AU Gibbs/DiNozzo: The Parting

[cackymn_lj]

Title: The Parting
Author: Cackymn_lj
Fandom: NCIS
Category: AU, slash
Pairing: Gibbs/DiNozzo
Words: 550
Rating: No worries
Warning: ANGST
Disclaimer: Sure
Challenge: ncis_drabble Challenge #424: Smoke

Summary: "Nothing in their long and passionate goodbye could make it one bit worse or one bit better."

More Drabble FIC, following Flame and The Meeting. Links:

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Comments

[tonysmel]

I don't even know what to say.
I feel shattered. Jethro's pain, loss ..."Could he wait, when he didn't believe the stars meant to return Anthony to him?" ..." Maybe until Anthony's voice faded from the last room, or until he could no longer smell him." Oh God, this hurts.
You've pulled so many tears from me here. In the course of three drabbles, you've managed to create such a powerful story, that Jethro's loss just lays me flat.
I have to think about this more, but wow. Just wow.

[cackymn_lj]

Mmmm. Thank you. I will not be surprised if people stay away in droves, so thank you. I know how much it hurts. Other authors have made me literally break down in sobs. Why would anyone write sad Tibbs? A few of our friends love the dark, but it's no regular diet I tell you. This is the work of the muse.

[tonysmel]

But this isn't a bad thing, this sadness, this darkness. Anytime a writer can make you feel something on such a deep level, I consider that a gift. I agree with Liz, the direction you've taken is very brave.
And about what you said in your other comment, about Tony being a mystery, he really is. We only see him through Jethro's POV, and their initial meeting has very little dialog. He can't even explain to Gibbs why he has to go.
Add to that the "light", the "friend of God", the stars, this mysterious presence from the sky...there's this other-worldly, or spiritual feel to it all, something intangible.
The more I read and think about it, the more I see...

[cackymn_lj]

The sadness exists because of the love. I hope I can do it justice.
As for Tony's identity and motivations, I am hanging out in space, trusting the missives of the muse.
Again, hoping...
Thank you so much, my dear friend! :-)

[ncisvu_lj]

GO WITH TONY, GIBBS!!

You've somehow managed to make me feel like Gibbs can't go with Tony... like it wouldn't be his place or something. I don't know. I can't explain it but this works! It would be so easy to just send Gibbs along with Tony but you didn't do that and that's brave and your story is better for it. They must be separated... it's how it has to be right now but hopefully not forever.

I also love Gibbs' doubt and confusion: Could he wait, when he didn't believe the stars meant to return Anthony to him? He didn't even understand why he'd been taken. Why he'd gone.

And finally, I love that Gibbs has gone back to the ocean, back to where it all started and I love how you described the ocean: surely the timeless sea could swallow the sounds of joy or tribulation. That was the perfect way to wrap this one up. Another magnificent job!!

[cackymn_lj]

Thank you for coming along for this. I never imagined doing such a thing. There will be things unfolding, reasons. I'm having to trust here as I go. It seemed to me Jethro is a man of the earth after everything, and I don't think either knows his purpose yet. The original prompt held trauma and mystery, especially for Anthony with the mystery. Also, since loss is an ever-present theme with Gibbs, and Mark just kills when Gibbs is sad, I wanted to give that sadness a new face. Sorry, Jethro. It isn't over, though.

[joss80]

GAh!!AAAAHHHHH!!! Pain, such pain!! :( And brilliance. Oh gosh you have ripped my heart open along with theirs.
Big sigh.

[cackymn_lj]

Sorry 'bout that. ;-)
Thank you for going there!
(I'm going to read your new thing later tonight.)

[singer_s_lament]

Oh my god!!!

How fucking sad, and achy, and the feelz! Why didn't he go?? !

[cackymn_lj]

I think that remains to be seen...

[k9lasko]

You already know that I appreciate dark and angsty things. I find it to be an oddly cathartic experience. Through this medium I find I can better understand the sadness, hopelessness and loss, etc around me and within me. Sad Tibbs is my bread and butter.

I find this whole series quite ethereal. And sometimes I wonder... Is Anthony real? Does he even exist? It's an odd thought I had while reading, and re-reading these. (Because I think re-reading is necessary. Despite these being short, there are layers to explore.)

I love that your muse is going wherever it wants to go. Let it wander!

Great job, as always!

[cackymn_lj]

I have been giving much thought to who and what Anthony is in this...
He is real. But there is something more going on.
Lord I need a bolt of inspiration.
And I know exactly what you mean about the dark. I know I need a guide in many of life's passages. I have some uncanny tales about the sychronicity of fanfic with some of my more troubling journeys. And of course there is the awesome light of fanfic love. Sigh.
Even more than Gibbs and Tony help to inform whatever angst is in my soul, they explode me with love. More than anything or anyone ever has.
If that be strange, one only need read to see how many people for whom that seems to be true. What a gift to the world.

[cackymn_lj]

Oh wow, k9.
I just re-read and Anthony totally works as a figment. A phantom in someone's lonely love-starved imagination. It's so sad I'm feeling quite ill.
Amazing. I love the way your brain works...