A little bit of wallowing...

[candy__chan]

I feel like I've been doing a lot of whining lately, but jeva_chan insists that I'm not whining, and...I just need to get this out. Hopefully, I won't start crying again, because I already did that. Twice.

Comments

[ran_mouri82]

The problem here is really simple: you've got a whole mess of crap on your plate. Don't worry about how your problems compare with others'. Everyone has suffering to endure, but that doesn't make yours any less unique or painful. You're not God, nor should anyone expect you to be. It's much easier said than done, but just do your best. That's all anyone CAN ask of you, and you're obviously working your butt off to do it. I'm praying for you, dear. ^^

Btw, thanks for trying to soothe my writer's anxiety. You're a better friend than you realize.

[candy__chan]

I always worry about everything. I'm a mother hen--I worry too much about my own stuff, and too much about everyone else's stuff. It's just the person I am. And...I don't know, compared to what's going on with Jeva, it just doesn't seem right that I should be freaking out so much over a dumb recital >.>

But...

*hugs* You're an amazing friend, you know that? I really do appreciate your kind words, and I'm glad I could help you out. Thank you so much =) And hey, tomorrow's another day, right? ♥

[jeva_chan]

And...I don't know, compared to what's going on with Jeva, it just doesn't seem right that I should be freaking out so much over a dumb recital >.>

...*calmly takes the mallet from you and--BONK*

Sweetie...I've said this several times. My problems are mine and yours and yours. Even if I'm having a little trouble myself, it'll all get worked out eventually--and the same for you! You really, really shouldn't compare these sort of issues you're going through with the issues I'm having.

1) They're in a completely different category of problem--yours is school and almost work-related; mine is financial matters that are completely out of my hands. Completely different matters there but one is not worse than the other. They're different kinds of stress...it'd be like comparing apples to oranges

[candy__chan]

*BONK'd* Waaaaaaaaah... *hides* NO BONKY!! JEVA NO BONKY!!

I can't help it--I have this horrible habit of trying to make everything my problem, and I feel bad when I can't do anything, and dammit, it just seems like what you might have to deal with is a lot worse than me having to stand on a stage and hope to God that I don't forget my Italian words. You're my friend--I worry about you.

I know this recital is a big deal...but comparatived to what's going on with other people...geez, anything I say right now, you're going to bonk me >.>

There's a reason why I'm so hesitant to share my problems with my friends. If you really want to know...I'll tell you. But it's why I internalize everything. I know that one of these days, I'm going to explode and it won't be pretty.

But I'm trying. I promise...I'm really trying.

[jeva_chan]

Dude, like I said. Your worries and your problems have no comparison to anothers. Your problems and your worries are yours and if you need to get them out, then just do it. Don't care what other people thing, don't care if you think that other's problems are bigger--your problems are yours. LJ is for helping you get out those kinds of things, ne? Don't be so timid to use it for that reason *hugs

[candy__chan]

But...but... *hugs back*

I'm done with classes this semester. I student teach next semester and graduate in May...which will open up a whole new can of "OHMIGOD I'M GOING TO DIE!!" But we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

*hugs back more* Going to reply to your other comment now. Will have more to say there >.>

[candy__chan]

I have a bad habit of locking stuff up, and I have a reason for being like that. I know it's horrible and I'm setting myself up for disaster >.> Just...can't help it.

We did a run-through of most of the program today. With the exception of the Italian, it's pretty solid. I know I'll be okay...just not gonna be calm about it 'till it's over! You guys will all know the minute it's over, too ^^;;

That's actually how I've been testing myself on my memorization--by singing my recital pieces in the shower. Probably scared a couple of people who've walked in to brush their teeth and hear this voice singing "Che fiero costume da liegero nume..." Hee~

...you guys are way too nice to me, you know that? *hugs* Thank you--I promise I will cheer up and be happy for my friend's sake! As for NaNo...pretty sure Thanksgiving break is going to be devoted almost exclusively to writing my next great American novel ^.^

[ulfstormbringer]

*huggles* I just have to say this. I believe in you. You will do great.

[candy__chan]

Thank you! *hugstight*

[spirit_sage_333]

Sighs, my Candy never brings these problems to me :( This makes the Ryann Sad. Remember how bad i sang at my recital? I got an A, you will be FINE. Everything is crammed right now, your stressed, everyone gets this way this close to the end! It will be alright, you will stress, you will cry,, and you will survive and think "god i worried over THAT?". if you wanted to get away you dont need to crawl in a hole, you need to come here :) *pets your pretty little head*

[candy__chan]

*sheepish* Figured you had plenty on your mind last night. NUUUU!! I do not want the Ryann to be sad!!

Dude...you sounded AWESOME at your recital. Freakin' awesome. Of course you got an A! But I did a run-through of all the pieces today, and I was more or less solid on everything...except the Italian ^^;; Ashley said she'd help me with that, though. It'll be okay, but I probably won't relax until this thing's over and done. I felt a lot better after I got a full night's sleep

Mreeeeew... *ish petted* ♥