Filtered to Ry, Jocelin, Renee

[carmaline]

Hey you guys, what's going on? I figure, just because one of our number has decided to up and go it to Wales, doesn't mean we can't all talk here. I mean, Ry's already proven they are advanced enough to have internets where he is.

So, what's everyone up to?

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[seminalsemiotic]

I'm... I don't even know. Not good. I couldn't even stay at home last night. I can't face them. I feel so useless.

I'm sorry. I don't mean to turn this into a whole... blaaaaaaaarg.

[seminalsemiotic]

I know he is. I just... I felt so helpless while it was happening. But I always thought, when she got back, then I could help. But now... I can't even seem to say the right thing at all, let alone do anything to help. I don't know what to do. I've never felt like this before. Least of all with Deirdre.

You did ask, and thank you. I guess... I'll see how things are. I mean, I don't want to leave, if Deirdre's going to be here. She didn't stay here last night. But I couldn't even face Kait. Not when... Goddess, I felt personally responsible. And I still feel like absolute rubbish for not being able to do anything. But I'm probably a tool for leaving Kait alone, too. I just... don't know how things are going to be.

[carmaline]

What she's been through... and I assume it's been horrible, it makes sense that there would be an adjustment period, doesn't it?

I think the only way to know how things are going to be is to stay around to find out? I don't know, do I sound too preachy saying that?

[seminalsemiotic]

You don't sound preachy, and you do make sense. You're right. I'll stick around. I ran away for one night. I don't need to do it again. I'm not sure whether it was foolish of me to do so or not. But I really don't think I would have done Kait any good. I hope I'm right in thinking it was better to be somewhere I could just be... as utterly weak as I felt.

[carmaline]

I hope you are too. *hugs you* I'm glad I make sense.

[seminalsemiotic]

You've been in dark places, Justine. When I feel shadowed by darkness myself, I know you're someone who will understand.

[carmaline]

I think it would be better all around if neither one of us understood those dark places.

[seminalsemiotic]

True. And yet, someone else who has been there is always something to be grateful for in our lives. Even if the experience isn't.

[carmaline]

Mm.

[shadows_sun]

Deirdre is back. The only thing that can happen now is that things are going to be better. No matter what it is that comes next. Even if you don't end up figuring the right thing to say to Deirdre again. Whatever comes to pass, the people who took her aren't going to be able to continue doing what they did while she was in their possession. And that's worth everything.

Don't neglect one girlfriend because of your confusion with the other. I know that's not what you meant to do. You're smart, Renee. You're going to figure this out.

[seminalsemiotic]

You're right. Deirdre is back, and the evil that was being done is at an end. A difference has been made. More difference still needs to be made. But it can be done. It must be done. We've come through so much. How can we fall now?

No, it's not what I meant to do at all. And I won't. Whatever happens, I'll be with Kait tonight. She shouldn't be alone.

[shadows_sun]

No she shouldn't, she's a sweetie.

How indeed? Renee? Do you think me weak for moving to Wales? I'm not sure I want to know the answer, but damn myself, I can't help but ask. And in a fashion where yours is not the only inbox it's going to, no less.

[carmaline]

Oh Ry, I don't judge you, and I don't think you're weak. (I know you didn't say this to me, but like you said, it came to my inbox) You did what you had to do, what you thought was best for you. And honestly, do you think you would have been any happier here with Steph all around and stuff? Have your reasons for moving really changed that much?

[shadows_sun]

No... I don't suppose it has changed. I spoke with her today. I suppose that should have showed me that nothing had changed, rather than making me question. She informed me of how many people she still had by her. Obviously.

[carmaline]

You have people by you too. More than just the three of us! As if the three of us weren't enough on its own. ;)

[shadows_sun]

It is enough. And I thank everything for the three of you every day. I truly do.