Fic: Not a Person (The Pick Your Side Remix)

[lanalucy]

Title: Not a Person (The Pick Your Side Remix)
Characters: Felix Gaeta, Sweet!Eight, Noel Allison, Sharon Agathon
Pairing: Felix/Noel, Athena/Helo, Felix/Sweet!Eight
Rating: Explicit/Mature
Warnings: Scenes of sex of dubious consent
Summary: Things he remembers after it’s over.
Original Story: Pick Your Side by lorrainemarker

Comments

[altitudeandwine]

Oh god. This was intense!
Well drawn out, well written, subtly moving under the reader's skin with the changing emotions of Felix.
And then the plot. Adding little ohnoes on ohnoes and ultimately thoroughy unnerving me.
Very human in the well displayed details of the emotions.

[walbergr]

Thank you. :-) I had a rich landscape to play in when it comes to ohnoes and Felix, both from lorrainemarker and RDM.

[lanalucy]

I love having this from Felix's pov. So much depth here I wouldn't have seen otherwise.

Marvelous remix work.

[walbergr]

Thank you, and thanks for your help!

[lorrainemarker]

What a wonderful remix. I've always wanted to see this from Felix or Noel's PoV and this hits that wish perfectly

[walbergr]

Thank you so much for giving me such a stellar piece to work from! I feel bad that my source material for you was so brief. Then again, it was valuable to have some headcanon to work off, since I don't have a lot of my own where Felix is concerned -- and of course you have plenty to go around!

Felix was so interesting to write in this piece, especially in contrast to how he was portrayed in Face of the Enemy. It was a fine line to walk between sympathy for Sweet!Eight and for Felix. Neither of them went into it innocent or came out of it happy.

I'm so glad you liked it!

[fragrantwoods]

What a wonderful, painful look into Felix's head and heart! His anguish and determination are so stark here and gives such strong emphasis to what he would have gone through to help the resistance. I agree with the comment that you can feel what Athena was doing off-stage here and it fits so well. His observance of Hera is heart-breaking as he sees the whole "love creates babies from Cylon and human" is naive and ridiculously innocent....and this just gets more horrifying the more I think about it. And him trying to pinpoint which act ended in conception, was it worth it...ouch. I love the comfort he gets (finally lets himself get) from Noel.

[walbergr]

Thank you! I struggled a bit with how to mesh all of the different Felix's I was working with here - especially since Face of the Enemy Felix and canon Felix and Pick Your Side Felix all seemed like very different characters. I think it makes perfect sense that the fact that they conceived would give Sweet!Eight the impression that of course they were in love, and would make Felix more cynical about the entire cylon race. I'm glad you enjoyed it!

[millari]

This was absolutely beautiful. The prose in itself was a work of beauty, even if it hadn't been an utterly gripping character study into Felix's time with the Eight on New Caprica. The way you make the betrayals feel nearly equal on both his side and the Eight's make this so much more awful and tragic. I was so grateful that Narcho was there as this anchor you kept returning to that kept Felix clinging on for dear life, whereas if he hadn't been in the story, I think it would have been impossibly painful to read

[walbergr]

This comment made my day! I signed up with the thought that I might be writing something about Felix, and after getting started I realized how deeply out of my element I was. He's a great character and one I sympathize with, but you are not wrong that I don't usually play in this sandbox, and it was fun!

Part of this process for me was recognizing how cool the remix concept is - it's really fun and interesting to write a story you wouldn't have written yourself (for whatever reason) from a different perspective, and finding those moments and images in it that resonate.