Who Do You Think You Are?
Title: Who Do You Think You Are?
Author: GreysAddict81
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary: First song-fic - Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri; Spoilers from 7x10. Comments appreciated, but I don’t write fics often while I am still working on my other one…hoping I did alright. :D
Disclaimer: All television shows, books, movies, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work and the characters, events, and settings thereof are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
I knew Mark was down at Joe’s. He said something about trying to get Lexie back and after our partial shower this morning, I knew he missed her like I miss Arizona. So I am left alone in the silence of this apartment rather than having drinks with Karev to celebrate my new beginning. I have to have a new beginning, there’s no turning back, only looking forward. I had an awesome day fixing a hip…damn, even my vocabulary has been tainted by the one woman who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Oh wait, she left me in an airport a few months ago. As I served myself with some ravioli, the knock at the door shook me out of my temporary misery. I open it up only to find the most beautiful face I have ever known, with the blue eyes deep as the ocean, and I am rendered speechless.
“Okay, so picture this: I'm in Africa and everything is great and the people are so nice and the clinic is amazing and I'm doing work that actually feels important. Like I can actually see that I am making a difference but I-I'm crying. Like constantly. And this guy that I worked with at the clinic finally asks me what's wrong and I tell him that I miss my girlfriend. Like, I really miss her. So he asks me if I want to go back, if they can replace me and then I open my mouth to say no but what comes out weirdly instead is yes. And so they did. Then I came back.”
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I stay right where I am at the door because I am not sure I can move any closer to her right now. I don’t know what to say. I’m not even sure where to start. Two seconds ago, I was bitter by her absence in my life and now I am joyful that she is within arm’s reach again. I want to hold her and ask if it’s all a dream, but my feet stay grounded as if it is under my brain’s orders even if my heart is screaming something else. I cannot just take her back and pretend nothing will happen. If I do, it might be something that will keep my barriers up later on.
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
She left me. I had barely managed pick myself up off the floor and live everyday as it comes. It took a lot of effort to get to where I am today without her. She doesn’t know but she took a massive part of me with her when she left and I am not sure I can take it back if she still has it.
George and Erica left me with a few cracks and dents, but she left me shattered in a million pieces. The look on her face and her words sliced through my soul back at that airport. For the first time, I saw how cold the warm, loving, adorable woman could be.
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I’m sure she had to ask around to find me here at Mark’s apartment. Teddy knew I couldn’t move back into my place just yet as Arizona and I sublet it. It took a lot for me to stand tall again and I just can’t let her shred me to pieces again. I am strong. But looking into her eyes can melt me instantly and those walls almost start to dissolve.
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
She found me when I was broken and now she found me again when I am shattered to pieces. She made me feel better and I knew that with her I could do almost anything as long as she’s by my side. I used to be light in her eyes and she used to be mine. Instead, she now causes the tears in my eyes that can only reflect the light rather than absorb it. Sometimes, I feel that if I did not ever kiss her in the dirty bar bathroom, I would not be here today. I won’t be living off of Mark’s couch, I won’t be having a passive-aggressive attitude and I won’t be living a lie.
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
As I come to process my thoughts, her words brought me from them. “You look really pretty.” I don’t know whether to be mad or be flattered at the moment. All I know is she left me. She left me in an airport for the money and the opportunity to help the kids. She never made the decision with me, she made it for me. And now, she cannot make me take her back in this moment. So I do what my brain tells me to do, I close the door.
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Author: GreysAddict81
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary: First song-fic - Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri; Spoilers from 7x10. Comments appreciated, but I don’t write fics often while I am still working on my other one…hoping I did alright. :D
Disclaimer: All television shows, books, movies, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work and the characters, events, and settings thereof are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
I knew Mark was down at Joe’s. He said something about trying to get Lexie back and after our partial shower this morning, I knew he missed her like I miss Arizona. So I am left alone in the silence of this apartment rather than having drinks with Karev to celebrate my new beginning. I have to have a new beginning, there’s no turning back, only looking forward. I had an awesome day fixing a hip…damn, even my vocabulary has been tainted by the one woman who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Oh wait, she left me in an airport a few months ago. As I served myself with some ravioli, the knock at the door shook me out of my temporary misery. I open it up only to find the most beautiful face I have ever known, with the blue eyes deep as the ocean, and I am rendered speechless.
“Okay, so picture this: I'm in Africa and everything is great and the people are so nice and the clinic is amazing and I'm doing work that actually feels important. Like I can actually see that I am making a difference but I-I'm crying. Like constantly. And this guy that I worked with at the clinic finally asks me what's wrong and I tell him that I miss my girlfriend. Like, I really miss her. So he asks me if I want to go back, if they can replace me and then I open my mouth to say no but what comes out weirdly instead is yes. And so they did. Then I came back.”
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I stay right where I am at the door because I am not sure I can move any closer to her right now. I don’t know what to say. I’m not even sure where to start. Two seconds ago, I was bitter by her absence in my life and now I am joyful that she is within arm’s reach again. I want to hold her and ask if it’s all a dream, but my feet stay grounded as if it is under my brain’s orders even if my heart is screaming something else. I cannot just take her back and pretend nothing will happen. If I do, it might be something that will keep my barriers up later on.
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
She left me. I had barely managed pick myself up off the floor and live everyday as it comes. It took a lot of effort to get to where I am today without her. She doesn’t know but she took a massive part of me with her when she left and I am not sure I can take it back if she still has it.
George and Erica left me with a few cracks and dents, but she left me shattered in a million pieces. The look on her face and her words sliced through my soul back at that airport. For the first time, I saw how cold the warm, loving, adorable woman could be.
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I’m sure she had to ask around to find me here at Mark’s apartment. Teddy knew I couldn’t move back into my place just yet as Arizona and I sublet it. It took a lot for me to stand tall again and I just can’t let her shred me to pieces again. I am strong. But looking into her eyes can melt me instantly and those walls almost start to dissolve.
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
She found me when I was broken and now she found me again when I am shattered to pieces. She made me feel better and I knew that with her I could do almost anything as long as she’s by my side. I used to be light in her eyes and she used to be mine. Instead, she now causes the tears in my eyes that can only reflect the light rather than absorb it. Sometimes, I feel that if I did not ever kiss her in the dirty bar bathroom, I would not be here today. I won’t be living off of Mark’s couch, I won’t be having a passive-aggressive attitude and I won’t be living a lie.
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
As I come to process my thoughts, her words brought me from them. “You look really pretty.” I don’t know whether to be mad or be flattered at the moment. All I know is she left me. She left me in an airport for the money and the opportunity to help the kids. She never made the decision with me, she made it for me. And now, she cannot make me take her back in this moment. So I do what my brain tells me to do, I close the door.
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?