where is your boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman

[canadianchia]

maybe he won't find out but i know you were the last good thing about this part of town.

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[lakilika]

Urgh. I wish I had any sort of advice on this, but since I've spent two years avoiding relationships entirely, I'm probably useless.

So here's my solution: round up some friends, and go drinking! Don't get drunk, because that will just make it worse. Just have one or two drinks and a nice appetizer or something. XD

[canadianchia]

i like that solution. because, really, every time this summer i've drank with friends, i've had a lot of fun. :)

[ex_annemarie10]

I know it must be hard to get over someone you invested so much into. I lost a boyfriend right after high school, and while I didn't have as much involved as you do, it was still a long time to get over it.

I agree that masturbation sometimes just makes me hornier and wanting my fiance that much more. LOL It's funny how once you've had sex, nothing is quite the same.

By random hookup, do you mean you want a one night stand? If that's what you want, you should be able to get that. Just be careful and don't let it get too emotional.

[canadianchia]

yeah, it is kinda hard . . . i wish it were as hard for him as it is for me, because i feel like he's having no trouble at all with this, and that makes it worse. but most of the time it's better, i'm just a little on the emotional edge right now.

It's funny how once you've had sex, nothing is quite the same.
yeaaaaaaah. and also kinda frustrating, because i think the real thing is definitely better.

no, i don't exactly mean one night stand. i don't think i'd be capable of having sex with someone i wasn't emotionally involved with. i just mean someone to make out with, have a little fun without it going too far.

[growlpuppy]

What an awesome entry Alia! I mean, not awesome..it was angsty, but good in that you really got a lot off your chest. Hooray for that

[canadianchia]

1. haha, that's actually the only fall out boy song i know. :p my lodgemate christine introduced me to the song and then it ended up on our mixed cd we made for the summer, and yeah, it's a great song. but i really don't know any other fall out boy songs. :-/
2. thanks, talala. i know it's okay to be angry, and i probably should let myself do so more often, because then i get it all out. i just don't LIKE the whole getting over him process, and i wish it would speed itself up. :p i'm tired of it, really.
3. And coming back single, again I think you're probably thinking about it too much. I feel like when something comes up (flirting, kissing, whatever), you'll know what to do. You DID have a life before Matt came along. Its just hard to remember that sometimes ^_^yeah, you are totally and completely right. and i know i will be fine when something happens, my brain just likes to freak out about non-issues occasionally. :p

[growlpuppy]

I <3 you Alia!!!

:D

[canadianchia]

:D thanks, i ♥ you too, tala!!

[mellery_celery]

*hug!!* All will work out soon enough! Being back at school single won't be so bad, and all your freshmen WILL love you! My friend at URichmond is worried about the same thing. (she's an RA) But both of you are just too lovable, you have nothing to worry about!

Hee hee, I like the idea of your laptop sitting off to the side while you use desktop PC parts. When you think about it, a laptop is really only two things: a monitor and a keyboard. You'll have two of everything, like Noah! :D

[canadianchia]

thanks, i know things will be a lot better than this post made them sound. i think i just needed to vent some feelings that hadn't really come to the surface yet.

haha, yeah, i'm going to have some frankenstein-esque laptop mutant. lol. it'll be great!