And so the story begins...

[cheers_loser]

I find myself going back on old post and re-reading who I was. And I find myself hating myself. What a sore character, stupid and adolescent. But I’m not quite sure I’ve changed. I still find myself drawn to the eeriness that is presented within my old poetry. The way I saw life… Its fascinating. Like reading others mind

Comments

[bananaa_boat]

i'm really glad that things are getting better for you. i had a friend who tried to end her life, luckily, it didn't work, and she's doing much better now, 3 years later :)
whoever called 911 must care about you, so remember that-- there's always someone there for you :)

[cheers_loser]

=]

[chris21718]

We all change as time goes on. I feel like I've been through many "phases" and back in March 2002 when I deleted all my old email, I looked through it briefly before I did, and was surprised at the way so many of them were written. Some previous phases of my life are better left deleted, and only thought of as learning experiences.

About MySpace and LJ: I've always liked LJ much better, and feel it's a more stable social system and the amount of drama has been far less for me on LJ. Back in October, I deleted my MySpace and haven't missed it.

I've gotten so depressed at certain times in the past that the thought of suicide has entered my mind, but I'm the type who would not be able to go through with it. If I'm ever doing anything to hurt myself physically, something kicks in and won't let me do it. For example, in high school when testing our blood types, I was one of 3 or 4 students out of 30 who couldn't even cut my finger with the little stabber that was provided.

[cheers_loser]

oh I love myspace, its so much easier to talk to people.

and I avoid drama by simply not responding to morons who want to start it hehe

but I still love lj and would never leave it

=]

[got_stalker]

Wow, that's quite an adventure. Glad to have you here. :)

[cheers_loser]

heheh glad to be here =]