Water Balloons

[chaoticidealism]

My mom wants me to be a skinny writer with a husband and three kids. I'm a single asexual fat girl who's gonna be an engineer if I can just convince people that my three-year string of F's does not, in fact, outweigh the straight A's before and after it... (Depression's a bitch. Especially when you're in denial

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[old_cutter_john]

Right on!

[anonymous]

My husband and I always joke that we want to be different...like all the other different people.;)
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Depression

[anonymous]

Your mom wants you to be a thin possibly starving writer? Stick with the engineering kid. Don't worry about the husband and kids, your mom needs a tranquilizer. "She goes running for the shelter of her Mother's Little Helper

Re: Depression

[chaoticidealism]

I did get on an antidepressant. Zoloft didn't help; Lexapro helped a little. Finding out I was autistic, and solving the stress problems involved with overload of various sorts, helped most of all. The depression has been in remission for about six months now, though I still have scattered, probably habitual, suicidal ideation. (Because I don't have the mood to match, it's not a problem; if you have a habit of thinking about suicide when things get annoying, you'll still think that way even after you're quite sure you don't want to do yourself in

[anonymous]

damn. That balloon metaphor is superb.

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Water Balloons

[anonymous]

Hi again,
I love your analogy with water balloons, as I read it I felt like suddenly you were talking about my life. Square peg in round hole syndrome for me. At 53 I'm about to meet someone who might tell me I am on the autistic spectrum. I can't think of any other reason why I am and feel the way I do and why my children all have problems of one sort or another. For my children's sake I want to know. It is awful living your life, not really knowing who you are! Thanks for sharing your experiences, it is helping me a lot. Cheers Tricia