Lost at 20.

[bsb87angel]

What is God’s plan for me? What is His plan for you?

I cannot move on. I cannot quit lamenting because I see no future/real purpose in my life.

I cannot move on with the fact that I scored mediocre results for ‘O’ levels.
Regret #1: Didn’t study hard enough. Why didn’t I!
Regret #2: Dropped A Maths. Why did I even listen to Mrs John?
Regret #3:

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[novocainebandit]

Don't worry, do you best! My dumb life is more pathetic. Hehe. I have no job, no money, all I do is go to school. You'd think I'd be top of the class but I'm barely passing Pre-Calculus!! *cries* But I always think to myself that although my grades are low, if helping others is my passion, then I will make it because having the heart is better than the brain. ^^ Anyway, enough babbling about the future. You got to see LEEHOM?! That's so awesome. He looks so young for his age.

[bsb87angel]

Thanks, Nou. You're in college now, right?

Bleh, I hate math. I almost took calculus but since i dropped additional maths, i didn't have to learn it. Of course, you don't have money now... 'cause you're still studying. :D

You work hard at it too, yeah! You still have a couple years more to go before you graduate... so take your time to think.

Yeahhh i got to see Leehom!!! I got his autograph :DDD
My mom says he's looking betta and betta these days. He looks like he's 20 or something! Ahhh you should catch Lust, Caution too.

You listen to chinese music too? He's like the only chinese artiste i listen too. (and some JJ Lin & Jay Chou songs too.) ^_^

[novocainebandit]

You got Leehom's autograph? *envies* I can only watch from his performances from youtube. But Jay Chou is probably my favorite chinese artist, though I prefer Lee Hom's singing than all of the other chinese singers. He's got a beautiful voice, It's so smooth and trained!!

[anonymous]

Hey Jamie,
How's your work? It has been such a long time since i last met you. Hmm... After my uni exams then I shall meet up with you and shui min. :)
Eunice

[bsb87angel]

Tell you more about it when we meet!

I'm itching to study... it's been such a long time since i last took an exam/test.

[thearchivepen]

Hi Jamie :)
I hope you're feeling better now! (okay my abrupt appearance here was.....uncalled for)

I don't really know how useful my suggestions will be but do consider these.
1) What about trying to work in the field that you'll be interested to pursue a degree in? (maybe impress your employer and they'll sponser you to do your degree!) Exposure is good, even if it means taking up a job that is really nothing really interested but in the field of Mass Comm / Communication that you're interested in?

2) I don't know if this is something you're interested in but i saw this Bachelor of Arts in Communication - Full-time
awarded by University of Buffalo in SIM. I don't really know how good the degree is but you could always check it out

Hope this helps!

Don't lose hope okay :) I believe we'll find our way out to everything! :)

[bsb87angel]

Hi Peiwen

hey there

[joyfuljo]

Oh crap, I really hate thinking about the future. I feel heavy-hearted and sick of myself everytime I think about it. ):
Recently, Edmund mentioned that I’m not the same quiet, reserved and blur Jamie he used to know back then in secondary school. Of course, I always look hyper and happy to everyone now.

I can TOTALLY relate to you on what you've written (: something I thought I was the only one experiencing, seeing how others around me alws look contented or are happy, never fails to make me wonder if im the only pathetic soul.

"In fact, it’s easy to look and make oneself happy. Talk about short-lived happiness.

Oh sure, when Leehom came to town, I was happy.
When I met the Backstreet Boys, I was happy.
When I got my new cell phone, I was happy.

But how happy is happy? I am not exactly HAPPY happy. "