A letter from a dead relative... wow, that's 9 kinds of f*cked up.
For what it's worth, I think you're perfectly justified in distancing yourself from people who seem to take some kind of gratification in making you feel lowly. Being more selfish is something I should put into practice more often. Even though Kim and I are separated, I've still been there to bail her butt out financially. That's between $100 and $200 every month that could be applied towards regaining my autonomy. But, here I am, at it again.
Zvard! I am sad to tell you that your awesome Powderfinger flash animation has finally died, as my Powderfinger website is ... *sniff* ... no more. I have decided to let it go because, well, I don't really like Powderfinger's new stuff and I am too busy with other website projects anyway.
Yeah, being 10,000 miles away has helped - I can sit through a whole conversation with my mom now and have enough stuff to say that it never feels like abject torture. Still, what bothers me is that, my mom is really sad that I'm not there and she really misses me and she tries really hard to keep in touch and I just don't care, I don't miss her, I don't feel sadness about her (I miss the fuck out of all of you guys, but not my family). I am not bothered that she's sad, I'm bothered that I'm not bothered that she's sad ... if that makes sense? Buh.
Anyway, good to hear from you & I will do my best to keep in touch - but I really suck at it!
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For what it's worth, I think you're perfectly justified in distancing yourself from people who seem to take some kind of gratification in making you feel lowly. Being more selfish is something I should put into practice more often. Even though Kim and I are separated, I've still been there to bail her butt out financially. That's between $100 and $200 every month that could be applied towards regaining my autonomy. But, here I am, at it again.
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How about this - I'll trade you some of my selfishness for some of your selflessness?
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*bamfs like a genie*
DONE!
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Yeah, being 10,000 miles away has helped - I can sit through a whole conversation with my mom now and have enough stuff to say that it never feels like abject torture. Still, what bothers me is that, my mom is really sad that I'm not there and she really misses me and she tries really hard to keep in touch and I just don't care, I don't miss her, I don't feel sadness about her (I miss the fuck out of all of you guys, but not my family). I am not bothered that she's sad, I'm bothered that I'm not bothered that she's sad ... if that makes sense? Buh.
Anyway, good to hear from you & I will do my best to keep in touch - but I really suck at it!
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