Comments | cattiva7784: I tried to write this earlier...

cattiva7784

I tried to write this earlier...

Jul 17, 2005 20:34

but my electric went out. I haven't written much lately, mostly because I live an extremely boring life. I am beginning to get a bit depressed. Between the job situation and the lonliness, I have nothing ( Read more... )

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leila82 July 18 2005, 01:03:05 UTC

If it makes you feel any better, I haven't ever dated anyone (ever)- and I'm almost 23. Part of it is my fault (I'm incapable of talking to guys once I like them), but part of it is that the guys I like and can talk to are never interested in any relationship, for one reason or another.

amani87 July 18 2005, 01:56:49 UTC

I'm sorry you're going through a dry spell. Maybe your coolness is entirely too intimidating, and crazies seem to be more courageous than sane people.

cattiva7784 July 18 2005, 02:23:31 UTC

I don't think I'm cool at all. I am kind of a nerd. It's not that I need anyone, it's is just what the rejection does for my self-esteem. But I am pretty independent. I can see how that can be intimidating.

leila82, I wish I had never dated anyone. Life would be much simpler. Thanks for sharing that with me.

leila82 July 18 2005, 03:05:06 UTC

Hee no problem - I've resigned myself to a lifetime of celibacy. I should be a nun. Except for that whole religious part.

Independence is a good thing; you shouldn't have to rely on anyone because you never know when they might not be there for you. That's super cynical, but at the same time I think it's kind of a reality. They might want to be there but they can't, or they might not want to be around. So in that sense, it's best to be self-sufficient.

cattiva7784 July 18 2005, 12:17:37 UTC

I don't know how I will ever be able to share my space with someone, unless we have a really big house. I am just not into sharing, except with Jade. I like to be by myself. I really do. But all those nights tend to add up.

leila82 July 18 2005, 16:06:10 UTC

No kidding. And when you see your friends pairing off, one by one. And getting married.

shellabelle81 July 18 2005, 04:02:19 UTC

I understand. I didn't have a boyfriend until I was 19, which I hated since it seemed like every girl in high school had a boyfriend except me. The guys I liked never liked me like that, and the only ones who did were strange. It's cool to be independent and all, but sometimes you really just want to be with someone. I know you don't want to hear "just be patient, you'll find someone" because I'm sure you've heard it a billion times, but seriously, you will.
Also, thanks for teaching me a new word (milquetoast)! I even went to Yahoo to look it up! :-)

unwindingdreams July 18 2005, 04:11:31 UTC

Did lilcattiva like the zoo? Taking kids places like that is so fun - I love it when their faces just light up ( ... )

cattiva7784 July 18 2005, 12:20:27 UTC

Yeah, she really liked it. It was very hot, though.

I know. I am just not up for all the work it takes to get into a relationship. And the work once I'm in one? Forget about it. I just don't care that much. What I do care about is that is seems like it is so easy for some people to just fall into relationships and I can't. I can never be comfortable. And I wanna be comfortable, dammit!