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sundae

Jun 22, 2010 18:07

WHO: Sally Blevins and Danielle Moonstar
WHERE: an ice cream shop
WHEN: Tuesday
WARNINGS: HIVE PTSD
SUMMARY: Ice cream can't make everything better. But you can let it try.
FORMAT: Quick

( 32 Flavors or something like that. )

† sally blevins | skids, † danielle moonstar | mirage

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prettymorlock June 22 2010, 22:32:44 UTC

[Sally was already standing in line, trying to figure out what flavor she was in the mood for. She turned when she heard her name and reciprocated Dani's wave. Sally found it funny how people could live in the same place and not see one another all that often. But their lives were busy and after the last few weeks it was easy to see how lost in their own work and lives people could get.

It also made it easier to stay in her room uninterrupted if she was in the mood for it.]

How excited are you that it's summer vacation finally?

prettymorlock June 26 2010, 04:36:35 UTC

Oh really? That's a pretty big responsibility, but I know you'll do fine with it. If you need any help I'm kind of available.

iownkickassguns June 26 2010, 04:52:14 UTC

[shrug] There's a lot of faculty at the school. Maybe even some of them would do a better job. But thanks, I'll keep that in mind.

prettymorlock June 26 2010, 04:57:35 UTC

You don't give yourself enough credit.

[Sally pointed her spoon at Dani.]

You're seriously the right person for the job.

iownkickassguns June 26 2010, 05:06:46 UTC

[Dani thought for a moment.]

Maybe back home I would have been. But I'm still getting a feel for the different imPorts around here.

[smile]

Thanks for the vote of confidence though.

prettymorlock June 26 2010, 05:10:38 UTC

You're welcome.

[She almost smiles, but it doesn't quite work.]

So what are you going to do with all the extra time that you'll have?

iownkickassguns June 29 2010, 02:07:29 UTC

[Dani catches Sally's hesitation.]

I haven't decided yet. I'd like to get to Colorado soon. And I'm curious about the police network around here. But what about you? You seem like you've got something on your mind.

prettymorlock June 29 2010, 02:17:12 UTC

That's where Warren and Ali are going. Colorado. I always liked it out there when I was going to college.

[Sally looks down at her ice cream, still swirling it. It takes her a few moments to muster the strength to tell the truth.]

I'm wondering if I'm a liability to the team. When we were all in LA I came upon Amara making lava pits and letting the HIVE soldiers fall into them and Sam flying people into the ground. I don't think I can do that, Dani.

iownkickassguns June 29 2010, 04:02:49 UTC

Really? I had no idea.

It's a great place. I want to see if it's different from my Colorado, maybe see if any of the tribe's there.

[Dani looked at Dally when she paused, ready to listen. She took a moment to think about what Sally said.]

What is it that you can't do exactly?

prettymorlock June 29 2010, 04:12:38 UTC

Kill people. Again.

[Sally didn't look up, and dropped her spoon into the bowl. She really wasn't in the mood for ice cream.]

I know it was a war, and they were just defending...I mean I did it too, when Warren and I were surrounded by HIVE soldiers and there wasn't a way out...but I don't.

[She ran a hand through her hair, trying to steady herself. She did not want to have a panic attack in front of Dani.]

I don't think I could do it again.

iownkickassguns June 29 2010, 04:28:18 UTC

[Dani gives Sally a moment to let that sit in the air. She sets down her own spoon.]

[sincere and sad] I'm sorry Sally.

[Dani takes a breath before giving Sally a direct look.]

Sally, when you fight in a war like that you go in knowing that you're going to have to carry that weight with you no matter what happens. Killing isn't supposed to be easy. And I understand if you think you've gotten to a place where you can't do it.

prettymorlock June 29 2010, 04:38:41 UTC

I'd never done it before. I've never really been in a war.

[Sally tucks her hands into her lap, trying to stop them from shaking.]

I don't remember my time with the MLF. I remember getting Rusty out of the prison hospital and the first few weeks but then it's all a blur before seeing Sam and Tabitha again on Magneto's space station. I thought I was prepared for LA; I thought I could handle it. But then...

[She still can't look at Dani, and stares at the table, remembering the HIVE soldiers dying in front of her.]

The thought of going anywhere near LA again makes me want to hide. Warren has me on paid leave because I had panic attacks in the bathroom. I did it when Sam took me to Kentucky. And when I went shopping with Ali. But I don't want any of you to get hurt.

iownkickassguns June 29 2010, 05:02:53 UTC

Sally, first of all, getting hurt is a risk everyone takes and isn't something that just one person shoulders.

[Dani sighed.]

You're an important part of the team and we trust you, but I feel safe in saying that none of us wants you to suffering this way either. Have you talked to anyone else about this?

prettymorlock June 29 2010, 05:13:48 UTC

Sam sure thinks he shoulders it all if any of us get hurt.

[She muttered, and then looked up at Dani. Maybe she shouldn't have said that.]

I mean. Sam knows. And Ali and Warren. And now you.

iownkickassguns June 29 2010, 05:25:38 UTC

[Roll of her eyes.]

Yeah, I know. We haven't really talked about it but I think we both know that we have literally fought about it.

[Back to serious face.]

There won't be anything that can make you forget killing someone. And it's hard taking that and holding it up against the reason we're fighting in the first place. It's what you balance Sally, the scars you have against what you protect. But old wounds never really leave. The scars will hurt. You learn to live with it somehow.

prettymorlock June 29 2010, 05:36:36 UTC

I know.

[She shrugs.]

I'm just trying to figure out how right now. Got any tips?

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