I have occasionally been known to do a 5k loop around schenley from wean in the mid-afternoon. If that is convenient for you (and you don't mind my slower pace) I would be happy for company.
hm, being depressed / "letting my guard down" is more of a meta-feeling, a mindset that makes me think different ways.
stress... i dunno, it's very rare that i am actually stressed, and these days it doesn't manifest as worry or fear or anything, just as "i am now in 'pushing myself very hard' mode." (like, i know i will have a good thesis at the end.) depression always comes with fear of some sort.
another recent example: working on finding housemate(s) for next year. when it looks like somebody might say no, i react desperately-hopeful (that i don't end up with no housemates), but when it looks like somebody might say yes, i recoil in fear of tying the knot (afraid that we won't get along, or that i could "do better", etc). as though i'm at some external mercy, and haven't got the confidence to know "*I* will be able to make it good no matter what happens."
Hang in there, buddy. I (kind) of know what you're going through, and the important thing is that you're being vigilant and catching yourself. I'm always here to talk/help if you need it.
tbh the important thing is that i produce a thesis that i'm proud of. transient feelings come second. ;)
thanks. the only thing i could complain/worry-out-loud about are minor thesis woes, which aren't too interesting even as i hear them coming out of my own mouth. but i will poke you to lean on the next appropriate time anyway. <3
Comments 11
Reply
i'd be surprised if running less (long, not less frequently) made me more irritable - i don't think it did the last two times i tapered.
Reply
Reply
I'll probably also want to run a bunch of slow 3-milers during marathon recovery over the next few weeks, so yeah, this sounds great.
Reply
(The comment has been removed)
stress... i dunno, it's very rare that i am actually stressed, and these days it doesn't manifest as worry or fear or anything, just as "i am now in 'pushing myself very hard' mode." (like, i know i will have a good thesis at the end.) depression always comes with fear of some sort.
another recent example: working on finding housemate(s) for next year. when it looks like somebody might say no, i react desperately-hopeful (that i don't end up with no housemates), but when it looks like somebody might say yes, i recoil in fear of tying the knot (afraid that we won't get along, or that i could "do better", etc). as though i'm at some external mercy, and haven't got the confidence to know "*I* will be able to make it good no matter what happens."
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
thanks. the only thing i could complain/worry-out-loud about are minor thesis woes, which aren't too interesting even as i hear them coming out of my own mouth. but i will poke you to lean on the next appropriate time anyway. <3
Reply
Leave a comment