Qian says. "Why so sudden anyway?"
Kyuhyun still doesn't smile.
"Don't tell me you're going to ask me to come back to you?" Qian guesses.
The young man laughs a bit; laughs mockingly. "Let bygone be bygone. You're my past, Qian. I never love you from the start. But the condition insisted me to ask you to be my girlfriend. Condition."
Qian's happiness stare suddenly gone away, changed into a blank one. And speechless.
"What we did in TRAX's MV is only acting, but it drives my lover mad. And I want you to explain to him that we're nothing," Kyuhyun says to the point.
"Wait, you have a lover? Your lover is a he?" Qian frowns hard. "You're...?"
"Gay, yes," Kyuhyun completes Qian's sentence. "Why? Surprised?"
Qian is shock, really shock. She never expected it before. "Then what about BoA unnie, Sooyoung, and Joohyun?"
"They're same like you. I dated you all to hide my true sex-orientation. And the only one who knows it from you four is Sooyoung. She knows I have a lover who is a boy, and she is now talking to him to clarify this situation. But I need you more to clarify this. Tell him that it's just acting."
"But who? You're dating who?" Qian asks impatiently.
Kyuhyun smiles. "My roommate."
Qian gasps. "Sungmin oppa? You're dating him?"
Kyuhyun nods; Qian is back to shock.
"You're so rascal. Bastard," Qian curses, not caring what she said.
"I know. I also want to ask you apologize. 都是 我的错，对不起 (it's all my fault, I'm sorry). But it's for your own good too. Moreover, I heard you're gonna shoot a new drama with Zhou Mi gege? I tell you, Zhou Mi loves you too," Kyuhyun says, winking.
Qian wipes her tears. "That's not helping."
"You have to move on. Please leave this bastard. Forget this rascal. I'm not good for you, and you deserve better than this fail," Kyuhyun says in low tone.
And they're gone silent for about 10 minutes. Kyuhyun watches the girl in front of him crying so hard and the only thing Kyuhyun regrets is that she's crying because of him. He may doesn't love Qian, but watching a girl cries is somehow pitiful. She loves him, but he loves someone else. That simple, but hurts for the girl. But what can he do?
"Fine," Qian finally says, trying to catch her breath. "I will go to Sungmin oppa and tell him that we were just acting and nothing else."
Kyuhyun widens his eyes. "真的吗 (really)?!" he asks, not believing what she had just said.
"是啊 (yes/right)," Qian smiles weakly. "In 10 minutes crying, I realize that love doesn't mean I have to own someone I love. And I try not to be greedy. I'm happy as well if you're happy, Kyuhyun. I'm sorry if I was not good for you, I'm sorry if I seemed so greedy. I'm blind for love, that's it."
Kyuhyun smiles. "太感谢了，钱 (thanks a lot, Qian)."
"不客气，圭贤 (you're welcome, KuiXian)," Qian says, getting up from her seat.
"都好吗 (is all okay (for you))?" Kyuhyun asks, making sure Qian is really okay.
Qian winks. "都好，谢谢. 圭贤，再见 (all is okay, thanks. KuiXian, see you later/goodbye)."
Kyuhyun stands up. "再见，钱 (see you later/goodbye, Qian)."
And when Qian arrives at the door, she says the last sentence to Kyuhyun: "我爱你，圭贤 哥哥 (I love you, KuiXian gege)!" and laughs before she shuts the door, leaving Kyuhyun whoo is laughing a bit too.
---
Kyuhyun tries to sleep because it's already late. Actually he doesn't want to since he wants to see Sungmin first, but tomorrow's schedule insists him to sleep earlier. He wants to know whether Qian really talked to Sungmin or not, but both Qian and Sooyoung had reported to him, even Changmin and Amber have reported that they had talked to Qian as well.
Suddenly, the door is opened. And Sungmin enters. Stupid, Kyuhyun pretends to sleep instead of welcoming him.
Sungmin approaches Kyuhyun's bed and takes a seat soundlessly so Kyuhyun won't wake up. Kyuhyun frowns a bit, guessing what will he do to him.
"I'm sorry for being childish, Kyuhyun-ah. I'm really sorry," Sungmin starts. "I was too jealous. Qian came to me and explained all. I should know that it was just acting. But jealousy was on eveything, wasn't it?"
Kyuhyun smiles and he pulls Sungmin closer to him. He hugs the smaller man tightly.
"Kyuhyun! You're awake!" Sungmin yells.
"Ssshh, it's time to sleep," Kyuhyun says, continuing sleep with Sungmin in his embrace.
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A/N: I'm really interested in chinese so I put some of chinese here.
this fic is dedicated to Avi unnie, Ang unnie, auntie Riyu, Rielle umma, auntie Rai, Ku, Eli, and those who was celebrating birthday when I was really busy.
For you too, Kyuhyun. Happy birthday. may God bless you.