Unexpected Love 5/?
Title: Unexpected Love 5/?
Author: almicah
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13 for now (language)
Summary: AU - Arizona and Callie meet at boarding school.
Disclaimer: All television shows, books, movies, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work and the characters, events, and settings thereof are the properties of their respective owners. This is for entertainment purposes only, no profit is being made.
A/N 1: This is my first time posting anything so if anyone has tips or anything, please give me them :). I wanna give a thanks to my beta brennaaimee
A/N 2: Previous chapters can be found at my journal almicah
A/N 3: I have a pretty hectic schedule right now so I'm not sure when I'll be able to post again. However I hope that you guys stick with me. Reviews make me write faster :)
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“Please stay, don’t leave me.” Shit, what now? I can’t just leave her like this, she IS asking me to stay. I thought she hated me after tonight.
She loosens her grip, but doesn’t let go. I’m still standing still so she whispers.
“It’s okay if you don’t want too, but please just until I fall asleep.” She’s looking at me now with teary eyes. It must have been a really bad nightmare if she’s begging me to stay. I don’t really have much of a choice.
“Of course Arizona.” I simply say before lying down. She moves over a little to make room on the small bed. I don’t really know what to do next and she doesn’t either. She turns away to try to sleep. Now I’m lying really close to her, I’m not so close that we have contact, but it’s close.
After a while I can feel that I’m really close to the edge and that a simple nudge would make me fall off. So I turn around and move closer to face her back and before I know it I laid my arm around her. She tenses at my action. I didn’t do it on purpose. It’s was a simple reflex when you lay next to someone like that.
I don’t really know what to do next because maybe I stepped over one more line. The first one was maybe laying here in the first place. As I try to take away my arm I can feel her taking my hand. She doesn’t say anything; she just holds it and I can see that her whole body is more relaxed.
Immediately after feeling that she relaxed under my touch I move even closer and I feel her warm body against mine. I have my face at her neck now and I can’t understand how she can smell so good. I could lie like this forever. All of the confusing thoughts I had in my head are gone now. It’s just her and me now and even if she changes rooms tomorrow I’ll remember this night. The best thing I can do is to just enjoy this while it lasts.
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I can’t believe I asked her to hold me until I fall asleep, like I’m some scared child afraid of the monsters. When she kept silent I didn’t think she was going to do it. I had to ask her again, stressing that it would be just until I fall asleep.
As soon as she lied down I almost regretted asking her too. I could feel that she was trying not to touch me, but this bed is pretty small so she was almost forced to turn and face my back. However she wasn’t forced to put her arm around me. I tensed at her action which led to her to try to take away her arm. I should have let her, but I just couldn’t. So when she started to pull away I just held her hand.
We’ve been lying here like this for a while now, I’m scared of falling asleep again. The dreams about my brother are bothering me more often. Not every night, but often enough for me to hate going to bed. This was the first time someone else was hurt in the dream. I can’t even close my eyes without seeing Ted and Calliope hurt.
Ted is gone, but Calliope isn’t. She’s right here with me, for now at least. I hold her hand close to my heart; I have to sleep a little now. I close my eyes now and for the first time I don’t see scary flashbacks of my dream. I can’t think of another reason for that other than Calliope.
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I wake up from feeling Arizona twisting and turning. She’s having a nightmare again, I can hear her crying.
“No, please Calliope don’t do this, you have to be okay.” Oh my god, I’m in this one too. I have to try to calm her down.
“It’s okay Arizona, I’m fine, look.” I turn her around to look at me. She’s crying a lot and I don’t understand how she can have these bad nightmares. She buries her face in my chest and I can feel my shirt becoming damp from the tears. She starts to relax a little.
“I’m here, please don’t cry or you’re going to make my cry.” My heart is breaking at the sight of her.
She looks up at me and I gently wipe away the tears from her cheek. She flinches at my touch at first, but then relaxes.
“I’m sorry; I’m so embarrassed right now.” Really, is she apologizing?
“You have nothing to apologize for, we all get nightmares.” I say trying to convince her.
“Not as often as I do. I’m not even letting you get any sleep.” She says before starting to cry again. How often does she really get nightmares?
“This is much better than sleeping Arizona.” I say smiling at her.
“I can’t believe you’re being this nice to me after tonight.” She whispers.
“Hey, I regret some of my actions tonight and you probably do to.” She looks at me, eyes wide open, for the first time since earlier, before I continue.
“However I don’t regret the kiss Arizona.” I whisper softly trying not to say something wrong. She just buries her face in my chest. I can sense that she’s happy I didn’t regret it. I didn’t, I don’t know how good of an idea it was to kiss her, but I did and I don’t regret it.
“Neither do I.” She simply says looking up.
Now we are just looking in each other’s eyes.
“Maybe we should try to sleep; I hope I don’t get a nightmare again.” She says breaking the gaze.
“Uhm..yeah, but if you do, I’ll be right here.” I say and kiss her forehead. Why did I do that? She looks up and our eyes lock.
I can see that she’s looking at my lips before looking up to me again. I bit my lip before moving in closer, she’s in control now. She can either choose to close the gap or just turn around. I think that she’ll close the gap, but instead she looks at me hesitantly.
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She’s dangerously close right now and I’ve already been burned once tonight.
“Callio-“ I don’t get to finish the sentence before she puts her lips on mine. I kiss her back and at this moment I don’t really care if I get burned again. Okay sure I care, but it would be worth it.
She pulls away a little and looks me in the eyes for some sort of approval. I give her a small smile before kissing her again. She pulls me even closer, if that’s even possible. She starts kissing my neck and I have my hands in her hair. She trails the kisses up to my ear and whispers.
“Arizona...” The sound of her voice melts me. This time it isn’t a dream, this is for real.
I take her face in my hands and continue kissing her, now a little more intensely. I start to roam my hands on her and she does the same to me. She’s a little hesitant, but she starts to touch my stomach under the shirt and I can feel how warm her hands are. I can’t believe this is happening. I’m lying here with this beautiful girl and I’ve actually never felt like this before. I’ve fallen for her so fast I’m scaring myself. This is moving too fast and she’s new to this I don’t want to scare her.
“Calliope…wait” I pull away from the kissing and take her arm away.
“What’s wrong Arizona? Did I do something?” She looks at me with a hurt face.
“No, no you didn’t. It’s just-“ I trail of.
“It’s just what?” She looks at me trying to figure out what I’m thinking.
“We’ve just met and you’re a newborn. I don’t want to ruin this by moving too fast.” Now she just looks confused.
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I’m a newborn? What does that even mean?
“Okay Arizona you lost me at newborn.” She looks at me not really knowing what to say.
“Look Callie, you’re new to girls and I don’t want to be an experiment okay?”
“Well Arizona I don’t know about you, but I’m kind of new to the whole sex thing. I actually find it a bit insulting that you think I would do that to you.” I feel a bit hurt now. I thought she knew me better than that. Okay we’ve known each other for one day, but still.
“No it’s just that I’ve had an experience before where I was a test object. I got hurt badly by that girl; I don’t want that to happen again.” I can understand she’s feeling insecure, I really do. I would feel insecure too if something like that happened to me. The thing is though that you don’t have to be an experiment to get hurt. George didn’t experiment with me and I got hurt.
“Arizona, I get that you are insecure, I really do. I’m scared too. I’ve been hurt too you know. I wasn’t an experiment or something, but it hurts the same. I’m scared too you know. My previous relationships were total failures.” She’s speechless now, not the ranting, nervous girl. Okay maybe a bit nervous.
“Yes, but-“ I don’t let her finish.
“No buts Arizona. I may be a newborn as you say, but I would never do that to someone, especially you.” Her blue eyes just light up and she gives me a smile. God those dimples are so cute. I give her a quick kiss.
“And for the record, I’m falling for you too, but let’s take it slow okay?” She looks surprised at my confession.
“We can still make out right?” She gives me a mischievous grin.
“Definitely” I pull her in for a searing kiss, her lips are so soft. For the first time we use our tongues and we are probably just making out for a few minutes before pausing to catch or breaths, but it feels like hours. It’s so different from being with George; he was kissing like a chicken, just pecking and pecking, Arizona on the other hand kisses like a pro.
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When I wake up its morning, the sun is shining in through the blinds. It’s 9 AM. I didn’t have any more nightmares last night. I think I could thank the beautiful latina hugging me for that. She actually said she was falling for me too. Maybe I died and came to heaven, because this is unreal. I met her yesterday and now I’m in love with her. Yes in love not just starting to fall for her. I can’t let her know that, she would think I’m some weirdo. She scares me and feeling like this so fast scares me. Even though I don’t think that she would hurt me, you never know what could happen.
I look over to her and I can see that her hair is in her face. It’s tickling her nose and she wrinkles it. I laugh softly at the cute expression she has and I take away the hair from her face. With that she wakes up. I didn’t mean to wake her.
“Sorry for waking you, I just wanted to remove the hair that tickled your nose.” I say with an apologizing smile.
“It’s okay.” She smiles before moving closer. She takes her hand to my chin and pulls me in for a kiss. Usually I don’t like kissing someone in the morning, but she’s different. She bites her lip and looks at me hesitantly.
“What? I have drool marks don’t I?” I hate it when that happens. I try brushing it off.
She laughs at me, and pulls away my hand.
“No you don’t have drool marks. Even if you did, you would look hot.”
“Uhm..thanks, I guess.” I laugh at her and now she’s got the look on her face again.
“Come on Calliope, just spit it out.” I can’t say I’m not worried about what’s happened now.
“Who’s Ted?” She simply asks. I just look at her; I don’t really know what to say. Ted is a subject that I avoid most of the time, but she was there for me last night and she deserves to know. I can feel that my eyes are starting to tear up; I can feel the tears running down my cheeks now.
“Hey, now I made you cry, again. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want.” She says with a sad face and wipes away the tears. I have never talked to anyone except for my family about him.
“No it’s okay, I’m being silly. I want to tell you, it’s just hard okay?”
“You are not being silly; obviously this is something that bothers you. I’m not going anywhere, when you’re ready I’m here listening.”
“I think I’m ready. Just let me finish before you say anything.” She nods before I continue.
“You know my dad is in the military so my whole childhood I’ve been taught that you fight for your country. My brother, Ted, joined the army the same day he graduated high school. I had trouble accepting it, I was still pretty young. Not that I’m old now. I do think it’s brave and everything, but it was my brother. You don’t want him to go to a warzone. That was two years ago, a year ago we got a knock on the door. As soon as heard the knock I knew.” I can’t speak anymore, now I’m just crying.
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I did not see this coming. I mean she’s in a military family, but still. I’ve never really had some one close to me with a family member that died. He died a year ago, but still. Maybe I shouldn’t have brought it up, because now she’s crying. I pull her in for a hug.
“It’s okay, just let it out.” I whisper causing her to cry even more. I bet she never has let it all out. I mean she probably didn’t want to cry in front of her parents. She has never told anyone so maybe I’m the first person she really shows this side for.
“I’m sorry; I shouldn’t burden you with this.” Is she for real?
“Arizona, you aren’t burdening me. I asked you remember?” She looks up at me and nods.
“So do you get nightmares a lot?” I don’t want to cross a line, but I want to know.
“Sometimes it can be a few times a week, sometimes it’s once a month. Last night I had more than one which I’ve never had before.” By the look on her face it looks like she wishes that doesn’t happen ever again.
“And I was also in it?” She did call out my name, but I still need to ask.
“Yeah you were, you were also hurt-“ She buries her head in my chest before even finishing the sentence. It breaks my heart in million pieces seeing her like this.
“I was hurt in the dream Arizona, only in the dream. Look at me!” I pull away for her to look me in the eyes.
“I’m fine see.” I give her a small smile. “It’s going to take more than a dream for you to get rid of me.”
“Really? Lucky me.” She says before giving me a fiery kiss, oh my god. She pulls away and gives me a smile. What a tease.
“I’m going to go and take a shower now okay? A long, long and cold shower.” With that she gets up without even looking at me and goes directly to the bathroom. I can’t see her face, but I can imagine the smile she has glued to her face.
Tomorrow classes’ start, which means that this is the last day before school starts that we can enjoy the summer break.
Author: almicah
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13 for now (language)
Summary: AU - Arizona and Callie meet at boarding school.
Disclaimer: All television shows, books, movies, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work and the characters, events, and settings thereof are the properties of their respective owners. This is for entertainment purposes only, no profit is being made.
A/N 1: This is my first time posting anything so if anyone has tips or anything, please give me them :). I wanna give a thanks to my beta brennaaimee
A/N 2: Previous chapters can be found at my journal almicah
A/N 3: I have a pretty hectic schedule right now so I'm not sure when I'll be able to post again. However I hope that you guys stick with me. Reviews make me write faster :)
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“Please stay, don’t leave me.” Shit, what now? I can’t just leave her like this, she IS asking me to stay. I thought she hated me after tonight.
She loosens her grip, but doesn’t let go. I’m still standing still so she whispers.
“It’s okay if you don’t want too, but please just until I fall asleep.” She’s looking at me now with teary eyes. It must have been a really bad nightmare if she’s begging me to stay. I don’t really have much of a choice.
“Of course Arizona.” I simply say before lying down. She moves over a little to make room on the small bed. I don’t really know what to do next and she doesn’t either. She turns away to try to sleep. Now I’m lying really close to her, I’m not so close that we have contact, but it’s close.
After a while I can feel that I’m really close to the edge and that a simple nudge would make me fall off. So I turn around and move closer to face her back and before I know it I laid my arm around her. She tenses at my action. I didn’t do it on purpose. It’s was a simple reflex when you lay next to someone like that.
I don’t really know what to do next because maybe I stepped over one more line. The first one was maybe laying here in the first place. As I try to take away my arm I can feel her taking my hand. She doesn’t say anything; she just holds it and I can see that her whole body is more relaxed.
Immediately after feeling that she relaxed under my touch I move even closer and I feel her warm body against mine. I have my face at her neck now and I can’t understand how she can smell so good. I could lie like this forever. All of the confusing thoughts I had in my head are gone now. It’s just her and me now and even if she changes rooms tomorrow I’ll remember this night. The best thing I can do is to just enjoy this while it lasts.
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I can’t believe I asked her to hold me until I fall asleep, like I’m some scared child afraid of the monsters. When she kept silent I didn’t think she was going to do it. I had to ask her again, stressing that it would be just until I fall asleep.
As soon as she lied down I almost regretted asking her too. I could feel that she was trying not to touch me, but this bed is pretty small so she was almost forced to turn and face my back. However she wasn’t forced to put her arm around me. I tensed at her action which led to her to try to take away her arm. I should have let her, but I just couldn’t. So when she started to pull away I just held her hand.
We’ve been lying here like this for a while now, I’m scared of falling asleep again. The dreams about my brother are bothering me more often. Not every night, but often enough for me to hate going to bed. This was the first time someone else was hurt in the dream. I can’t even close my eyes without seeing Ted and Calliope hurt.
Ted is gone, but Calliope isn’t. She’s right here with me, for now at least. I hold her hand close to my heart; I have to sleep a little now. I close my eyes now and for the first time I don’t see scary flashbacks of my dream. I can’t think of another reason for that other than Calliope.
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I wake up from feeling Arizona twisting and turning. She’s having a nightmare again, I can hear her crying.
“No, please Calliope don’t do this, you have to be okay.” Oh my god, I’m in this one too. I have to try to calm her down.
“It’s okay Arizona, I’m fine, look.” I turn her around to look at me. She’s crying a lot and I don’t understand how she can have these bad nightmares. She buries her face in my chest and I can feel my shirt becoming damp from the tears. She starts to relax a little.
“I’m here, please don’t cry or you’re going to make my cry.” My heart is breaking at the sight of her.
She looks up at me and I gently wipe away the tears from her cheek. She flinches at my touch at first, but then relaxes.
“I’m sorry; I’m so embarrassed right now.” Really, is she apologizing?
“You have nothing to apologize for, we all get nightmares.” I say trying to convince her.
“Not as often as I do. I’m not even letting you get any sleep.” She says before starting to cry again. How often does she really get nightmares?
“This is much better than sleeping Arizona.” I say smiling at her.
“I can’t believe you’re being this nice to me after tonight.” She whispers.
“Hey, I regret some of my actions tonight and you probably do to.” She looks at me, eyes wide open, for the first time since earlier, before I continue.
“However I don’t regret the kiss Arizona.” I whisper softly trying not to say something wrong. She just buries her face in my chest. I can sense that she’s happy I didn’t regret it. I didn’t, I don’t know how good of an idea it was to kiss her, but I did and I don’t regret it.
“Neither do I.” She simply says looking up.
Now we are just looking in each other’s eyes.
“Maybe we should try to sleep; I hope I don’t get a nightmare again.” She says breaking the gaze.
“Uhm..yeah, but if you do, I’ll be right here.” I say and kiss her forehead. Why did I do that? She looks up and our eyes lock.
I can see that she’s looking at my lips before looking up to me again. I bit my lip before moving in closer, she’s in control now. She can either choose to close the gap or just turn around. I think that she’ll close the gap, but instead she looks at me hesitantly.
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She’s dangerously close right now and I’ve already been burned once tonight.
“Callio-“ I don’t get to finish the sentence before she puts her lips on mine. I kiss her back and at this moment I don’t really care if I get burned again. Okay sure I care, but it would be worth it.
She pulls away a little and looks me in the eyes for some sort of approval. I give her a small smile before kissing her again. She pulls me even closer, if that’s even possible. She starts kissing my neck and I have my hands in her hair. She trails the kisses up to my ear and whispers.
“Arizona...” The sound of her voice melts me. This time it isn’t a dream, this is for real.
I take her face in my hands and continue kissing her, now a little more intensely. I start to roam my hands on her and she does the same to me. She’s a little hesitant, but she starts to touch my stomach under the shirt and I can feel how warm her hands are. I can’t believe this is happening. I’m lying here with this beautiful girl and I’ve actually never felt like this before. I’ve fallen for her so fast I’m scaring myself. This is moving too fast and she’s new to this I don’t want to scare her.
“Calliope…wait” I pull away from the kissing and take her arm away.
“What’s wrong Arizona? Did I do something?” She looks at me with a hurt face.
“No, no you didn’t. It’s just-“ I trail of.
“It’s just what?” She looks at me trying to figure out what I’m thinking.
“We’ve just met and you’re a newborn. I don’t want to ruin this by moving too fast.” Now she just looks confused.
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I’m a newborn? What does that even mean?
“Okay Arizona you lost me at newborn.” She looks at me not really knowing what to say.
“Look Callie, you’re new to girls and I don’t want to be an experiment okay?”
“Well Arizona I don’t know about you, but I’m kind of new to the whole sex thing. I actually find it a bit insulting that you think I would do that to you.” I feel a bit hurt now. I thought she knew me better than that. Okay we’ve known each other for one day, but still.
“No it’s just that I’ve had an experience before where I was a test object. I got hurt badly by that girl; I don’t want that to happen again.” I can understand she’s feeling insecure, I really do. I would feel insecure too if something like that happened to me. The thing is though that you don’t have to be an experiment to get hurt. George didn’t experiment with me and I got hurt.
“Arizona, I get that you are insecure, I really do. I’m scared too. I’ve been hurt too you know. I wasn’t an experiment or something, but it hurts the same. I’m scared too you know. My previous relationships were total failures.” She’s speechless now, not the ranting, nervous girl. Okay maybe a bit nervous.
“Yes, but-“ I don’t let her finish.
“No buts Arizona. I may be a newborn as you say, but I would never do that to someone, especially you.” Her blue eyes just light up and she gives me a smile. God those dimples are so cute. I give her a quick kiss.
“And for the record, I’m falling for you too, but let’s take it slow okay?” She looks surprised at my confession.
“We can still make out right?” She gives me a mischievous grin.
“Definitely” I pull her in for a searing kiss, her lips are so soft. For the first time we use our tongues and we are probably just making out for a few minutes before pausing to catch or breaths, but it feels like hours. It’s so different from being with George; he was kissing like a chicken, just pecking and pecking, Arizona on the other hand kisses like a pro.
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When I wake up its morning, the sun is shining in through the blinds. It’s 9 AM. I didn’t have any more nightmares last night. I think I could thank the beautiful latina hugging me for that. She actually said she was falling for me too. Maybe I died and came to heaven, because this is unreal. I met her yesterday and now I’m in love with her. Yes in love not just starting to fall for her. I can’t let her know that, she would think I’m some weirdo. She scares me and feeling like this so fast scares me. Even though I don’t think that she would hurt me, you never know what could happen.
I look over to her and I can see that her hair is in her face. It’s tickling her nose and she wrinkles it. I laugh softly at the cute expression she has and I take away the hair from her face. With that she wakes up. I didn’t mean to wake her.
“Sorry for waking you, I just wanted to remove the hair that tickled your nose.” I say with an apologizing smile.
“It’s okay.” She smiles before moving closer. She takes her hand to my chin and pulls me in for a kiss. Usually I don’t like kissing someone in the morning, but she’s different. She bites her lip and looks at me hesitantly.
“What? I have drool marks don’t I?” I hate it when that happens. I try brushing it off.
She laughs at me, and pulls away my hand.
“No you don’t have drool marks. Even if you did, you would look hot.”
“Uhm..thanks, I guess.” I laugh at her and now she’s got the look on her face again.
“Come on Calliope, just spit it out.” I can’t say I’m not worried about what’s happened now.
“Who’s Ted?” She simply asks. I just look at her; I don’t really know what to say. Ted is a subject that I avoid most of the time, but she was there for me last night and she deserves to know. I can feel that my eyes are starting to tear up; I can feel the tears running down my cheeks now.
“Hey, now I made you cry, again. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want.” She says with a sad face and wipes away the tears. I have never talked to anyone except for my family about him.
“No it’s okay, I’m being silly. I want to tell you, it’s just hard okay?”
“You are not being silly; obviously this is something that bothers you. I’m not going anywhere, when you’re ready I’m here listening.”
“I think I’m ready. Just let me finish before you say anything.” She nods before I continue.
“You know my dad is in the military so my whole childhood I’ve been taught that you fight for your country. My brother, Ted, joined the army the same day he graduated high school. I had trouble accepting it, I was still pretty young. Not that I’m old now. I do think it’s brave and everything, but it was my brother. You don’t want him to go to a warzone. That was two years ago, a year ago we got a knock on the door. As soon as heard the knock I knew.” I can’t speak anymore, now I’m just crying.
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I did not see this coming. I mean she’s in a military family, but still. I’ve never really had some one close to me with a family member that died. He died a year ago, but still. Maybe I shouldn’t have brought it up, because now she’s crying. I pull her in for a hug.
“It’s okay, just let it out.” I whisper causing her to cry even more. I bet she never has let it all out. I mean she probably didn’t want to cry in front of her parents. She has never told anyone so maybe I’m the first person she really shows this side for.
“I’m sorry; I shouldn’t burden you with this.” Is she for real?
“Arizona, you aren’t burdening me. I asked you remember?” She looks up at me and nods.
“So do you get nightmares a lot?” I don’t want to cross a line, but I want to know.
“Sometimes it can be a few times a week, sometimes it’s once a month. Last night I had more than one which I’ve never had before.” By the look on her face it looks like she wishes that doesn’t happen ever again.
“And I was also in it?” She did call out my name, but I still need to ask.
“Yeah you were, you were also hurt-“ She buries her head in my chest before even finishing the sentence. It breaks my heart in million pieces seeing her like this.
“I was hurt in the dream Arizona, only in the dream. Look at me!” I pull away for her to look me in the eyes.
“I’m fine see.” I give her a small smile. “It’s going to take more than a dream for you to get rid of me.”
“Really? Lucky me.” She says before giving me a fiery kiss, oh my god. She pulls away and gives me a smile. What a tease.
“I’m going to go and take a shower now okay? A long, long and cold shower.” With that she gets up without even looking at me and goes directly to the bathroom. I can’t see her face, but I can imagine the smile she has glued to her face.
Tomorrow classes’ start, which means that this is the last day before school starts that we can enjoy the summer break.