Comments | child_proteus: :: post nine

child_proteus

:: post nine :: give and take ::

Aug 27, 2008 10:20

So it seems like the tree is at it again. Borrowing people, making time strange, before thrusting them into some random memory -- whether they want to or not. It seems like this one was kind of a doozy, so maybe I'm glad it wasn't me this time around? But at the same time, I kind of wish it wasn't who it ended up being anyway. Like, why couldn' ( Read more... )

!mcqueen, lacking british, they give and they take, the past is not a place you can visit, nothing to see here folks, elelator goes down the hole, !bastet, !nova, please not again, some things should stay forgotten, !p/raise, !want

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unlostsoul August 27 2008, 15:13:51 UTC

You can put me down for wanting my name back, and not only 'cause my current name is, um, sketchy. I figure, even if you don't think of it as anything more than a label, it's still part of who you are, so why wouldn't you want it back. Um, obvious exception excepted.

Ouch. Someone's wandered off again?

child_proteus August 27 2008, 15:30:03 UTC

Hey. I kind of like your name. The sketchiness is part of its charm.

I mean, okay, what does it tell you really? Other than maybe your parents had no imagination or that you're possibly French or something. Don't you think -- and I'm not sure I actually believe this, but I'm just putting it out there -- that our names now have more meaning? Given the fact that they're part of our dreams?

Never came home. and I'm worried.

unlostsoul August 27 2008, 15:51:04 UTC

Ok, but, as has been established, I think, you're weird about this kind of stuff.

Putting aside the bit where I'm not sure how much a word that we randomly blurt out after being barfed up by a cocoon could have that much meaning, so what if our names don't tell us more than that our parents really wanted us to suffer or we were named after somebody famous. They don't need to be the answer or even a really good clue to who we are in total to be important. Meaning or no meaning, they just are part of who we are.

Ugh. Yuck. I'll keep an eye out for him, okay? And let you know if I see or hear anything. You going to be okay?

child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:00:49 UTC

Yeah, but you like my weirdness. So...

Dude, alright -- so you have a point, but you've got to admit. The fact that you're named Want and I'm named Throne means something. Maybe we just don't get it yet, but it's a piece to the puzzle, yeah? Much more, I think than Bob or Dan or Jim could ever be. At least...I think so.

Thanks. I don't want to raise the alarm because last time I know he just wandered off being pathologically, but I guess I'll be okay?

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subject_e0057 August 27 2008, 15:54:21 UTC

I'd like to recover my original name. As attached to Raise as I am, I would still like to know where I come from. No matter what happened in the past, it would be silly to abandon that. No matter what it is, running won't change anything.

And... Besides a name, I'd like to know more about myself. Friends, family, profession, the world, how I was raised, and finally how I came to be here.

Even if I recover who I was, nothing will change who I am.

child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:08:43 UTC

You really think that uncovering the past will not change who you are here? What if there are things you've forgotten? Life-altering events that no longer touch you here? What if you're better off? You'd still rather know?

I mean, honestly -- I don't know how I feel about all this at the end of the day. But I can't help but wonder us then versus us now.

subject_e0057 August 27 2008, 16:16:26 UTC

No matter what's happened to me before here, I managed to cope with it for this long. The memory I obtained a while ago was... light hearted. It proves that not everything is misery and woe, no matter what had happened previous.

...And any major life-altering events clearly do touch me here. Unless a splitting of the mind is common in my world- and based on the reactions of those closest to mine, it is not- then Praise is, likely, merely the byproduct of a life-altering series of events. That's what all of my research has led me to believe, at least.

Everyone's life has pain. That's part of what sculpts them. Having the emotional response to being reminded of pain, while being completely unaware as to why you're sensitive about a certain subject is unappealing.

If I know, I can work with it. If I do not, I can only go along with fate and circumstance.

What about yourself? Would you favor forever unknowing why things affect you the way they do? Or would you like a semblance of context?

child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:44:45 UTC

Yeah, but even when you do remember pain, you don't get nearly as much context as you'd like. Because, even when you do remember those things, they still exist in a bubble. You don't know how you dealt with it, and are still -- in the end -- unequipped for trying to sort those things out. So, what do you get? Just pain. Period. End of sentence.

Remembering things doesn't automatically enlighten you as to why things affect you the way they do. Things don't work as simply as that. Sometimes, remembering things just makes things all the less clear.

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felinemystique August 27 2008, 15:58:23 UTC

I do want to know what my name is. But I'm not in any hurry--finding out other things is more of a priority.

How long has it been?

child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:04:12 UTC

So, you think it's not essential to figuring out who you are? Or is it the crowning achievement in the puzzle-solving of ourselves?

since yesterday afternoon. he wasn't hear when i came home and his journal is still here. but that's what happened last time.

felinemystique August 27 2008, 16:18:00 UTC

I think it's important--because it's mine, and I won't have it held back from me forever--but I've got no immediate need for it. I'm the same person, no matter what you call me. Besides, there are other things I need to know. I can put finding out my name on hold.

I'll look for him, then.

child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:46:37 UTC

How did I know you'd say something like that, B. And I mean that not in a bad way.

last time it was the scavenger's yard, but i can't imagine what else would distract him so badly

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crossroaddeal August 27 2008, 16:01:28 UTC

Yeah what is up with this whole sticking people in places and them coming out completely fucked mentally.

Like I said to someone before; a name is a name, not who you are.

child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:12:46 UTC

Dude, somebody clearly needs a new hobby. And when I say somebody I mean the man behind the curtain or whatever yahoo is at the control panel. Trust me, losing a week of your life being stuck in an elevator and then having to watch somebody else's memory is kind of like being stuck at the double-feature from Hell. No joke.

yes, okay, clearly i still have unresolved issues from the last time

You think your name now has any meaning? Like, the one you gave yourself? Or no?

crossroaddeal August 27 2008, 18:58:51 UTC

You got stuck in there I guess? This is the first time I've ever heard about it. I mean I was curious about the fact that the 4th floor button never seemed to work...but then I forgot about it.
Wait...YOU GET YOUR MEMORY BACK IN THERE?!

I chose it, I chose it for a reason. It was of the things I remembered from my dream. Don't know if it's important or not, but it's something that I somehow associated with myself.

child_proteus August 27 2008, 19:05:48 UTC

Yeah, the last time this happened, it was me and like five other people stuck in an elevator for like, oh, let's say an hour? And then we end up on the fourth floor and I end up seeing one of the guy's memories. Like I'm watching a small ten minute movie or something. Then we all sort of blearily stumbled back only to realize WE'D BEEN MISSING FOR A WEEK AND I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT EVERYTHING I'D WRITTEN ABOUT IN THE JOURNALS SINCE GETTING STUCK IN THE ELEVATOR.

the getting stolen part was fine with me. it was getting my mind wiped again that pissed me off, hardcore, dude.

You mind me asking about your dream?

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novagravitation August 27 2008, 16:16:55 UTC

Oh Throne. I'm sure I love you--

Maybe it's the tree's way of initiation? Although...what a terrible way to do it...

Hmm...

And I'd like to know my real name, I think! Wouldn't you?

GRATUITOUS USE OF THE L-WORD IS NECESSARY. child_proteus August 27 2008, 16:41:16 UTC

Well then, it's settled, yeah? You love and I love you back, Nova. Sound like a plan? Otherwise, I figure it'd be awfully unfair, what with the love on one end of the equation and not the other?

Either way, it was bad enough when it happened to me -- I just wish it didn't have to have had happened to you, Novs. It's kind of...unsettling and weird. And I don't want you to feel that way. So. If there's anything I can do, you'll tell me, right?

As for my name. Yeah, I think I would too. I mean, in the end, I don't think it would really accomplish anything, but it'd be nice to know and maybe to hear every once and while. Maybe it'd remind me of something. I don't know.