Craziness

[calliste_dawn]

JFC, you guys, my family is crazy. My mother's family, specifically. My grandmother, even more specifically.

This requires a little background. It is very long and personal, so if you don't care, just ignore this.

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[arsenicjade]

Hey sweetheart. So, we don't know each other, not really, so take this with a grain of salt, but two things:

1. Do you see a therapist? B/c meds are fantastic, I'm on them, I need them, but they're not as helpful in a vacuum, so that might be part of the problem.

2. Is it possible for you to not take your grandmother's calls? Because, at least for a while, I think it might be the best thing you can do for yourself.

*hugs*

[calliste_dawn]

I've thought pretty strongly about therapy, and I know it would be better if I could do both, but I don't have any health insurance. I'm paying out of pocket already for my psychiatrist and the meds, and I had to go to the doctor recently for an old injury acting up, and basically I'm broke. It'll have to wait. In the meantime, the RN I see at the psychiatrist office is really great. She gets it, and talks with me, so they're not just visits to discuss how I'm doing on my meds.

And with my grandmother, I can ignore her calls. The problem is having the willpower to do so. I'm so caught up in this whole situation, and my relationship with them has never really been this bad, so I'm kinda afraid of how they'll react if I stop speaking to them. I've never had to make that decision before. Like I said, I fall out of touch will people pretty regularly, and before they've usually just let me, so I'm kinda at a loss

[arsenicjade]

I'm glad that your dad is supporting you in a distance course. Sometimes letting go of things is the hardest decision, but also, at times, the best. That said, it's easy for me to say that.

Which is to say, everyone keeps telling me I should stop answering my ex's emotionally abusive emails and I've yet to manage that, so I'm one to talk.

I feel you on insurance. I just managed to get catastrophe insurance, so at least if I get cancer, I'm covered. But I'm now searching for a super cheap therapist because it's hit crisis and I need one, but yeah, money.

So, *hugs* I hope things heal.

[calliste_dawn]

Thank you. *hugs back* Same to you.