So things keep moving and I'm content now to just be me by myself. I'm ready to experience the world and everything it has to offer and I'm not ready to tie myself down to one person, at least not for long. Maybe I'll find someone who will run with me for a while but in a life as varied as I'm hoping mine is going to be, it may be difficult.

Maybe Patrick's right and it is pride. Why is it so hard for me to swallow and understand that he doesn't feel the same. And isn't it bad enough that he haunts me awake but that now he's creeped into my dreams and invaded my sleep. When will I be free from this ghost that continues to cloud my mind

Could there be any more calling?

Staying away from you the weekdays is easy, its the weekends when I can't help but think of you

Now that I've deleted you from my life it feels like I have a lot less pressure on my shoulders.

You finally are content just to be with me but I'm no longer content to be with you. I know there's something else out there because I've already felt it. And losing chemistry is almost as hard as losing you was...

I've been constantly feeling torn lately. I don't know how to handle this separation, and I don't know what I want...well I kind of do but its being overshadowed by what other people think and by their reactions. I've realized I don't want a boyfriend right now. While the last year and a half has been great it has also been very emotionally ( Read more... )

The one thing that I didn't expect is the one thing that pulls at the heart my most... its hard to let go even when you know its time but I know you'll always be a part of me no matter who I become or where my life leads me

I'm suddenly relieved and excited all at once!

I feel like a fucking idiot. I tried so hard even when I suspected it would turn out this way. Men are nothing but tools and they all suck. So concha tu madre huevon