If There Was No You (4/?)
Author : pgirl202
Title : If There Was No You (4/?)
Pairing : Callie/Arizona
Rating : R for language (eventually)
Summary : Callie and Arizona spent the past year together, but end their romance due to trust issues from both women. They still love each other and remain friendly. Will they get back together and have their love prove the test of time? Chapters will switch between Arizona and Callie’s POV.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Author : pgirl202
Title : If There Was No You (4/?)
Pairing : Callie/Arizona
Rating : R for language (eventually)
Summary : Callie and Arizona spent the past year together, but end their romance due to trust issues from both women. They still love each other and remain friendly. Will they get back together and have their love prove the test of time? Chapters will switch between Arizona and Callie’s POV.
In the middle of the night
When I’m in this dream
Its like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we’ll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven
Callie
Three Months Earlier
The doubt flooded my mind when I saw her hand pressed against the small of your back, jealously surged through my veins. Why was she touching you in such close proximity? I thought you were going to talk to her about this, about us.
“Melody..” Her name slid through your mouth, and she stopped walking.
“Yes, Dr. Robbins?” Her hand in still on your back, and I am trying to hold everything in me back, mainly because you do not know I am here.
“I have sometime to talk to you about, I’m sorry if I have throwing you signals, I don’t mean to, I am just a genuinely friendly person.. But, my partner is very upset and thinks I am cheating. I am not going to jeopardize my relationship, I am very much in love.” Arizona’s eyes scanned the floor when she was finished speaking.
Melody Harris, stares at the wall, like she can see where I am hiding. I gulp quietly and turn away, in case she has seen me, which isn’t likely. I watch her tilt Arizona’s chin; making her look into her eyes, I can tell Arizona wants to be anywhere else right now. My feet are glued to the floor, I should be fighting for you, but I cannot move. I watch as her lips grace your own and I watch you pull back and move away.
“Um. Did you NOT just hear what I said, nurse Harris? I am Arizona Robbins, I am not a cheater, and I am in a very committed relationship.” Your voice was raised about an octave higher, and I am on my way out the door. Rushing to get back to my floor, because I really might punch a bitch out.
You see me standing by the elevators and call out my name but I am jetting to the nearest stairwell. I know this isn’t your fault, but anger is flooding my every ounce of my body. I need to calm down, soon.
My mind remembers that day like it was a nonstop movie playing before my eyes. I gave up, and I know it. It was my way out instead of fighting. The past few months before this, we fought day and night, over everything and nothing at the same time. It only got worse after the Melody drama. I’m watching you across the hospital room, we are in a consult with a patient, and she is ten years old and fell from a tree. I wish there was someone else who could take over because I cannot look you in the face right now. I watch you study the patients chart and frown. Your eyes find my own and I look down as you call my name, like a child that was scowled for doing something wrong.
“Doctor Torres. Can you please come outside with me?” You are usually sweet and kind when we work together, which lately has been more often than not, but today, something’s not right, and it hurts me to hear the strain in your voice. I follow you out the door and try hard not to stare at you.
“This girl needs her stomach pumped, and child services needs to be called, immediately. She fell from the tree because she went up there and downed a whole bottle of Tylenol; her mother was not watching her at all. I’m going to take her into surgery; I do not want her mother to come near me when I am finished. Understand?” I nod, because I still am unable to form words around you. I slip away, and let the nurses know the situation.
My shift ends about an hour after the surgery, the girl is surviving, barely and her father replaced her mothers’ spot at her bedside. I was called out when I finished repairing the girl’s broken knee and was told that the mother is now talking to police and the girl will be staying with her father from now on. You were pleased, I’m sure, when you checked on our patient later to not see her mother.
I enter my apartment, another empty night since Christina is still at the hospital. I grab a glass of wine and head to my room, stopping at my dresser to pull out some clothes to change into and the box of things that I held onto of yours. There wasn’t much in it, a few notes you wrote me, stickers (Why, I still have no idea), you’re favorite flower that I pressed into a book and it fell out of when I was cleaning, the black box that held your engagement ring, and the letter you wrote me, when we fell downhill.
My Dearest Calliope,
Things between us have not been good for a while, we both know that. My love for you is stronger than you think, or will ever know. I will never stop fighting for your love, for your heart, and my heart will always be yours. I am tired of the constant fighting, as are you, so I think it’s best if we end our engagement right now. It’s not that I don’t love you any less, but we are running ourselves ragged with the way we currently are. I know in my heart that we are meant to be together forever, please believe me. The day that I become your wife will be the happiest day of both of our lives, but it is not happening at this point. There are things I wish I could go back and change, words I’ve said would have never came out of my mouth, thoughts I’ve had would have never been in my mind. But I can’t change anything. I think it would be best if we took a bit of a break, to calm down and find each other again when we are fully ready.
I will never stop loving you, you are where I belong Calliope, remember that.
Arizona
I let the tears fall freely from my eyes, even thought I’ve read this letter a thousand times before, it still breaks my broken heart.
I cry myself to sleep as I think of tomorrow. I am going to win my girl back; nothing is going to get in my way this time.
Song: Better Than Ezra (Also covered by Taylor Swift) - Untouchable
This chapter is an iffy one for me, I am not 100% as happy as I was with the last chapter, but I think it explains a lot, or at least I hope it does :)
Title : If There Was No You (4/?)
Pairing : Callie/Arizona
Rating : R for language (eventually)
Summary : Callie and Arizona spent the past year together, but end their romance due to trust issues from both women. They still love each other and remain friendly. Will they get back together and have their love prove the test of time? Chapters will switch between Arizona and Callie’s POV.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Author : pgirl202
Title : If There Was No You (4/?)
Pairing : Callie/Arizona
Rating : R for language (eventually)
Summary : Callie and Arizona spent the past year together, but end their romance due to trust issues from both women. They still love each other and remain friendly. Will they get back together and have their love prove the test of time? Chapters will switch between Arizona and Callie’s POV.
In the middle of the night
When I’m in this dream
Its like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we’ll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven
Callie
Three Months Earlier
The doubt flooded my mind when I saw her hand pressed against the small of your back, jealously surged through my veins. Why was she touching you in such close proximity? I thought you were going to talk to her about this, about us.
“Melody..” Her name slid through your mouth, and she stopped walking.
“Yes, Dr. Robbins?” Her hand in still on your back, and I am trying to hold everything in me back, mainly because you do not know I am here.
“I have sometime to talk to you about, I’m sorry if I have throwing you signals, I don’t mean to, I am just a genuinely friendly person.. But, my partner is very upset and thinks I am cheating. I am not going to jeopardize my relationship, I am very much in love.” Arizona’s eyes scanned the floor when she was finished speaking.
Melody Harris, stares at the wall, like she can see where I am hiding. I gulp quietly and turn away, in case she has seen me, which isn’t likely. I watch her tilt Arizona’s chin; making her look into her eyes, I can tell Arizona wants to be anywhere else right now. My feet are glued to the floor, I should be fighting for you, but I cannot move. I watch as her lips grace your own and I watch you pull back and move away.
“Um. Did you NOT just hear what I said, nurse Harris? I am Arizona Robbins, I am not a cheater, and I am in a very committed relationship.” Your voice was raised about an octave higher, and I am on my way out the door. Rushing to get back to my floor, because I really might punch a bitch out.
You see me standing by the elevators and call out my name but I am jetting to the nearest stairwell. I know this isn’t your fault, but anger is flooding my every ounce of my body. I need to calm down, soon.
My mind remembers that day like it was a nonstop movie playing before my eyes. I gave up, and I know it. It was my way out instead of fighting. The past few months before this, we fought day and night, over everything and nothing at the same time. It only got worse after the Melody drama. I’m watching you across the hospital room, we are in a consult with a patient, and she is ten years old and fell from a tree. I wish there was someone else who could take over because I cannot look you in the face right now. I watch you study the patients chart and frown. Your eyes find my own and I look down as you call my name, like a child that was scowled for doing something wrong.
“Doctor Torres. Can you please come outside with me?” You are usually sweet and kind when we work together, which lately has been more often than not, but today, something’s not right, and it hurts me to hear the strain in your voice. I follow you out the door and try hard not to stare at you.
“This girl needs her stomach pumped, and child services needs to be called, immediately. She fell from the tree because she went up there and downed a whole bottle of Tylenol; her mother was not watching her at all. I’m going to take her into surgery; I do not want her mother to come near me when I am finished. Understand?” I nod, because I still am unable to form words around you. I slip away, and let the nurses know the situation.
My shift ends about an hour after the surgery, the girl is surviving, barely and her father replaced her mothers’ spot at her bedside. I was called out when I finished repairing the girl’s broken knee and was told that the mother is now talking to police and the girl will be staying with her father from now on. You were pleased, I’m sure, when you checked on our patient later to not see her mother.
I enter my apartment, another empty night since Christina is still at the hospital. I grab a glass of wine and head to my room, stopping at my dresser to pull out some clothes to change into and the box of things that I held onto of yours. There wasn’t much in it, a few notes you wrote me, stickers (Why, I still have no idea), you’re favorite flower that I pressed into a book and it fell out of when I was cleaning, the black box that held your engagement ring, and the letter you wrote me, when we fell downhill.
My Dearest Calliope,
Things between us have not been good for a while, we both know that. My love for you is stronger than you think, or will ever know. I will never stop fighting for your love, for your heart, and my heart will always be yours. I am tired of the constant fighting, as are you, so I think it’s best if we end our engagement right now. It’s not that I don’t love you any less, but we are running ourselves ragged with the way we currently are. I know in my heart that we are meant to be together forever, please believe me. The day that I become your wife will be the happiest day of both of our lives, but it is not happening at this point. There are things I wish I could go back and change, words I’ve said would have never came out of my mouth, thoughts I’ve had would have never been in my mind. But I can’t change anything. I think it would be best if we took a bit of a break, to calm down and find each other again when we are fully ready.
I will never stop loving you, you are where I belong Calliope, remember that.
Arizona
I let the tears fall freely from my eyes, even thought I’ve read this letter a thousand times before, it still breaks my broken heart.
I cry myself to sleep as I think of tomorrow. I am going to win my girl back; nothing is going to get in my way this time.
Song: Better Than Ezra (Also covered by Taylor Swift) - Untouchable
This chapter is an iffy one for me, I am not 100% as happy as I was with the last chapter, but I think it explains a lot, or at least I hope it does :)