When You Pray, Move Your Feet

[cacophonesque]

I.The world bustles around me. Cars roll by. A jogger smiles as she passes. I shuffle one foot forward and wince as my pubis joint sends a jolt of pain through my body. After a pause I adjust my movement ever so slightly and try again. I have time. I am waiting for an epiphany. The discomfort of each step drowns out the endless drone of thoughts

Comments

[rhetoricians]

I'm a UU as well, so this really struck a chord with me. How lovely.

[cacophonesque]

Thank you. One of the biggest challenges for me is even articulating how my faith operates. And that in turn makes it difficult for me to tackle seminary applications--even without all of the other doubts.

[cheshire23]

I love the idea of the call leaving no callback number - I have often felt that frustration, and you put it into such beautiful words.

[cacophonesque]

Thanks. It really is frustrating--and I think that one line might be one of the biggest questions in my whole discernment process. Sometimes I find myself wishing that I identified with a more doctrine-based faith, just because it seems like it would be a whole lot easier.

[drjeff]

So happy to read you again. So happy.

[cacophonesque]

You're so sweet! It feels good to be writing again. You know, in a way that taps into my creative brain rather than my more pragmatic updates.

[drjeff]

Oh, I know exactly what you mean!

[cacophonesque]

Thank you very much. I'm always glad when I hear that I've been able to elicit a powerful feeling with my words.

[m_malcontent]

Very good, insightful stuff.

And yeah I am taking out student loans every semester....toward a Masters in Literature....if I make enough to even pay back my student loans it will be a miracle.

[cacophonesque]

It's just such a difficult place to be right now. Sometimes I kick myself for taking so long to figure out what my calling was. Because maybe if I had figured it out sooner I could have finished it before the economy imploded and I wouldn't have to worry as much about debt and high unemployment.

[cheshire23]

I can relate. Unfortunately. <3

I comfort myself with the knowledge that part of the calling is having had the experiences I've had that will make me better at what I do in the end.

[cacophonesque]

And, see, I know that that is true, too. Without the experiences I've had, I don't think I'd have as much to give.