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An Anxious Beginning
As the old year passes and the new year begins, I take a deep breath.
2023 was like that. Anxiety after anxiety gripped and shook me. I ate my way through every one, trying to make myself small, trying to hide.
I’m now paying for it. I’m wearing several pounds of anxiety. It’s heavy, hot, tiring, and at times painful.
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December: Beginning of the Finish
I’m beginning this month with a throat full of phlegm. Believe me, it’s an improvement to how I felt. No, it wasn’t Covid, but I can’t call it just a cold. It was far too nasty for that. This time, I had a headache along with the congestion, runny nose, raspy throat, coughing, and wheezing. Tiny shards of pain felt like they were pushing against my ( Read more... ) -
Happy November
I always feel a time of change right after Halloween when November begins. I’m already shivering and shuddering with mingled joy and fear at how many changes have happened in my life.
I remember as a child being so excited at the change presented by video tapes; being able to bring home movies I’d had to watch in theaters, to see so many things I ( Read more... ) -
COVID Creeps In
Just when I was daring to feel a little more optimistic about my health and the future, COVID creeps in, invading the walls of our home we hid behind for so long. It has my husband in its grip. By the time I post this, it may have me as well.
In spite of being sick, my husband is going all out to protect me. He’s barricaded himself in the bedroom, ( Read more... ) -
Overheated
Sometimes I feel like I could burn the world with the heat inside me. I certainly feel like I’m boiling inside my own skin.
Welcome to menopause and hot flashes. All I want to do is sit down and drink something cold, cool myself down.
This isn’t practical. I have to push through the heat, get up and move. Get up and do things. This is necessary, ( Read more... ) -
Returning to Fairest
Nothing like a round of professional edits to make me dive back into a story, delving into its depths.
I’m reminded again and again of how much I’ve changed since I poured out my heart into this ff fairytale novella in 2014, only to receive that heart-stopping letter of acceptance in 2015 which made me giddy.
I’ve had several publications since; A ( Read more... ) -
Distracted
I’ve been really distracted lately.
Distracted by my diet, the war between my fat cells and my stomach, a war the rest of me is caught between. When my fat cells don’t get their way, they whine like a pair of kitty cats, demanding cheese, ice cream, more, more. When my stomach doesn’t like what I put it in it, it snarls like an angry demon, ( Read more... ) -
Clutter and Change
I’ve got a mind full of clutter. Old ideas I’ve forgotten for too long. Old stories that I’ve neglected that I want and need to finish. Old memories crammed away in the back of my mind, which pop out, spilling images and sensations rising to the surface of my thoughts.
Is it any wonder I’m feeling nostalgic? Especially since I’m trying to stay true ( Read more... ) -
A Change in Seasons
It’s warming up. It cools down. I’m not sure what to expect from the weather.
Blogging From AZ ends. I return to my regular blogging, almost forgetting this one.
I didn’t work on The Hand and the Eye of the Tower nearly as much as I intended, but I almost never stopped working. I pushed forward on a lot of fanfiction, writing like a woman possessed ( Read more... )
