I just talked to Lonnie's cousin. He hasn't heard from him in 2 weeks almost. Yea. Really upset and scared. I'm mostly scared that I'll never see him again. Is that stupid?

-Cass

I'm so not enjoying the snowy weather. Yea.. still haven't slept. DAMMIT I HATE RUNNING AROUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON!! Watchout.. I might turn bipolar on your ass! That's right.. it's a threat!! Just stop staring at me funny and I might half that bipolarness and make myself get only semi-psychotic on you.. err. I think I might (haha i almost ( Read more... )

So... I'm figuring out that all the things that would normally bother me to no end/ tears I've been able to brush off as wtf ever. I can kind of see these situations from a clearer perspective. Like how I haven't talked to Lonnie in like 4 days. There's much to say on that subject but I'm just gonna leave it at that. He's lost... and I almost ( Read more... )

and yea... here's the real picture:


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Look... its an artistic rendering of a photo of my face!!  Thanks I did it myself... Credits to Jake for the actual picture.


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I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! (but I love you) but I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!!! Stupid fucking idiot. YOU ARE A STUPID FUCKING IRRESPONSIBLE, INCONSIDERATE, IDIOT! And I HATE you for it. But I love you so much too. But Gah DAMN am I so mad right now..

The sweetest thing I've heard in a long time: "I miss you... so much." Coming from Lonnie, that's like one of the nicest pieces of affection he's ever given me. Unemotional guys are so suprising sometimes. I hope I get to spend the weekend with him. That would be fantastical. I miss him a lot too ( Read more... )

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So... ok.. can I tell you how much I hate boys. I mean yes Lonnie and I are doing great, like he wants to see me again and things are pretty good. I mean he makes really sweet comments towards me but he does other things that really irritate me or make me really sad. Like today.. him saying he'd never be tied down.. and that's the way it is. I ( Read more... )

So I have several things to say... but most importantly I will just say this one thing first and save the others for another entry ( Read more... )