:: post four :: you cannot go back ::

[child_proteus]

Sometimes, meaning only the best, we take upon ourselves burdens the size of the moon, without realizing the moon is nothing more than a reflection of the sun. And so, in our ignorance, we march forward to our deaths, looking neither left nor right, for we are blinded by what is behind.

Okay, so I have no idea who wrote this.  It only just appeared

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[crossroaddeal]

So you think someone is distracting us.

As in distracting us from what's put us here, or why we've all been collected and stuck in Edensballs. We are collection of oddballs, doubt we all came from the same place originally.

It's fucking creepy when you think about, if you ask me. Especially thinking about how they got us stuck here, what kind of a thing can do that.

But you do have a point. All this floating does get ya thinking.

[ooc: crossed out stuff can still be read, he just crossed it out because he thought what he wrote would blow his cover of being just a pretty face...a very pretty face.]

[child_proteus]

Part of me thinks I sound like an absolutely insane conspiracy theorist, but what can I say, life in the 'Bowl can get make a guy paranoid. Besides, I figure, you can only get your mind wiped so many times live here for so long before you start to think: alright, what's the big deal?

I mean, you've got memory crystals around every corner, right? Promising to give us some glimpse of the past. But once anybody ever gets one, all they can think about is the memory it contains, not where the actual crystal is from, its whys and even more important its hows. I mean, dude, what do you think? Have I been bitten by a rabid crazy?

[ ooc :: oh ho ho. now we wouldn't want that now would we? throne's strikes are pretty half-hearted. he may go back and strike them out later, but not as of yet. ]

[crossroaddeal]

What kind of thing takes people's memories and then sticks them in a cocoon.

EXACTLY!

Yeah, who the fuck is handing out the memory crystals.

[ooc: also crossed out half-heartedly. Only a little paranoid about what he's writing because he remembered that everyone can read it, but at the same time he doesn't care all that much. It's mostly just precaution]

[child_proteus]

Dude, I totally don't know, but it's nice to know that I'm not the only person actually thinking about these things. And, get this, recently these empty suit guys have been wandering around practically handing them out, but when they do? Wham, half you money is gone. I mean, seriously...what the hell?

You the adventuring type?

[ ooc :: throne's strikeouts are still pretty legible and he doesn't think he's wandered into dangerous territory, so he doesn't black them out entirely. ]

[distant_dragon]

Sometimes...you have the best possible way of wording things.

And no, you are not the only one.

[child_proteus]

Sometimes, D, I can't tell if you're being genuine or if that's sarcasm in your penmanship.

Am I going to get in trouble for this?

[distant_dragon]

There's a fine art in walking the line sometimes. Option A.

I don't know but you definitely rang a bell with me. Come talk to me soon, there's some things we need to go over.

((ooc: strikes = five minutes, then scratched out entirely.))

[child_proteus]

Walking the line is overrated. Sometimes you've just gotta take the plunge and commit. Well then, lucky me.

Um, sure, okay I can do that. What's going on?

[ ooc :: the last strike lasts for a couple of minutes before being blacked out. ]

[elegantromantic]

I'm not really sure what you are referencing entirely, Prince, but I will have you know that you have all my heartfelt support! Seeking the future is indeed a noble cause! I too, shall seek the future full heartedly!

&hearts

[child_proteus]

Oh Iris dear, that's very sweet. I appreciate it; it's very welcome. Much more welcome than the possible jeers and sneers that this kind of quasi-loony bin talk can get a guy.

[elegantromantic]

Jeers? Sneers? At you dear Prince? I cannot even imagine it!

I think it's all very philosophical, not lunatic at all. Really dear, you shouldn't be so bashful about having such deep thoughts. Though the modesty is entirely becoming on you.

Nearly as fetching as when you are being wicked.

[child_proteus]

Oh yes, there are plenty of jeers and sneers to be had at my expense, my gilded flower, and not just about this. Come to think of it, mostly from Drake and Want, but I think they do it out of some misplaced and deformed affection, I just can't tell.

Sometimes, Iris, I wonder what I could have possibly done to get you so fooled about me. Give it time and you'll realize I'm just a guy without his head screwed on straight. No cleverness, no wickedness. Just a guy.

[moonlit_mirage]

An interesting perspective, Throne-san.

I think you undersell your abilities in the area of introspection, these are good thoughts to consider.

There is a certain amount of fear in not knowing, it is perhaps what drives the obsession--a wish to learn and dispel that uncertainty. It is hard to exist without memories, without things to reference, but with knowledge--and no idea where it comes from. If they are a distraction, they are the most cleverly designed on.

[child_proteus]

Yes, it's hard to function sometimes without the context of our own memories. But that shouldn't be the end all, be all of everything. The fact remains that, even without memories, we continue to exist. I just get this overall feeling like...

Yes, we all once were. But now we are, and people just don't want to deal with that. Or ignore it.

It's frustrating.

[moonlit_mirage]

Ah. Yes.

But it's hard not to fall into that trap, isn't it? Obsessing over what was to the detriment of what is.

It sounds familiar enough to me, to give me pause.

And yet as you mentioned if we do not discover what we were, there is no telling when what we have not remembered will remember us, if that makes sense.

Frustrating is an understatement.

[child_proteus]

...No, clarify. What do you mean, Crow?

[unlostsoul]

I get the bread and circus argument. Like, is this whole memory crystal thing just a set-up to keep us plebs occupied, so we don't revolt? We're on the same page there.

But I think you know that I don't agree with the rest. I mean, what's real, our history, who we are, that has to matter. At the very least 'cause if what we did back then doesn't matter, how can anything we do now matter either?

I can't That doesn't make sense to me.

[ooc: first set of strike-outs left for a few minutes and then are completely blacked out]

[child_proteus]

Dude, I'm not saying that that stuff doesn't matter. I'm just saying that it's not necessarily the end-all, be-all of everything, which is what some people are making it out to be. It's like they can't move forward here, because they're too busy wondering if whatever they do won't ring true with what happened there -- wherever there is.

I'm saying that, right now, as I live and breathe, even if I don't know where I've come from, that doesn't stop me from knowing who I am. At least to an extent.

Want, you know as well as I do, that there are things we don't remember, but that -- deep down, somehow -- we still know.

[unlostsoul]

I guess. I just... For some reason, I really miss the certainty. Although, I gotta wonder now if I ever had that or if I'm just chasing after it twice as hard now because I've lost what little I did have.

Or think we know? Therein lies the problem.

[child_proteus]

Something tells me that you asking questions isn't something that's a recent development, Dub, and that, even when things are at their most certain, you're still going to wonder and keep asking.

We know. Or at least I know. You It's like the one thing that I have for certain and always have had since the very start. That has to count for something, Dub. ...right?